I don't have a limited capacity not to understand that people who mess up often make gear look bad because they are irresponsible and contribute to the stigma and controversy surrounding aas use. I never made excuses in life. I never put a burden on others. I go hard. Those in my path who come to know me know I like to have a good time but I can get serious when it counts. I know personality can't easily be translated in text. Let me just drive the point home that I take and accept all responsibility of my my actions. I'm not on gear to flex in front of a crowd and win their hearts. I'm trying to focus on myself and better prepare myself for the obstacles that I cannot yet forsee but can extrapolate based on the hand I was dealt. This is not a crutch this is the motherfuxkin sledge hammer and it's time to goto work.