Encouragement Thread

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What's your story? Let's hear it, so you can get it off your chest, and we can show you that you're not alone. Depression / anxiety from testosterone deficiency is real. And for some of us... you bro's are the only ones we talk to about this stuff. It's time we appeal to what our Padawan Master (SWALE) called the "peripheral (emotional) centers of the brain". I also think getting to know each other better will encourage more personalized responses.




I'll 'expose my dorsal' and start:

I'm 23 y.o. with secondary hypogonadism from God knows what. One of the many horrible things my father passed down was testosterone deficiency. His father also has it. I'm writing a book (literally... it's titled "From the Bottom Bunk") about the constant sexual, physical, and mental abuse my father brought down on my childhood. When it's complete, I'll gift wrap it and send him a copy.

I'm married to an awesome woman and we've got one child (boy). The depression / anxiety is really affecting me. I often catch myself thinking that my family would be better off without me. I refuse to treat depression when testosterone deficiency is the underlying problem. It's been really frusterating for my wife. I've got a pituitary MRI on Tuesday. My Endo is a waste of skin, so I, no doubt, will be looking for a new one.

My wife and I would like to have more children, but only after I am content and well with treatment (be it TRT or counselling). I spent 5 years in the Marine Corps and am being medically discharged because of my hypogonadism. I'm currently going to school for a Fire Services Administration degree. I'm going to be a firefighter or die trying.

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[Weatherlite]

Hi, my name is Mike and I'm a testosterone-aholic.

(Chorus) Hi Mike!!!

Anyway, I figure I'll share as well.

I'm 32 and have been experiencing the symptoms of hypogonadism since I was about 24-25 years old. Well, at least that's when I recognized them. After thinking about it I've been having these problems ever since I can remember.

I think this goes back to an injury to the groin when I was about 10 or so. They were swollen up to the size of large baseballs and were the color of eggplant when ripe. Pretty nasty spill I had.

Well, This has affected me throughout my life in various ways. I stoped growing probably in the early part of 9th grade. Full height was 5'10". At the time I weighed almost 180lbs. I wasn't fat...had a little chub but not too much. However, I had size 13EEEE feet and my hands measure 10" from thumb to pinky when stretched out and 8" from heel of palm to tip of middle finger. When most people measure out their arm breadth it's within an inch or two of their height. Mine is 76", 6" more than my height.

Also, during various medical tests throughout my life docs have found strange things. They weren't necessarily abnormal just not ordinary. My abdominals are larger than they should be. I've been told that my heart is enlarged by a radiologist so a cardiologist stepped in. Nope, not enlarged. That would mean it was smaller to begin with. He hit me with a battery of tests and said my heart was just fine....but larger than it should be for a 5'10" guy. Also, had to have other X-rays. From some of these the docs have told me that my bones are extremely dense and a lot larger than they should be, width wise.

Let's see....hair growth. Never had hair on my upper legs until I was in my twenties and that was very minimal amounts. Never had hair on my back until I started TRT. Hair on my chest was minimal as was my stomach. Now, with TRT, it's coming in fully. Never had to shave until I was 20 and that was only because I joined the Air Force and they made you do it. Even before TRT at age 31 I could go a day without shaving and not many would notice. Now, I can't go a day without it anymore.

Libido. My true reason for seeking help in the first place. I've never had a strong libido. Even at 18 it sucked compared to others my age. My married life was dying because of it. I started TRT and it began to come back for a while. Then it went away again. I was on gel at the time and started having reactions so I had to switch to Cyp. Again, it began to rise and stayed up for quite a while. Then, about a month and a week ago or so it died. It didn't get sick and wither a bit. It just DIED. Well, at the time my doc was about to put me on HCG so I figured that would help immensly and wasn't worried about it because I knew that even on TRT the libido waxes and wanes. Well, 4 weeks into HCG and nada. Zilch. Zero. Since I started HCG my wife and I have had sex twice. One time was her pretty much forcing me to cause I sure as hell didn't want to. Second time was me. Don't know where it came from but I felt pretty good for a bit and initiated. But that's it. I don't even get good response from the "dirty" thoughts that most guys find arousing. By that I mean the other things in life that are beyond our reach and generally turn us on quite well....like perhaps a threesome with a beautiful blonde or perhaps some other kinky situation. Does nothing for me still.

However, there's hope still. Doc says that the body takes quite a while to come to grips with the changes it's been through and that I should give it some time. So, I'm being patient. I'm just glad the wife is as understanding as she is! She actually wants sex all the time. Most normal men wouldn't be able to keep up with her if she were to get it as often as she wants it. Don't know what keeps her with me.

I'm hopeful. I will either get better on my own in time or we'll figure out what else could be doing this to me. Til then I'll just keep on having fun with the wife in "other" ways that satisfy her.

Wow....how's that for exposing yourself????