Well I am past 100mg/week now- 35x7=245mg/week. The original plan was to stop at 300, not thinking I’d even get close. Maybe it is altering my brain chemistry more than I realize because 50/day seems like a really nice round number that’s easy to measure dunno if I’ll go to 350 or not.
At this point I’m kind of transitioning from expecting immediate nasty sides. I’m now wondering if I’ll see discomfort creep in as the poison builds up, and if there will be time to back off if I do before the 4-6 week planned max run ends and see if that cures them or if it’s the buildup that brings them on.
I can say that today was the first day I felt different in the gym. It was leg day and my lifts had a strange quality. It wasn’t like I went to squat like my normal and threw the barbell through the roof by mistake. It was more like I did the weights I usually lift, and felt the reps slow down as failure approached like normal.
I’d grind out that last one that I could get with good form, but then instead of being done my brain was like “fuck that bitch ass weight. You can lift it like five more times.” Then I did. And confidently like almost if I took 90 sec break not 3 sec.
So despite only having strung together a few years dedicated lifting recently after a long stretch I’m like an intermediate lifter I think. I do know how to lift hard and while I don’t try to kill myself to the point where I need extra rest days I’m also not a ‘reps in reserve’ guy. I try to get to failure around 6-12 on most moves. Some leg stuff 15-20 but I also like drop sets to finish sometimes.
The reason I’m saying all that is to provide context. On an NPP cycle I get stronger and recover faster and can sometimes double my recoverable stimulus. That feels different than this though- NPP the strength was just there, like an old 5 rep max turns into 8 and easy work.
I’ve read that tren has a strength component but also a cns or mind/muscle thing, or maybe it just makes you dumb and aggressive enough to just believe you can do it then you do it.
Leg day last week felt normal and I was the normal slightly crippled with doms for a few days. I’m really curious to see if these extra reps were just my drug addled brain pushing me super hard, or if the drug addled body will actually brush it off and want to do it again in a day or two? Or will I be skipping accessory hammies & calves on arm day because I destroyed them today?
Anyway, no godlike feeling, no irritability or short fuse, bedroom is lively, meal prep is done for the week and my chicken & beef jerky came out bangin.