You've got a good thing going Nitrust. Your chick is beautiful and has a big heart. I can tell because of her profession and pics. Don't fuck it up. I promise you that it will destroy you. I was in a similar situation and lost my girlfriend of 7 years to some stupid ass shit. We both got on Xanax and it got real crazy. I regretted losing her for years and that played a role in why I turned to drugs to numb the pain. It almost killed/ ruined me. Funny thing is that she finally came crawling back this time last year because I got my shit together but there was to much pain there and my chick now is soon to be my wifey. Point of the story is don't fuck up the great thing you got going or it will ruin you. Fuck all this Meso doesn't like me stuff and realize what this short life is really about. I've seen you and I've seen her and she's out of your league bud. Tell her she's your best friend every chance you get.