Justnowlivin
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FINALLY LIVING!!!
How’s it going guys! My name is Michael. A guy in my gym told me about this site. I joined to learn safe ways to constantly improve myself. Last year on October 5th (my birthday) my mother passed away. 2 weeks later I found out my wife of 18 years was having an affair and wanted a divorce. So I found myself… lost, crushed, and heartbroken. The last words my ex wife said was that I wasn’t good enough anymore. And she was right. I wasn’t. I was the most unhealthy I’d ever been. I was weighing in at 275-280 pounds, nothing but gut and face fat. I was emotionally in shambles before everything that happened. Suffering from depression and anxiety. I was spiritually lost. It seemed I had let years of my life just slip away. I had zero self worth or confidence. after finding out my wife cheated I was begging her back. Even before my wife left me there were days I was talking myself out of driving face first into a tree. I was a mess. And when you experience pain and rejection like that it’s going to do two things, break you or change you. I let it change me. In every way possible. I started reading books on The Power of Positive Thinking. I joined the gym and started lifting weights. Went to the Dr and found out my T levels were bottomed out so I got on TRT. Regained my confidence. Started going out into the world again. Dating having a blast. Now I’m to the point where I want to take my body to the next level. The TRT has helped tremendously with mood and motivation but it’s extremely low dose. I understand the importance of blood work and get it done every three months. I just want to find advice on the direction I need to go to achieve my goals. My goals of 1 (and most importantly) being healthy. 2nd being strong! And third redefining my body composition to peak. To be the absolute best version of myself I can be. I hope I come to the right place to find these answers. Looking forward to learning a lot from you guys! Thanks and God Bless.
How’s it going guys! My name is Michael. A guy in my gym told me about this site. I joined to learn safe ways to constantly improve myself. Last year on October 5th (my birthday) my mother passed away. 2 weeks later I found out my wife of 18 years was having an affair and wanted a divorce. So I found myself… lost, crushed, and heartbroken. The last words my ex wife said was that I wasn’t good enough anymore. And she was right. I wasn’t. I was the most unhealthy I’d ever been. I was weighing in at 275-280 pounds, nothing but gut and face fat. I was emotionally in shambles before everything that happened. Suffering from depression and anxiety. I was spiritually lost. It seemed I had let years of my life just slip away. I had zero self worth or confidence. after finding out my wife cheated I was begging her back. Even before my wife left me there were days I was talking myself out of driving face first into a tree. I was a mess. And when you experience pain and rejection like that it’s going to do two things, break you or change you. I let it change me. In every way possible. I started reading books on The Power of Positive Thinking. I joined the gym and started lifting weights. Went to the Dr and found out my T levels were bottomed out so I got on TRT. Regained my confidence. Started going out into the world again. Dating having a blast. Now I’m to the point where I want to take my body to the next level. The TRT has helped tremendously with mood and motivation but it’s extremely low dose. I understand the importance of blood work and get it done every three months. I just want to find advice on the direction I need to go to achieve my goals. My goals of 1 (and most importantly) being healthy. 2nd being strong! And third redefining my body composition to peak. To be the absolute best version of myself I can be. I hope I come to the right place to find these answers. Looking forward to learning a lot from you guys! Thanks and God Bless.
