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Memoirs of a Steroid Kingpin, Interlude 02: “In Retrospect”

January 26, 2023 by Ryan Root 14 Comments

Cigarettes

*Note: This “In Retrospect….” chapter is a relevant interjection containing thought provoking retrospective analysis on the science of human behavior, psychology, and politics. If this chapter adversely disengages the reader from the flow of the story, it can be skipped or read later.

Hospitals are abound with patients that have problems caused by obesity. Most of the patients in hospitals are stricken with complications due to overeating. Just like recreational drugs, food triggers a D.O.S.E. (Dopamine, Oxytocin, Serotonin, Endorphin) response. Foods with more energy, higher in fats and sugars, trigger a more intense D.O.S.E. response, which causes them to be addictive. Drugs and sugary or fatty foods are addictive through the same mechanisms. I have been dealing with addiction problems since I was fifteen years old. I get it. What does not make sense is the disparity in the methodology with which the government handles these two addictive and harmful substances.

Heroin addiction

Approximately 10,000 people die each year due to complications from cocaine. Approximately 14,000 people die each year due to complications from heroin. Anabolic steroids have only been directly linked to 3 deaths in the history of steroid use, running about six decades. I am not naïve to the fact that anabolic steroid abuse may exacerbate adverse health conditions, however, it certainly does not cause the problems and death that myth, stigma, and the government would lead people to believe. In moderation, anabolic steroids, testosterone being the main one, help millions upon millions of men in positive life changing ways.

Alcohol

Now, let’s take a look at some legal addictive substances. Alcohol kills approximately 90,000 people annually, more than four times the amount of deaths caused by cocaine and heroin combined. Tobacco is the deadliest drug on the planet, killing 425,000 people per year, and more than every other drug combined. The number one cause of preventable death in the United States, by far, is congestive heart failure due to the excessive intake of fats and sugars. So, why aren’t cheeseburgers and soda illegal? In 2013, when the Mayor of New York City Michael Bloomberg attempted to ban the sale of large sodas, he was nearly laughed out of office. This was an attempt to mitigate harm and save lives, yet it was met with disdain and rebuke. I am not actually suggesting that we make fats and sugars illegal. I am illuminating the fact that people see how silly it is to ban something addictive like sugar, but people can’t see that banning drugs, a substance that is addictive through the same mechanisms as sugar, is just as silly.

Hamburgers and fries

While most of the patients in hospitals are admitted due to complications from obesity, far fewer are hospitalized due to drug overdose. Most morbidly obese patients are funded through Medicaid or government funded Medicare programs, and are a massive drain on the economic budget. Drugs are a drain on the economic budget only because the government pays to police their use and fill prisons, which causes oppression and violence. Alcohol is a drug with the same addictive mechanisms as any other recreational drug. If we treated drugs like we do alcohol, as we are beginning to do with marijuana, instead of draining the economic budget by policing and filling prisons, we would create millions of jobs and generate billions in tax revenue. We should deal with drugs the same way we deal with alcohol, educate and warn people about the dangers of its use, but allow its market to stimulate the economy.

What is important to understand is that we are not looking for a perfect solution, because there are no perfect solutions. But we should strive for something better than the current modality. Using alcohol as a simulacrum, or template, on how to implement drug policies would unequivocally be better.

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Avatar of B Ware B Ware Jan 08, 2023 #1

@bdsupplements thank you sir for putting this together. It is a very intriguing read.

Sometime back I got a source to open up to me a little behind the scenes about how his empire came to be. Being that I’m a guy that falls a sleep every night to a good documentary and that this topic hits close to home being that I’ve been a member of these boards a decade, this is a truly fascinating topic to me. I’ve often let my mind wander off and picture a night sitting around a camp fire with big sources of the past and present and just sitting back and listening to their stories. Although there is no camp fire, thank you very much for sharing and opening up. Much respect for over coming everything and turning this into a legal business. I look forward to the next installments.

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Avatar of bdsupplements bdsupplements Jan 12, 2023 #2

Thank you very much for your support B Ware. I really appreciate you. Interestingly enough, the movies and stories I enjoy the most are documentaries as well, especially tales of rags to riches. I was so captivated by movies such as Wolf of Wallstreet and War Dogs, that I began framing my own story in this fashion in my head, and thought about it the whole time I was in prison. When I was finally released from prison, and I began opening up on some of these boards, Millard asked me if I would be interested in writing my story. I had been writing it in my head for years. It was a no brainer. Putting it on paper, it just flowed. When I commenced delving back into the intricate details, I began remembering aspects that were forgotten. I have had fun recounting everything, and candidly, this story has come out better than I expected. Thanks again for reading.

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Avatar of Millard Millard Jan 12, 2023 #3

I'm really glad you agreed to do this. There hasn't been any other former source who has been so open and prolific in describing their experience, success, downfall, and rebirth. Thank you.

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Avatar of bdsupplements bdsupplements Jan 13, 2023 #4

Thank YOU Millard. I had a client today, whom I was helping design a treatment protocol, tell me that he has been reading the story on MESO. He said it was fantastic, and he couldn't wait to read the rest of it. Thanks again for helping tell this epic story.

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O Obscured78 Jan 15, 2023 #5

Curious what was the name of your lab?

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Avatar of Millard Millard Jan 15, 2023 #6

View image at the forums

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Avatar of bdsupplements bdsupplements Jan 16, 2023 #7

Nice Millard! I am surprised at how many pics of my gear are still on the internet. That brings back some memories!

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Avatar of GMC GMC Jul 27, 2023 #8

What’s happened to the rest of it? I was really enjoying the read.
I’ve been waiting for Ep 20 since March.

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B BUCK67 Jul 29, 2023 #9

Same here, I thought the rest got deleted or something and I was missing out on the rest

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Avatar of GMC GMC Jul 29, 2023 #10

I’m hoping somebody in Hollywood has picked up on the story, and wants to make the movie - and don’t want it fully publishing before they get their hands on it!!
It’s a awesome story, if I was a producer I’d be jumping right on it with him.
I’m just listening/watching to some podcasts with him, he look the part too - he’s like a cross between the ‘rock’ & what Vin Diesel always wanted to be!! Seems like a top guy, I hope he makes a (another) fortune from it - and he deserves every penny!

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Avatar of bdsupplements bdsupplements Aug 04, 2023 #11

Thank you very much for your kind words GMC! I really appreciate you. I am not sure what happened to the rest of the chapters, there is a lot more left. I am guessing that Millard became busy, and hasn't had the time to release more chapters. Perhaps I can speak with him.

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Avatar of phenominal34 phenominal34 Aug 04, 2023 #12

I quit reading the top original post after “I put on 32lbs of muscle in 5 weeks”

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Avatar of bdsupplements bdsupplements Aug 04, 2023 #13

In our community, we have been plagued with the cynicism that reportrs of people putting on 30lbs of muslce or more lack veracity. Another concept that I have noticed plagues our community is people's inabilty to see outside their own self centricity. Prople believe that whatever reactions happen to them or a couple of their gym buddies, is exactly how everyone else reacts; whether it be exercise regimens or hormones. This narrative fallacy that no one can put on 30lbs of muslce or more stems from a subset of cynicists who aren't able to put on that kind of muslce mass themselves, so, not only do they claim that no one else can put on 30lbs of muslce or more, but they make fun of those who make this claim. Of course, others who cannot put on that type of muscle mass jump on this band wagon. The cynics have also convinced people who do gain more than 30lbs that it is not muscle, but they are given a facile explaination that weight gain is due to water weight and/or glycogen.

When we talk about not being able to see outside your self-centricity; I am a biochemist who has guided approximately 20,000 people through the use of hormones. A thousand of those were professionals I helped put on stage. I have aggregated as much, if not more, empirical and anecdotal data than almost anyone in the county. I only say that to illuminate my credentials and vast experience.

Certainly, anabolic steroids can cause edema in the form of water retention in the dermis. For some, very little water is retained in the dermis, for others, significant water is retained in the dermis. For some, water retention is not a significant source of weight gain. Muscle gain is a function of fluids enlarging the muscle cell. A significant portion of that fluid is water. But, that is a part of muslce gain. The increased size from fluid in the muscle cells allows for myosin to have a stronger dipole action on actin, increasing the strength of the contraction.

Glycogen is a back up instant energy source to glucose. Glycogen is located in the liver and in muscles. One of the reasons muscles increase in size is to accomodate more glycogen for more energy and more strength. Gaining glycogen weight in the muscles is a function of gaining muscle weight, and is one of the reasons you get stronger. Even so, muslce glycogen doesn't weigh much. On average, about 500g of glycogen exists in the human muscles. Even if you double the size of your muscles, you only gain about a quarter pound of glycogen weight.

For those who believe it is impossible to gain 30lbs of muscle or more; bullshit. Granted, it is a small subset of hyper responders than can gain that much muscle mass. I am a hyper responser. I have seen some genetically gifted guys take a moderate dose of testosterone and dbol, lose fat and gain 30, 40, even 50lbs and still be so lean they could immediately step on stage. One thing you realize when you accrue a vast array of data in this field of study, is that you cannot put everyone in a box. You cannot indicate certain limits and certain ranges for everyone. There is a massive disparity in the way each individual reacts to certain hormones, certain compounds, and certain protocols. Admittedly, I have been a victim of disbelief in the past. But I have seen, with my own eyes, bodybuilders go on drug benders, get fat, lose muslce to atrophy, clean up and put on 50 pounds of muslce, and look ready to step on stage in two months. It is not common, but some people are genetically gifted, and to deny that is to deny some pretty incredible stories and some pretty incredible truths.

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Avatar of phenominal34 phenominal34 Aug 05, 2023 #14

You can cherp these long ass paragraphs all you want, no one is putting on 30 lbs of muscle in 5 weeks, 35 days. Cool story tho lol

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