Bigbillybear
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BBB,
Ive been around so many years before cable modem internet was even able to access, yeah the errr beee boooop blah blah blah lol... I'm not a bad person, I suffer PTSD as a Navy vet... PTSD how you a frogman? nope... But I am a corpsman or was I mean I suffer not just PTSD and its real, I almost committed suicide so many times trust me, the thought always lingers of the things I have seen and held in my hands including infants, dead in Iraq, Syria (yes its classified so no talk) and many other countries from El Salvador as well, to helping victims in Hades etc....
I posted something I shouldn't have awhile back and I told even the, I think board owner to please delete.. However I was talked to like a dog... I was wrong and should have asked and want to say to the owner and mods I'm sorry... However to get dogged out by others who use an illegal substance that is controlled I just want to say, you had no right... However being the bigger man I am sorry to you as well... In the back under all my pain and emotions I'm still a vet who has over 100 marines I have delt with... Well over 100 I have no idea the amount could be quadruple the amount...
I was informed I didn't deserve the comments from people who would probably contact me and guess what I had a mailbox slam full of offers and a lot had similar names to those that called me a monster... I forgive all but ask to be forgiven as I didn't sell not one to anyone and that's because I never thought of the ones who had battled this disease of addiction regardless legit or not its still a huge problem even for me...
The ones I really am sorry to are the ones who might have ripped me a new one but they were former addicts and now are clean... You deserve to be called a hero for all of us and your family and to show YES you can win this horrible disease.. My pain consists of a major head injury and has a wire mesh, maybe poly now as its been opened up multiple times since... Shrapnel still in my body and works its way to my top skin and I have cut it out myself... next burn wounds on my right hand fingers (yes IED) and I went in and saved the bro but again I'm not here for a pat on the back...
I want to say you should have just explained the reason, the insults just created hate.... I'm a better person but I'm still depressed, suicidal, due to PTSD... Oh and the rods in my back and the laser work done on many vertebrae as well... You shouldn't judge someone when they make a mistake... You should use constructive criticism as I'm trying to do here and say how some of you handled it, which again I am sorry, almost showed me I shouldn't be on this planet, I have never felt the hate toward me and it still hurts....
If your a marine or navy then you are brothers but to be honest I consider all branches brothers, not just because I worked with marines and of course was a navy man.... I felt more like a marine to be honest... was in the thick so guess I sorta was...
Just double think and use the CC I stated above and not just attack when you yourself is more then likely using a substance that will land you in jail just as quick etc... Yeah think about some religions say no matter the size of the sin, its still a sin.. works both ways even to my haters...
Bless those getting over the addiction and I'm again so so sorry, and wouldn't happen again, I can promise that... at least I'll ask about anything before a post lol..
Take care brothers of all even my BBers...
love and Peace and pump that Iron
BBB
Ive been around so many years before cable modem internet was even able to access, yeah the errr beee boooop blah blah blah lol... I'm not a bad person, I suffer PTSD as a Navy vet... PTSD how you a frogman? nope... But I am a corpsman or was I mean I suffer not just PTSD and its real, I almost committed suicide so many times trust me, the thought always lingers of the things I have seen and held in my hands including infants, dead in Iraq, Syria (yes its classified so no talk) and many other countries from El Salvador as well, to helping victims in Hades etc....
I posted something I shouldn't have awhile back and I told even the, I think board owner to please delete.. However I was talked to like a dog... I was wrong and should have asked and want to say to the owner and mods I'm sorry... However to get dogged out by others who use an illegal substance that is controlled I just want to say, you had no right... However being the bigger man I am sorry to you as well... In the back under all my pain and emotions I'm still a vet who has over 100 marines I have delt with... Well over 100 I have no idea the amount could be quadruple the amount...
I was informed I didn't deserve the comments from people who would probably contact me and guess what I had a mailbox slam full of offers and a lot had similar names to those that called me a monster... I forgive all but ask to be forgiven as I didn't sell not one to anyone and that's because I never thought of the ones who had battled this disease of addiction regardless legit or not its still a huge problem even for me...
The ones I really am sorry to are the ones who might have ripped me a new one but they were former addicts and now are clean... You deserve to be called a hero for all of us and your family and to show YES you can win this horrible disease.. My pain consists of a major head injury and has a wire mesh, maybe poly now as its been opened up multiple times since... Shrapnel still in my body and works its way to my top skin and I have cut it out myself... next burn wounds on my right hand fingers (yes IED) and I went in and saved the bro but again I'm not here for a pat on the back...
I want to say you should have just explained the reason, the insults just created hate.... I'm a better person but I'm still depressed, suicidal, due to PTSD... Oh and the rods in my back and the laser work done on many vertebrae as well... You shouldn't judge someone when they make a mistake... You should use constructive criticism as I'm trying to do here and say how some of you handled it, which again I am sorry, almost showed me I shouldn't be on this planet, I have never felt the hate toward me and it still hurts....
If your a marine or navy then you are brothers but to be honest I consider all branches brothers, not just because I worked with marines and of course was a navy man.... I felt more like a marine to be honest... was in the thick so guess I sorta was...
Just double think and use the CC I stated above and not just attack when you yourself is more then likely using a substance that will land you in jail just as quick etc... Yeah think about some religions say no matter the size of the sin, its still a sin.. works both ways even to my haters...
Bless those getting over the addiction and I'm again so so sorry, and wouldn't happen again, I can promise that... at least I'll ask about anything before a post lol..
Take care brothers of all even my BBers...
love and Peace and pump that Iron
BBB
