Hello everybody As I explained in another thread, I started a big pct after years of abuse. My TT was 306 one week ago. Had ever my prolactin checeked and it's in the low range. I did a blast and cruise 2 years ago, and on cruise I took 250 mg omnadren every 10/14 days. When I took 250 mg / week I noticed my libido was not as excellent ... probably because of excess oestradiol. The problem is that I aromatise a lot. On june my wife quited me. I was depressed, and so did a dbol cycle along with masteron. Was big and ripped on july. But I noticed a painfull nipple, because of the dbol. So I stopped it. And since this dbol cycle, I suffer from erectil dysfunction. viagra or cialis is a hit or miss .... On september I tested my E2, they were at 90 !! So I took adex, 1mg/day for some days, and my E2 falled at 14. The nipple sensitivity totally disappeared. But my E2 were too low :/ So I stopped Adex, and remember that for a couple days I was very horny, had morning wood, solid erections etc ... I found my sweet spot. But this had diseapperd rapidely, and then my E2 were tested too high ( 60 i think ). I think my erections are 80% and I have less sensitivity. So I decided trt was not the solution for me. I did a big pct, and my testicles doesn't respond to hcg. My lh is very high ( 14 ) and TT very low. I'm primary hypo. My e2 were tested at 42, and my cortisol is very high too ( don't remember the values ). This was done on clomid nolva. I consulted a doc who want me to stop everything and see what happens !!! I m in love with a very beautiful wooman, it will be 6 months we are together. I can finish sex very rarely. She will quit me if this continue, she told me she can't imagining having a life without sex. I can't imagine that solution. I'm very depressed, I don't think if its because of the end of my ex relationship, or too much e2, too little test etc ... I have no motivation ... I go less and less to the university, I train less, ofter cry etc ... My new gf is against self trt, and will quit me if I decide to do a trt myself. She only wants it supervised by a doc. But the docs are dicks, my doc doesn't want to prescribe me test, because i'm into the range ... it's a joke, I have less test than a man of 85 years !!!! I rarely have erections, I think about sex less, porn doesn't really excite me ... before It was the totally opposed, I always wanted to bang my wife etc. I consulted a sexologue, for him my hormones are normal ! he told me it was into my head. My doc said the same and gave me anti depressant + cialis. the anti ageing doc is the one who want me to stop everything and see what happens. I m so bad that if she quit me, I would just want to die. what can I do ? self trt without saying her ( I will return to 250 mg sust every 10 days since It was great for 2 years, and switching with aromasin instead of adex because I read sometimes adex kills libido ). Or listening the anti ageing doc ? doing a new pct with hmg added to hcg ? I m really dissapointed, I want to keep her, I want have energy, motivation ect, I want to return to the university.