Hi guys, about to get hated on but here's the reasoning for this title. Currently, I'm 21 and started doing a test e cycle(400mg) and I'm on week 8 currently. But ever since cycle my anxiety he went up quite a bit. It's affecting me mentally in terms of I'm scared of my health. Now ik the risks for aas use, and I thought I was ok with them. I have depression so I didn't really care about future consequences, but now that I'm 8 weeks in kinda regretting it. I just thought maybe if I could have a better body with aas it would bring me more joy in life. But here I am measuring my heart rate twice a day, and keep thinking its going to fuck up my heart for some reason. I know aas doesn't directly affect my heart but it's my damn anxiety making me think it will. I'm thinking I might as well just finish the cycle and never touch aas again. Or should I maybe just stop right now and pct? Also could I still make gains naturally? I'm 5"11 and weigh about 170 pounds(12%bf), please guys I guess I'm just looking for advice. Thanks. Edit-Might as well throw in that I'm not looking to be huge. I just want to be "ripped". Goal was to be 180 pounds with abs, thats it.