Finally had her eat my balls and dick yesterday.
Usually blowjobs didnt really last long until we stopped em and fucked, but yesterday she took her time with me as i told her i want her to keep sucking and licking my balls (for the first time)
When i sticked it in her pussy, i couldnt really last long anymore which has never really been there because it was good.
Afterwards, she asked me if id like my asshole licked next time, because shes obviously done it before me and she wants me to have a crazy orgasm.
She also kinda wants me to let her put her finger inside me so she can massage my prostate, but im kinda unsure about it.
Any thoughts?
Im kinda pissed, since for all the time weve been together sex was kinda boring and normal compared to last time (well for me it was great, not sure if she enjoyed it either hahah).
She also suddenly told me shed like her ass eaten when i eat her pussy and suddenly she also told me she likes her asshole fingered and shit, stuff she used to tell me she doesnt like (anal) suddenly turns her on
Well fuck i have to post again here
Fellas im honestly pissed off
She showed me yesterday that theres a dirty side to her and it fucking pisses me off, she obviously had nasty ass sex with her previous partners before me, but with me its "enough if i just fuck her".
It gives me the kind of feeling like.. Hard for me to word/express on how i feel...
She did it for her previous dudes obviously and doesnt do it for me until i ask her obviously, but i dont want to have to ask for shit, i want her to come and surprise me with dirty ass shit. Im getting angry thinking about her enjoying nasty shit with her previous dudes(well everyones got a last obviously) but what fucking sucks is, that i want her to be as slutty for me too, without asking.
Bitch tells me she enjoys outdoor sex but wont even do shit with me outside our flat if i dont ask her or try to convince her.
It fucking sucks my dudes and i dont know how to cope with that.
Im just a 25 year old dude trying to live his (sexual) life jesus fuck
At 25 years old, you should recognize how destructive this thought process is by now.
So the problem is that now she wants to do that shit with you, that she didn't want to before?
2 possibilities:
Here's your best case scenario: she needed time to get comfortable with you sexually enough before sharing her kinks or fantasies. This is not unreasonable. This shouldn't even bother you.
Here's your worst case scenario: maybe, for whatever reason, she doesn't have the desire to do these things with you? Maybe you don't do it for her when it comes to freaky shit.
This is probably not the case but it's absolutely where your head is at right now, so lets take it further.
Let's assume this is the case. Why would it matter? Is the relationship not meaningful and fulfilling? Sounds like it is, so why dwell on this? Why not just be happy being something for somebody instead of wanting to be everything for that person?
Can you not be comfortable with the fact that maybe [1] it takes her longer to do these things with you [2] maybe it doesn't and maybe this is how long it took with her ex's or [3] maybe she doesn't want to do that stuff with you?
None of those should bother you. You're going to have people tell you otherwise but if your goal in any relationship is to be x,y,z for that person instead of actually enjoying your companion, you're going to end up as miserable as the mongs telling you this is a bad sign.
Make it a point to not succumb to your overthinking and self-destructive thought process even if the voice in your head tells you otherwise. See where it ends up. See how much less miserable you will be. Thank me later.