I fell off and landed hard!

[RomanMVP]

And I've seriously fell off hard. I didnt return to drug use or anything like that but I've been in a bit of a Michael Douglas "Falling Down" kinda of quasi depression of sorts.

I stopped worrying about diet and started consuming whatever i felt like eating without a second thought. One of the reasons I slowed down with the aas is because I just didnt feel healthy, I looked good but didnt feel inside the way I looked on the outside. With that said I also dont feel healthy eating garbage like i have been lately. Marriage and career havent helped matters much either since it's been leading me towards a more laid back sedentary life, many injuries and turning the page to over 40yo isnt making things any easier either.


I think I can safely say I've lost most if not all of the gains i made from 2018 to 2020. I'm still the same weight but now I'm just fat and soft. It seems as though Covid took a lot of muscle mass off of my frame and it just depressed me further and kept me even further away from the bar and bench

I want to reverse the oncoming tide of obesity and plight of unhealthy living I've been leading. I'm going to start a log and I will post pictures of the before and after updates so yall can point and laugh at your old boy chump and maybe use my falling off as inspiration to not do as I did.


I will be using low dose anabolics to help get me going in the right direction when the time calls for it. For now I think I'm just going to stick to my trt dose and cut fat and then slowly build myself back up. What I dont want to do is to get back into being a pin cushion and I'd like to keep the overall combinex compound dosage to 400mg or less per week with 400 being the extreme.

Keep an eye out in this section for an upcoming log. This isnt a new year new me bullshit run, it's just me trying to get back on the level again. I'm starting by cleaning house and tossing all the cake mixes, cookies, and shit like that today and hitting the supermarket for fresh food.

Screw it! This will be the log. I plan to keep it going from January to January.

Go for it, looking forward to your log. Are you sure you don't just need......JESUS?????!!!!!!!Never mind LOLOLOLOLOL!!!!!!

 

[bigpoppachump2]

I'd already gotten to where I'm at mentally in September when my cycle finished up and now I'm officially done. The past 12 months so many guys in my age group have died or had serious issues from bodybuilding and the supplements taken to obtain that physique. I'm gonna keep lifting but more to maintain health and physical strength as I age.

As far as gear and my participation on meso I think I'm done. I know if I keep hanging around I'm going to get impatient with my progress or unsatisfied with my size and strength and I will eventually make another order and do another cycle and risk my health further than I already have and do by being on TRT. I've been cycling for 10 years and on TRT for about as long after years of drug abuse until 2004 and heavy alcoholism up until 2012. I've got a great life now and want to enjoy what I have built for as long as I can with my best friend and love of my life.. my wife, I owe it to her to stick around.

I'm out yall! Half the guys that are gonna read this don't know me anyways cause of the quick turnover of members on hear but to the guys that did read my posts I wish yall nothing but the best and a healthy future. And for those older guys that have kids or grandchildren keep them in mind when you're pushing the envelope to look good and defy aging. I'm sure they'd rather have you around deflated for many years to come instead of dead.

 

[jJjburton]

I'd already gotten to where I'm at mentally in September when my cycle finished up and now I'm officially done. The past 12 months so many guys in my age group have died or had serious issues from bodybuilding and the supplements taken to obtain that physique. I'm gonna keep lifting but more to maintain health and physical strength as I age.

As far as gear and my participation on meso I think I'm done. I know if I keep hanging around I'm going to get impatient with my progress or unsatisfied with my size and strength and I will eventually make another order and do another cycle and risk my health further than I already have and do by being on TRT. I've been cycling for 10 years and on TRT for about as long after years of drug abuse until 2004 and heavy alcoholism up until 2012. I've got a great life now and want to enjoy what I have built for as long as I can with my best friend and love of my life.. my wife, I owe it to her to stick around.

I'm out yall! Half the guys that are gonna read this don't know me anyways cause of the quick turnover of members on hear but to the guys that did read my posts I wish yall nothing but the best and a healthy future. And for those older guys that have kids or grandchildren keep them in mind when you're pushing the envelope to look good and defy aging. I'm sure they'd rather have you around deflated for many years to come instead of dead.

You think you are done, lol. But we all know youll be back. Lolol.

joking, kind of

 

[MadBret]

I'd already gotten to where I'm at mentally in September when my cycle finished up and now I'm officially done. The past 12 months so many guys in my age group have died or had serious issues from bodybuilding and the supplements taken to obtain that physique. I'm gonna keep lifting but more to maintain health and physical strength as I age.

As far as gear and my participation on meso I think I'm done. I know if I keep hanging around I'm going to get impatient with my progress or unsatisfied with my size and strength and I will eventually make another order and do another cycle and risk my health further than I already have and do by being on TRT. I've been cycling for 10 years and on TRT for about as long after years of drug abuse until 2004 and heavy alcoholism up until 2012. I've got a great life now and want to enjoy what I have built for as long as I can with my best friend and love of my life.. my wife, I owe it to her to stick around.

I'm out yall! Half the guys that are gonna read this don't know me anyways cause of the quick turnover of members on hear but to the guys that did read my posts I wish yall nothing but the best and a healthy future. And for those older guys that have kids or grandchildren keep them in mind when you're pushing the envelope to look good and defy aging. I'm sure they'd rather have you around deflated for many years to come instead of dead.

Take care, my friend. You gotta do what you gotta do, bud. Hope all is well with you and I wish you and your family good health and happiness. Keep catching them monsters you showed me pics of, too. You seem to have a knack for that...

 

[MFMC]

I'd already gotten to where I'm at mentally in September when my cycle finished up and now I'm officially done. The past 12 months so many guys in my age group have died or had serious issues from bodybuilding and the supplements taken to obtain that physique. I'm gonna keep lifting but more to maintain health and physical strength as I age.

As far as gear and my participation on meso I think I'm done. I know if I keep hanging around I'm going to get impatient with my progress or unsatisfied with my size and strength and I will eventually make another order and do another cycle and risk my health further than I already have and do by being on TRT. I've been cycling for 10 years and on TRT for about as long after years of drug abuse until 2004 and heavy alcoholism up until 2012. I've got a great life now and want to enjoy what I have built for as long as I can with my best friend and love of my life.. my wife, I owe it to her to stick around.

I'm out yall! Half the guys that are gonna read this don't know me anyways cause of the quick turnover of members on hear but to the guys that did read my posts I wish yall nothing but the best and a healthy future. And for those older guys that have kids or grandchildren keep them in mind when you're pushing the envelope to look good and defy aging. I'm sure they'd rather have you around deflated for many years to come instead of dead.

Take care of your self. I have been tossing the same decision around for the past year or so--- I turn 51 tomorrow.