Hello I've been away from Meso since 2004. Needless to say I'm back ,but old fat out of shape after 50 its been rough.I am currently on Test therapy from VA. 400 month I want to go on HGH but have no idea of sources process etc .Looking for education and information also possible sleep aids as I cant sleep for shit anymore any suggestions on that??? valium etc who the fuck knows .I still go to the gym but can't do much until Dec. , as I had open should surgery ,4 tendon repairs . Stats 5.ft 10in, 235lbs fat index through the fking roof no smoke no drink. But the Fuking carb monster chases me almost everyday and catches me most of the time that bastards is fast, so there is my rants thanks in advance for any guidance ..