Hello all,
decided to finally post this introduction so I can contribute to some of the discussions in the UG (experiences with few vendors and triangle shipping from India currently especially).
As the title says, I’ve been lurking here for years. A few years ago I created an account mainly to get access to the CoA’s and other relevant photos posted here. I’ll share a bit of my background from a few different perspectives, as I strongly believe that speaking out is healthy, and in the end, it might help someone else to do the same.
I have a semi-mixed background in sports. I started with swimming in my youth and eventually moved into more “powerlifting-style” training to complement my American football and later rugby activities. I’ve been hitting the gym for the past 15 years, but in the interest of honesty, I’d say only about five of those years were really quality training worth something.
Around nine years ago I lost my dad to cancer, and around the same time I suffered a life-threatening injury in a match. That led me to drop all contact sports and be (very) inactive for about 12 months. Part of that was because with the neck injury I had, my options for being active were limited, and part of it was because I was fucking depressed with everything going on in my life. Sports (and the community around them) had been my “therapy” for most of my life. When that was taken away, I found out pretty quickly that dealing with life’s problems is much harder without the safety net you are used to having.
A few years went by and I was getting back into shape, both mentally and physically, and then this small bugger called Covid-19 decided to show up. Being already in a fragile state, gyms closing and losing physical contact with the rest of the world was enough to push me over the edge, and back into the abyss we go. I went from 95 kg to 130 kg in two years and ended up in the worst shape of my life. Somewhere during those two years, I also finally tried to kill myself (failed, as you might guess). That was the point when I finally accepted that I needed outside help, which I was lucky enough to get.
Nowadays, I am once again getting back into shape where I was and beyond. The scale says 95 kg, and the mirror shows something close to what I was used to seeing during my sports days. I am still pushing to get my strength back to where it was: a 200 kg squat, 120 kg bench, and 225 kg deadlift. Even though the reality is that 1RMs do not and probably should not matter given my current goals, they are still an easy way to measure where I am now versus where I used to be.
Now a bit about PEDs and how I found MesoRX back in the day. I have never wanted a “huge” look, being athletic and powerful-looking has always been enough for me. So when I finally decided to pull the trigger after years of research, my first (and only) cycle was 400 mg of test for 14 weeks with dbol at the start. I was very happy with the gains, and considering I already had two kids, I felt it was a risk worth taking.
After that cycle, I decided that PCT just didn’t sound like the way to go for me, and I continued with a TRT-style dose (varying between 150–200 mg depending on bloodwork and how I felt). After about a year on TRT, my wife and I decided to try for a third kid. I dropped the test, and after four months she was pregnant, so back to TRT we go! Currently I am running more of a TRT+ approach: 175 mg test and 100 mg deca weekly, combined with 4 IU HGH daily and 2 mg reta weekly. HGH has been an amazing experience over the last six months. I sleep way better, recovery is insanely good (managed to mess up my joints a bit, but you live and learn), and overall I just feel amazing.
I am also planning to brew my own stuff in the future, but before getting there, there are still things to learn. Also, located in Europe somewhere above 60th parallel north.
decided to finally post this introduction so I can contribute to some of the discussions in the UG (experiences with few vendors and triangle shipping from India currently especially).
As the title says, I’ve been lurking here for years. A few years ago I created an account mainly to get access to the CoA’s and other relevant photos posted here. I’ll share a bit of my background from a few different perspectives, as I strongly believe that speaking out is healthy, and in the end, it might help someone else to do the same.
I have a semi-mixed background in sports. I started with swimming in my youth and eventually moved into more “powerlifting-style” training to complement my American football and later rugby activities. I’ve been hitting the gym for the past 15 years, but in the interest of honesty, I’d say only about five of those years were really quality training worth something.
Around nine years ago I lost my dad to cancer, and around the same time I suffered a life-threatening injury in a match. That led me to drop all contact sports and be (very) inactive for about 12 months. Part of that was because with the neck injury I had, my options for being active were limited, and part of it was because I was fucking depressed with everything going on in my life. Sports (and the community around them) had been my “therapy” for most of my life. When that was taken away, I found out pretty quickly that dealing with life’s problems is much harder without the safety net you are used to having.
A few years went by and I was getting back into shape, both mentally and physically, and then this small bugger called Covid-19 decided to show up. Being already in a fragile state, gyms closing and losing physical contact with the rest of the world was enough to push me over the edge, and back into the abyss we go. I went from 95 kg to 130 kg in two years and ended up in the worst shape of my life. Somewhere during those two years, I also finally tried to kill myself (failed, as you might guess). That was the point when I finally accepted that I needed outside help, which I was lucky enough to get.
Nowadays, I am once again getting back into shape where I was and beyond. The scale says 95 kg, and the mirror shows something close to what I was used to seeing during my sports days. I am still pushing to get my strength back to where it was: a 200 kg squat, 120 kg bench, and 225 kg deadlift. Even though the reality is that 1RMs do not and probably should not matter given my current goals, they are still an easy way to measure where I am now versus where I used to be.
Now a bit about PEDs and how I found MesoRX back in the day. I have never wanted a “huge” look, being athletic and powerful-looking has always been enough for me. So when I finally decided to pull the trigger after years of research, my first (and only) cycle was 400 mg of test for 14 weeks with dbol at the start. I was very happy with the gains, and considering I already had two kids, I felt it was a risk worth taking.
After that cycle, I decided that PCT just didn’t sound like the way to go for me, and I continued with a TRT-style dose (varying between 150–200 mg depending on bloodwork and how I felt). After about a year on TRT, my wife and I decided to try for a third kid. I dropped the test, and after four months she was pregnant, so back to TRT we go! Currently I am running more of a TRT+ approach: 175 mg test and 100 mg deca weekly, combined with 4 IU HGH daily and 2 mg reta weekly. HGH has been an amazing experience over the last six months. I sleep way better, recovery is insanely good (managed to mess up my joints a bit, but you live and learn), and overall I just feel amazing.
I am also planning to brew my own stuff in the future, but before getting there, there are still things to learn. Also, located in Europe somewhere above 60th parallel north.
Welcome to Meso.
