Getting enough Test... I ABSOLUTELY must have enough.

[Stretch]

BBC I have no clue what you're saying. Please go slow, then re-read your post so it's very clear.

I've spent time signifigantly more than 3 days in county before (just to be clear I'm not at all proud of this) but I am confused how this is relevant to the conversation at hand, and I AM young but at 24, nearly 25. I'm NOT too young by any stretch if the imagination.

[Jayho]

Originally Posted by Stretch

It just seems to me that you strive to SOUND intelligent. I'm not saying that you're not intelligent, there is just something a little off-beat to your posts.

For instance above you say "because of something called Amphetamine Tolerance" you even capitalize both words as if it were a pronoun. You attempt to add a degree of grandiosity to a very simple subject. Amphetamine tolerance is not a deep nor hard to understand topic, and you seem to refer to it in a very unusual way. IMO

It's called confidence.

I know what i'm talking about. Why??? because i'm talking about a problem that nearly destroyed my life.

I wouldn't talk this way if i was throwing down my opinion of Jesse Jame's newest Hot Rod.

Or if i was debating the news with Ron Burgandy.....But, in this little corner of the world (How steroids and Psychostimulants effect me) I know exactly what i'm talking about.
I'm not a genious, but i'm not stupid. IQ 124.


WendyTents. I know what you're talking about. One thing though. Don't rely on Testosterone totally if you're going to have to fight a really tuff opponent. Pop a Vyvanse or a Beta Blocker and do it right. Test alone will work very well. But just like the commercial... be Sure, not Unsure. Completely block the Flight response from your brains receptors. Cut the head off the snake.

Remember, you don't always have to fight. When you first inject you're gonna want to fight.... (you will then emphathize with criminals who struggle to obey the law) Just remember, public embarassments... punking.... and just holding your position (b/c it's the highground) can work exponentaly better than actually punching people with malicious intent.

And try to remember..... the injection will not last forever. If you do something stupid and go to jail.... the shot will wear off.... and you will be a Prison Bitch..... you're a prison bitch... your not like other men..... You're sorry you share this prison cell with Bubba... where lights go out.... at 10!!

So be smart about shit. Keep your Ass... Keep your job.... but most importantly.... keep your head. *you dig yo?

[BBC3]

I said EXACTLY what I said. You seem the calmest of the three, and the least affected psychologically, and you sounded grounded in the thread. So dont go throwing the alarms. Just take the info as food for thought.

And by the way, 25 is plenty young with plenty of spunk and pop.. You aint no classic old gentleman by any sight....

Originally Posted by Stretch

BBC I have no clue what you're saying. Please go slow, then re-read your post so it's very clear.

I've spent time signifigantly more than 3 days in county before but I am confused how this is relevant to the conversation at hand, and I AM young but at 24, nearly 25. I'm NOT too young by any stretch if the imagination.

[Stretch]

[quote=BBC3;681639. I am only including stretch as he has dialogued this threat. [/QUOTE]

What did this mean?

What threat did I dialogue??

Just curious.

[Jayho]

Originally Posted by BBC3

Jayho, I am starting to understand what some were referring to psychologically. Thats simply too freaking much!!!!! You cant live life like that regardless of the circumstances. I dont know how young you are, stretch and Iron are pretty young too. All you guys are probably too young for juice if you dont see the "wrong" in that story. I'll tell you why. Whether its right or wrong regarding your instinct. Your hippocritical society will lock your ass up..... A day or 3 in a county will give you ALL clarity. Trust me, cops aint Cool enough to let you off, and thats a dangerous game you play there. I am only including stretch as he has dialogued this threat. Iron has gone nothing but hot to trot with his juice. Jayho, is the furthest out I have seen. There is clearly some misguided intelligence there. You need to turn down a notch long enough to pin down some issues and do away with them.

I can sit here preaching, but unfortunately my words may only ring in your head when its too late... Easy there, back off, and all that stuff. Thats just too hot. Your gonna wind up buning at societies proverbial stake if your not carefull. You dont want that......

I appreciate the concern. I understand the "calm down" sentiments.
r
But all i'm doing is what the world taught me to do. No one fucks with me. And you know what?? when people learn not to fuck with the man that looks kinda like the SuperBad fat guy. They learn that he actually has a deep empathy for everyone. He does what he can to improve people's life, b/c he's sensative.

Having a shitty day? worried about getting shitcanned b/c of job accidents.
Worried about the bills and the family suffering? Depressed and despondant?

Enter Jon... the big sensy. (sensitive)

"Don't worry man, i know your a good guy and a better worker. If worst does come to worst, I'll write a good reference for you. You're good at what you do... *pat him on the back* Even if these Cocks in the office are dum enough to chop off their balls... just remember...... NOBODY can ever get enough to fill their sack..... the worm will definetely turn for you my friend."

Also, BBC3, if someone tries to fight me in the middle of nowhere, i will try to run to a camera or to witnesses. I don't start shit.

The big black man was not the first case of Jon in a *coulda died* situation.

Another time at work, this biker would not leave me the fuck alone. He's got a Fifedom, complete with Jesters and Chambermaids.

He's honestly the best shittalker i have ever seen. And has a reputation as an off the Job Knife Fighter.

He was really riding me one day, (i hit back verbally.. but this kinda Sociopath lives for this shit... he was wearing me down)

He wouldn't stop.

I blocked his path from the office to the exit door.

Don't feel like typing all the details of the story. (my back hurts, ruptured disk)

I essentially said, don't fuck with me. He essentially said, RAWR! When he raised his voice i raised mine louder. When he was talking calm, i sounded like a CSI Boss.

He'd lost enough face just by having someone stand up to him in front of the whole office.

He reached for his back pocket where it is known he keeps his knife.

I started yelling at him. "You'd better not pull that shit, you'll go to jail for the rest of your life if you use it. I got one too... i got something in my back pocket that will get you dead quicker than you can kill me!"

He backed down.

At the council of bosses and workers of suspicion... I almost got shitcanned. In the heat of the moment i didn't process the ambigous threat of "i got something in my back pocket that will get you dead quicker!" might mean that i had a gun in my backpocket....

They believed the truth... that i was referring to a knife of my own.

They tried to crucify my with the bullshit of "he may have been reaching for the phone in his back pocket... and he may have just been scratching his ass..."

I pointed out that this man was a knifefighter who had threatened to kill someone before. That he had said before that he wanted to.. "brake *****'s neck"

Given the context i was justified in trying to preempt a knife attack in whatever manner i could manage.

But.. yeah.. i survived. Still got my job... and more importantly (to me) i have my respect.

I told you guys i was not shitting. That "i would rather spill every last drop of life" than take any more abuse.

I researched what was causing me to "wuss" out and get "scared" i found out what it was chemically, i found out how to counteract it. I found out what caused it... and i aggressively tracked down dr.s to prescribe it to me.

I also learned with my first doctor that most docs don't like you to just show up and say what you think is wrong with you because of xxxxx symptoms... and i need xxxxx tests.

So, it's a worthy journey so far. And besides, in the grand scheme of things, would a bullet in my brain really be such a tragedy? How many die in Iraq? How many in accidents? Cancer? etc... i'm sure i would regret it in the moment... before i accepted i was going to die. Before the sociopath i angered pulled the trigger.... but, 'this 2 shall pass'.

[WindyTents]

Originally Posted by Jayho

It's called confidence.

I know what i'm talking about. Why??? because i'm talking about a problem that nearly destroyed my life.

I wouldn't talk this way if i was throwing down my opinion of Jesse Jame's newest Hot Rod.

Or if i was debating the news with Ron Burgandy.....But, in this little corner of the world (How steroids and Psychostimulants effect me) I know exactly what i'm talking about.
I'm not a genious, but i'm not stupid. IQ 124.


WendyTents. I know what you're talking about. One thing though. Don't rely on Testosterone totally if you're going to have to fight a really tuff opponent. Pop a Vyvanse or a Beta Blocker and do it right. Test alone will work very well. But just like the commercial... be Sure, not Unsure. Completely block the Flight response from your brains receptors. Cut the head off the snake.

Remember, you don't always have to fight. When you first inject you're gonna want to fight.... (you will then emphathize with criminals who struggle to obey the law) Just remember, public embarassments... punking.... and just holding your position (b/c it's the highground) can work exponentaly better than actually punching people with malicious intent.

And try to remember..... the injection will not last forever. If you do something stupid and go to jail.... the shot will wear off.... and you will be a Prison Bitch..... you're a prison bitch... your not like other men..... You're sorry you share this prison cell with Bubba... where lights go out.... at 10!!

So be smart about shit. Keep your Ass... Keep your job.... but most importantly.... keep your head. *you dig yo?

I hear what you are saying about the shot wearing off. I don't like the idea of having to depend on testosterone from the needle or anywhere else but my testicles because if something happens that I cant get a prescription I'm worse off than when I started. That is bad enough in the real world where all you have to deal with is people insulting you, but in prison where the prisoners follow the pecking order as a way of life, a low testosterone guy like me is not going to be too well off.

For me low testosterone causes me to lose my backbone. I feel like I cant handle the daily challenges of life like before. People taking advantage of me just makes me feel like whatever. When I have no choice but to stand up for myself I feel as if my spirit is strong, but physically I just don't have the man juice to back up how I feel. I always felt this way with no testosterone, but before I found this place I had nowhere to say stuff like this it always just stuck in the back of my head.

[OhNoYo]

Jayho, I am curious, Sir about the actual job you have and what kind of business/commercial department it is in if I may ask?

[IronCore]

Originally Posted by BBC3

Jayho, I am starting to understand what some were referring to psychologically. Thats simply too freaking much!!!!! You cant live life like that regardless of the circumstances. I dont know how young you are, stretch and Iron are pretty young too. All you guys are probably too young for juice if you dont see the "wrong" in that story. I'll tell you why. Whether its right or wrong regarding your instinct. Your hippocritical society will lock your ass up..... A day or 3 in a county will give you ALL clarity. Trust me, cops aint Cool enough to let you off, and thats a dangerous game you play there. I am only including stretch as he has dialogued this threat. Iron has gone nothing but hot to trot with his juice. Jayho, is the furthest out I have seen. There is clearly some misguided intelligence there. You need to turn down a notch long enough to pin down some issues and do away with them.

I can sit here preaching, but unfortunately my words may only ring in your head when its too late... Easy there, back off, and all that stuff. Thats just too hot. Your gonna wind up buning at societies proverbial stake if your not carefull. You dont want that......

Damn dude... why are you bringing me into this? I have stayed out of it, this guys is just an easy mark, especially once I saw his last post about cameras and calling the cops and all... What he fails to realize is that some folks will get you when they get you... cops and cameras don't mean shit... Stop playing pussy games jayho... you will get hurt... Go see a psychiatrist... Test isn't all you need...


BBC Don't get me involved... I was an ass whole before I started gear... kinda like yourself. As far as being hot to trot... I typically always had somewhat of a combative nature. It's who I am, and I know who I am... The aggression took me by storm and now I have it under control...

I also know just how SHITTY cops can be too... are you a cop?

I posted my stats in the past, while I am not in my 40's like yourself nor am I ready for the geriatric ward I am plenty old enough...

How old where you when you started?

[BBC3]

I was merely pointing out that I though you were pretty level headed in the earlier posts you made in this thread.....

Originally Posted by Stretch

What did this mean?

What threat did I dialogue??

Just curious.

[BBC3]

I know, I get it. I am only pointing out, YOU ARE AT SOME CROSSROAD with much danger depending on you next selected path in life. Easy. I for one, have a clear understanding of the feelings you speak.. Not only are you intelligent. YOU ARE EXTREMELY SENSITIVE!!! This is a rare quality. That doe not mean you are girly or cry. It means you body's natural receptors are well in tune and not perverted by the noise of our society. You need to look up and study the concept of EQ, Emotional Quotient. I am CERTAIN, you are someone whom could be walking thru the mall and suddlenly look back over you shoulder to see someone is starring at you!! This is a highened level of natural animal sensativity that is a gift many have evolved to no longer posess. CAVIAT, you have to learn to CONTROLL YOUR EMOTIONS. Along with this heightened sensitivity, will come the liability of emotion, as it is DIRECTLY IMPACTED by these senses. Understand what emotions are and embrace them. You have to loose you fear of crying, so to speak. You can not be served by these abilities if they are instantily CLOUDED by emotion. Learn to apply ration to the senses as associated thought. And you will go far in life. Settle down all the crap. ITS ALL EMOTION. That is also a weakness if not controlled. LEARN. You are different.

What you have poured out here may be true, and real. It is unacceptable by the society you live in. You are speaking the "unspeakable". You can not do this. The above makes your unspeakables all that more unsteadying to the hippocritical world you live it. Hear my words. Learn about yourself....

Originally Posted by Jayho

I appreciate the concern. I understand the "calm down" sentiments.
r
But all i'm doing is what the world taught me to do. No one fucks with me. And you know what?? when people learn not to fuck with the man that looks kinda like the SuperBad fat guy. They learn that he actually has a deep empathy for everyone. He does what he can to improve people's life, b/c he's sensative.

Having a shitty day? worried about getting shitcanned b/c of job accidents.
Worried about the bills and the family suffering? Depressed and despondant?

Enter Jon... the big sensy. (sensitive)

"Don't worry man, i know your a good guy and a better worker. If worst does come to worst, I'll write a good reference for you. You're good at what you do... *pat him on the back* Even if these Cocks in the office are dum enough to chop off their balls... just remember...... NOBODY can ever get enough to fill their sack..... the worm will definetely turn for you my friend."

Also, BBC3, if someone tries to fight me in the middle of nowhere, i will try to run to a camera or to witnesses. I don't start shit.

The big black man was not the first case of Jon in a *coulda died* situation.

Another time at work, this biker would not leave me the fuck alone. He's got a Fifedom, complete with Jesters and Chambermaids.

He's honestly the best shittalker i have ever seen. And has a reputation as an off the Job Knife Fighter.

He was really riding me one day, (i hit back verbally.. but this kinda Sociopath lives for this shit... he was wearing me down)

He wouldn't stop.

I blocked his path from the office to the exit door.

Don't feel like typing all the details of the story. (my back hurts, ruptured disk)

I essentially said, don't fuck with me. He essentially said, RAWR! When he raised his voice i raised mine louder. When he was talking calm, i sounded like a CSI Boss.

He'd lost enough face just by having someone stand up to him in front of the whole office.

He reached for his back pocket where it is known he keeps his knife.

I started yelling at him. "You'd better not pull that shit, you'll go to jail for the rest of your life if you use it. I got one too... i got something in my back pocket that will get you dead quicker than you can kill me!"

He backed down.

At the council of bosses and workers of suspicion... I almost got shitcanned. In the heat of the moment i didn't process the ambigous threat of "i got something in my back pocket that will get you dead quicker!" might mean that i had a gun in my backpocket....

They believed the truth... that i was referring to a knife of my own.

They tried to crucify my with the bullshit of "he may have been reaching for the phone in his back pocket... and he may have just been scratching his ass..."

I pointed out that this man was a knifefighter who had threatened to kill someone before. That he had said before that he wanted to.. "brake *****'s neck"

Given the context i was justified in trying to preempt a knife attack in whatever manner i could manage.

But.. yeah.. i survived. Still got my job... and more importantly (to me) i have my respect.

I told you guys i was not shitting. That "i would rather spill every last drop of life" than take any more abuse.

I researched what was causing me to "wuss" out and get "scared" i found out what it was chemically, i found out how to counteract it. I found out what caused it... and i aggressively tracked down dr.s to prescribe it to me.

I also learned with my first doctor that most docs don't like you to just show up and say what you think is wrong with you because of xxxxx symptoms... and i need xxxxx tests.

So, it's a worthy journey so far. And besides, in the grand scheme of things, would a bullet in my brain really be such a tragedy? How many die in Iraq? How many in accidents? Cancer? etc... i'm sure i would regret it in the moment... before i accepted i was going to die. Before the sociopath i angered pulled the trigger.... but, 'this 2 shall pass'.