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Logan44551

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So title says it. A couple months ago I got meningitis and was hospitalized for a couple days. While I was there they had me on diladid and Percocet. I haven't shot dope in 16 years, but that diladid woke up the demon inside. Didn't shoot anything, but was taken pain meds that weren't prescribed to me. Anyhow back to meetings, I know we're that road goes and have no desire to get back there. Thought I'd throw it out there I know a lot of you guys are in recovery. It still amazes me how deep the addiction runs. Anyhow got a sponsor and am going to work these steps again. What you doing for your recovery today?
 
Logan44551 said:
So title says it. A couple months ago I got meningitis and was hospitalized for a couple days. While I was there they had me on diladid and Percocet. I haven't shot dope in 16 years, but that diladid woke up the demon inside. Didn't shoot anything, but was taken pain meds that weren't prescribed to me. Anyhow back to meetings, I know we're that road goes and have no desire to get back there. Thought I'd throw it out there I know a lot of you guys are in recovery. It still amazes me how deep the addiction runs. Anyhow got a sponsor and am going to work these steps again. What you doing for your recovery today?
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That sucks man but at least you caught it quickly. Do what you need to do. Go kick your own ass in the gym. That’s what works for me. I totally strengthen the muscles and the resolve to weaken the demons. Sweat that shit out. Feel the pump. And at the very least tire yourself out so you don’t feel like doing anything else but sleep. The next day is always a little easier.
 
Respect for kicking the habit and being mindful of those drugs now. Good you recovered from the meningitis and now time to kick the demon back under its rock once and for all. Time spent in the Temple of Iron is great therapy!
 
Logan44551 said:
So title says it. A couple months ago I got meningitis and was hospitalized for a couple days. While I was there they had me on diladid and Percocet. I haven't shot dope in 16 years, but that diladid woke up the demon inside. Didn't shoot anything, but was taken pain meds that weren't prescribed to me. Anyhow back to meetings, I know we're that road goes and have no desire to get back there. Thought I'd throw it out there I know a lot of you guys are in recovery. It still amazes me how deep the addiction runs. Anyhow got a sponsor and am going to work these steps again. What you doing for your recovery today?
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11 years with a 3 month relapse in 2014.
I’m all to familiar with the needle and the spoon. I don’t have no urge for it today. I don’t drink either.
First off relapse happens.
Recovery also happens!
Don’t beat yourself up.
there is no secret recipe
Just start putting clean days in again.
Honestly my relapse showed me I could take the info I learned and apply it.
And that in itself, is empowering.


It only works, if you work it.
Keep coming back.

Good luck bro!
Ur not alone.
 
Same here. Fell off from maybe Jan-March. I was still working out because I associate getting high with working out from the joint, but I wasn't hardly eating.

I could see Dilly really causing a relapse, to be sober all that time then get high for the short ass time Dilly lasts I'd be pissed.
 
I was prescribed all kinds of powerful painkillers when I was seriously injured in an accident 15 years ago but as I was mindful of the addiction risk I was very careful in using them.

However I was a big weed user when I was battling depression while in college

I do agree that doctors need to be prudent in prescribing painkillers.
 
Here is a tip; rather than tell yourself it's something to lay you back or something to get high with, tell yourself it's poison. Get used to the word POISON. You won't look at it the same way
 
Logan44551 said:
So title says it. A couple months ago I got meningitis and was hospitalized for a couple days. While I was there they had me on diladid and Percocet. I haven't shot dope in 16 years, but that diladid woke up the demon inside. Didn't shoot anything, but was taken pain meds that weren't prescribed to me. Anyhow back to meetings, I know we're that road goes and have no desire to get back there. Thought I'd throw it out there I know a lot of you guys are in recovery. It still amazes me how deep the addiction runs. Anyhow got a sponsor and am going to work these steps again. What you doing for your recovery today?
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Good shit my man I applaud you for seeing it and stopping it there that shit never leaves us and comes back with a vengeance when I go back
 
Mac11wildcat said:
It blows my mind how quickly and easily these drugs are prescribed with absolutely zero attention to anyone’s history...

Get back on the path and strong those days together man. Good work.
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It's so fucking true.

It pisses me off that this wasn't looked at.



I bet anything they could have given him something else to help.
 
Logan44551 said:
So title says it. A couple months ago I got meningitis and was hospitalized for a couple days. While I was there they had me on diladid and Percocet. I haven't shot dope in 16 years, but that diladid woke up the demon inside. Didn't shoot anything, but was taken pain meds that weren't prescribed to me. Anyhow back to meetings, I know we're that road goes and have no desire to get back there. Thought I'd throw it out there I know a lot of you guys are in recovery. It still amazes me how deep the addiction runs. Anyhow got a sponsor and am going to work these steps again. What you doing for your recovery today?
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I applaud you for have the balls to talk about it. I am in recovery, except I really never found meeting to be helpful. That just a personal preference. I find it’s sort of like when a fat person decides that they don’t want to be fat anymore. Yes there are meetings he/she can go to and yeah there are fucking a ton of different diets, but what the fat guy/gal really needs is a lifestyle change. You have to be willing to modify the behavior. Which i guess is what the big book talks about, my issue with,”the program.” Are the fake fucking robots. The people that show up and talk like they were program to say certain things rather than be themselves. Fake people fucking piss me off. I had to find something that made me feel just as good as when registered and took the plunge. That’s was lifting weight and looking good. I better I look the better I feel. Now I am sure there are guys out there saying that’s all fine and dandy but that did work for them. Which is fine. Not saying it will. But I have been around recovery since ‘98 and my experience is that everyone can find something that is a healthy alternative to doing a fat shot of dope. Just a matter of figuring out what it is. I have buddies that skydive. I wanted something better for myself than what dope was giving me which was a nightmare. Hope everyone is having a good weekend
 
Logan44551 said:
So title says it. A couple months ago I got meningitis and was hospitalized for a couple days. While I was there they had me on diladid and Percocet. I haven't shot dope in 16 years, but that diladid woke up the demon inside. Didn't shoot anything, but was taken pain meds that weren't prescribed to me. Anyhow back to meetings, I know we're that road goes and have no desire to get back there. Thought I'd throw it out there I know a lot of you guys are in recovery. It still amazes me how deep the addiction runs. Anyhow got a sponsor and am going to work these steps again. What you doing for your recovery today?
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Just do what you said. 23 years in the program and I am coming up on 7 years clean. I still go to meetings, sponsor guys and do my steps again when they do theirs. Pray in the morning and at night even though I have no idea what the fuck I am supposed to be talking to. Still better than incarceration, sickness and running. Good thing you pulled the brakes before you got a hot shot or a case. Don't waste it.
 
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