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tengtren

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What's up everyone, so in the past I've had a problem with benzos but have been clean for some time now, no alcohol, no marijuana, no nothing except gear which in the recovery community is a no no. (I never fit in with that crowd and wasn't a meeting goer so no loss there) but for as long as I can remember there has been sex.

It started with a babysitter when I was real young, she was in 30's and I just knew whatever we were doing felt good. Some of you might be thinking fuck yeah get some !!WRONG!! Those few months of what we did while mom and dad were out skewed my view on women, sex, and myself for good. Some of you may know me for some wild butt stuff stories, it's because that shit is what's not boring. I fucked a girl in the bathroom IN THE ASS with cocaine in her little junior high asshole and then came in her mouth and there was poop. And blood, and we were only 13.

Then there's the porn. The weird porn that my girlfriend thinks I'm insane and there's some stuff she doesn't know I watch, nothing illegal just weird stuff. When I try and fuck her or start touching her asshole and she's just shit or is sweaty and swampy and she doesn't want to do anything I just say fine and act like I'm pissed and leave the room but she'll BUST in the bathroom and catch me beating off the some funky ass porn and she gives me the ole "am I not good enough for you???" It's just fucked and sometimes I feel hopeless and when I start feeling hopeless about it what do I do? Fucking watch porn because fuck it I'll never be able to stop. But then I think if I can go through benzo withdrawal I can quit porn.

I've never cheated on her. But there's this little fitness chick at the gym I train at now that always talks to me and she's asked about gear and what she can take, how to eat, how to train etc. Well today she asked if she can give me head for Anavar !!!!!!!!!! Fucking A. It was so hard to tell her no. She's younger than me. Not much but still, and immature, impressionable and doesn't really know what she wants. I would never forgive myself if I did it.

Anyway maybe some of you are sex addicts or have been able to get over it, idk. Share some wisdom and hope for ole TenG
 
Temptation is a struggle for us all. Declining the girl at the gym speaks volumes of your character because many would have accepted the offer. Ive found that sex and porn on a consistent basis has desensitized me not only in a sexual way but also mentally in regards to having a meaningful relationship and developing true feelings for someone instead of constantly thinking about them as only a vehicle for my own pleasure.

I’ve found that taking a long period of time off from any sexual experiences(2-3 weeks for me) will resensitize me both physically and mentally but once I’m active again my mindset quickly goes back to how it was before. What’s the longest period of time you’ve taken off, did you notice any changes?

Edit: I agree with @Eman . If you were a sex addict you would not have declined the girl at the gym.
 
Eman said:
You are not a sex addict... You definitely suffer from oversharing, but not sex addiction. Porn addiction, possibly.
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Thanks eman, go deadlift something stupid fuck

Your free to do whatever you want but idk why you always feel the need to drop in on my threads to tell me some dumb ass shit. Your a fuck. Definantly.
 
JackSmooth said:
Temptation is a struggle for us all. Declining the girl at the gym speaks volumes of your character because many would have accepted the offer. Ive found that sex and porn on a consistent basis has desensitized me not only in a sexual way but also mentally in regards to having a meaningful relationship and developing true feelings for someone instead of constantly thinking about them as only a vehicle for my own pleasure.

I’ve found that taking a long period of time off from any sexual experiences(2-3 weeks for me) will resensitize me both physically and mentally but once I’m active again my mindset quickly goes back to how it was before. What’s the longest period of time you’ve taken off, did you notice any changes?

Edit: I agree with @Eman . If you were a sex addict you would not have declined the girl at the gym.
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Have gone a few days in don't know how long
 
tengtren said:
What's up everyone, so in the past I've had a problem with benzos but have been clean for some time now, no alcohol, no marijuana, no nothing except gear which in the recovery community is a no no. (I never fit in with that crowd and wasn't a meeting goer so no loss there) but for as long as I can remember there has been sex.

It started with a babysitter when I was real young, she was in 30's and I just knew whatever we were doing felt good. Some of you might be thinking fuck yeah get some !!WRONG!! Those few months of what we did while mom and dad were out skewed my view on women, sex, and myself for good. Some of you may know me for some wild butt stuff stories, it's because that shit is what's not boring. I fucked a girl in the bathroom IN THE ASS with cocaine in her little junior high asshole and then came in her mouth and there was poop. And blood, and we were only 13.

Then there's the porn. The weird porn that my girlfriend thinks I'm insane and there's some stuff she doesn't know I watch, nothing illegal just weird stuff. When I try and fuck her or start touching her asshole and she's just shit or is sweaty and swampy and she doesn't want to do anything I just say fine and act like I'm pissed and leave the room but she'll BUST in the bathroom and catch me beating off the some funky ass porn and she gives me the ole "am I not good enough for you???" It's just fucked and sometimes I feel hopeless and when I start feeling hopeless about it what do I do? Fucking watch porn because fuck it I'll never be able to stop. But then I think if I can go through benzo withdrawal I can quit porn.

I've never cheated on her. But there's this little fitness chick at the gym I train at now that always talks to me and she's asked about gear and what she can take, how to eat, how to train etc. Well today she asked if she can give me head for Anavar !!!!!!!!!! Fucking A. It was so hard to tell her no. She's younger than me. Not much but still, and immature, impressionable and doesn't really know what she wants. I would never forgive myself if I did it.

Anyway maybe some of you are sex addicts or have been able to get over it, idk. Share some wisdom and hope for ole TenG
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I'm not buying it, i can understand chemical addiction, the whole sex addiction thing I believe is a piss poor excuse for bad behavior. If you want to jerk off to porn, and fuck random chicks, have at it. Stay out of relationships, and don't whine about it
 
rpbb said:
I'm not buying it, i can understand chemical addiction, the whole sex addiction thing I believe is a piss poor excuse for bad behavior. If you want to jerk off to porn, and fuck random chicks, have at it. Stay out of relationships, and don't whine about it
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There we go!:D
 
rpbb said:
I'm not buying it, i can understand chemical addiction, the whole sex addiction thing I believe is a piss poor excuse for bad behavior. If you want to jerk off to porn, and fuck random chicks, have at it. Stay out of relationships, and don't whine about it
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It has to do with the brains chemicals. Dopamine to be specific. You do something pleasurable, your brain releases dopamine. You keep doing the pleasurable activity, you become desensitized to the dopamine. You end up doing the pleasurable thing more and more, to be able to get more of a dopamine release.

So mental addictions are actually a lot like chemical addictions. Except, a lot of mental addictions like over eating, sex/porn are intrinsically tied to survival (eating and mating), so theres a larger percentage of people that are susceptible to it. Where as drug addiction, as large a problem it is, still only effects a small percent of people.

Consider how many overweight/obese/morbidly obese people or multiple times a day porn users are out there vs hardcore drug abusers.

What's different between the two is how quickly itll effect ones life. You can function with sex addiction, forever really. Samething with food addiction. But hardcore drugs will ruin your life much quicker, or kill you.

@tengtren only thing you can do is withdraw from sex masturbation porn for as long as possible. 90 days they say to rewire your brain. But go forever if you can.
 
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tengtren said:
What's up everyone, so in the past I've had a problem with benzos but have been clean for some time now, no alcohol, no marijuana, no nothing except gear which in the recovery community is a no no. (I never fit in with that crowd and wasn't a meeting goer so no loss there) but for as long as I can remember there has been sex.

It started with a babysitter when I was real young, she was in 30's and I just knew whatever we were doing felt good. Some of you might be thinking fuck yeah get some !!WRONG!! Those few months of what we did while mom and dad were out skewed my view on women, sex, and myself for good. Some of you may know me for some wild butt stuff stories, it's because that shit is what's not boring. I fucked a girl in the bathroom IN THE ASS with cocaine in her little junior high asshole and then came in her mouth and there was poop. And blood, and we were only 13.

Then there's the porn. The weird porn that my girlfriend thinks I'm insane and there's some stuff she doesn't know I watch, nothing illegal just weird stuff. When I try and fuck her or start touching her asshole and she's just shit or is sweaty and swampy and she doesn't want to do anything I just say fine and act like I'm pissed and leave the room but she'll BUST in the bathroom and catch me beating off the some funky ass porn and she gives me the ole "am I not good enough for you???" It's just fucked and sometimes I feel hopeless and when I start feeling hopeless about it what do I do? Fucking watch porn because fuck it I'll never be able to stop. But then I think if I can go through benzo withdrawal I can quit porn.

I've never cheated on her. But there's this little fitness chick at the gym I train at now that always talks to me and she's asked about gear and what she can take, how to eat, how to train etc. Well today she asked if she can give me head for Anavar !!!!!!!!!! Fucking A. It was so hard to tell her no. She's younger than me. Not much but still, and immature, impressionable and doesn't really know what she wants. I would never forgive myself if I did it.

Anyway maybe some of you are sex addicts or have been able to get over it, idk. Share some wisdom and hope for ole TenG
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WTF? Where is she, I’ll give her some Var for a BJ.
I used to watch porn constantly, now I very rarely ever watch it.
 
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