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TLDR ALL THE SAPPY SHIT: April 1st to now, clean body, clean food, clean mind.
6 months of alcohol abuse and no training made me go from 230-240 12%bf depending on water retention to this first picture. A close friend on here that will not name went out of his way to help me get my mind right again and I credit him and the thought of my children coming back to their dad as the sole reason I was able to fix this problem before it became impossible. Physique melts fast when you stop training, don’t give it up for poison. I don’t blast like the old PD anymore 500 test 5iu gh. Didn’t put a picture up of me at my peak I forgot, I’ll put it at the bottom of the post.
I’ll try to keep this short but anyone that follows my logs knows that on and off I’ve had substance abuse issues. I was sober for 4 years straight, and I found enhanced bodybuilding. In high school in my early 20s I loved lifting but knew nothing about gear.
I want to show you guys what consistency really means, I want to show you what happens if you stop giving it your all and you throw your life away for liquor and rec drugs.
This is not an attention grab. I think it’s kind of important first off if you’re in recovery or ever had any issues feel free to reach out I find that talking to people that have dealt with similar issues. Makes it easier to stay positive and strong willed.
I went on a 4-6 month bender stopped training drank a liter a day after a nasty custody battle that ended up with me losing custody of the children I raised for their entire lives SOBER. I thought I was mentally strong enough to continue with life but everything went down hill quick. Within a week I was drinking morning to night to deal with pain of my kids not just being taken but being placed with a woman that stole my 20s. She never got clean. Was never around and I’d even let her sleep in the guest room when she had no where to go. I stayed after she cheated multiple times to keep the family together but my initial transformation made her so jealous and overbearing that the only way she could feel good about her self was getting validation from other men, and using rec drugs. She was and is an addict it’s not entirely me getting in shape that she started getting railed by the homies. I was able to stay off alcohol the entire relationship but I dabbled with thc for sleep or sometimes 6k+ calories. Rarely used psychedelics but typically alone in the woods to try and clear my mind. I’d say once a year.
Well, I definitely didn’t keep that short, but anyone that has followed my logs knows that I’m extremely open whether it’s the bloodwork experiments or just sharing personal details that’s my personality type and there’s not much I can do to change that.
So what I’m getting at and I’ll post this at the top if you stop training and start poisoning yourself you can look like the top picture in about six months. Also muscle memory is very real. I’ve been eating 150 calories under maintenance and some days just at maintenance the entire time. Another disclaimer first 2 weeks I thought let’s go 750 test 600 eq this time around but I felt like absolute shit and by week 3 before the ew was even fully saturated dropped it stayed at 750 another week or 2 and again dropped to 500 test. I feel way better on low doses, and my skin is almost entirely clear except for the gnarly chest scar!
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