This current cycle is my second experience with tren. The first run was 50mg ED for most of the 8 weeks with 500mg/week of test c, current cycle I've been tweaking amounts of tren e and tren a with lower test (300mg/week usually) to try to reduce the insomnia and night sweats I got on the first cycle. I had great bulking results on the first cycle, and great cutting results on the current cycle. However, the mental side effects are just becoming too much to cope with day in and day out.
I'm normally a very emotionally stable person, I don't get jealous or overly angry/aggressive unless overtly provoked. However, on both of these cycles I found myself getting irrationally jealous and insecure of my wife's past. She and I have been together for almost 10 years, since I was 19 and she was 18. We both had previous partners in high school, her a few more than me, and some of them were complete assholes to her but she still dated them. This, for some reason, has completely consumed my mind for days at a time. I didn't even know her in high school or any of the guys she dated, but my mind has just run with it. It's caused bouts of depression, anger, and anxiety that were at times very hard to cope with. If I was a more unstable person and unable to convince myself through the shit swirling in my mind that it was just the tren talking, it could have ended badly. The weird part is the tren also makes me feel extremely emotionally close to my wife, so it's bringing us closer and then mentally fucking with me at the same time. So, despite my love of the physical benefits I've enjoyed from tren, I think it's in my best interest to steer clear of it from now on and stick to less androgenic compounds.
My advice to any of those considering tren for the first time is to be careful and make sure to look at your behavior as objectively as you can if you think you're seeing any changes, maybe get a friend to keep an eye out if there's someone you're close enough with to trust with that task. For some people tren is great an the side effects are minimal, I thought I was one of those people because the physical side effects weren't too bad and it was transforming me dramatically. I can handle the night sweats and insomnia, but this mental shit is just too scary to fuck with.