I just lost my dad tonight. I don't know where else to turn to let my feelings out. It's pretty rough right now for me. This is the worst thing I've ever felt in my life. I honestly don't know what to do. All I know is it hurts bad. I probably shouldn't be airing my business. But I have nowhere else to go. Our relationship wasn't the best. But you only get one parent. The worst part is I never got to tell him I loved him and I wasn't mad at him because we hadn't spoke in years even though he lived just miles down the road. The lack of closure is killing me. I literally just made plans with my brother to go see him next month to try and make amends. I feel like I failed by not acting sooner. This is some rough shit. My fellow brothers here. As they say life is short and you don't know what you had until it's gone. Through all the BS he's still my dad and I forgive him for everything and love him with all my heart. If your at odds with someone over some bullshit please forgive and forget. You never know when someone's time will come. I tell you right now the feeling of not having closure is something that hurts unbelievable. This guilt I will live with forever. Sorry for the long personal post. There's literally no one to talk to right now.