End of year test and decca cycle

[bananafeet]

Starting my TRT/cruise. I've done this before several times so I will just stick with what I know.

I got a bit autistic with it and organised everything I will consume over the next 14 weeks. Prices are in AUD. Every single thing is from India...

It's basically 100mg nandralone and 125mg of testosterone per week.





I think I am going to start doing this for every single cycle. I'll put everything I'm gonna need in a box and have everything organised up front.

 

[Cyp180]

Why AD buddy ?

 

[Photon]

Starting my TRT/cruise. I've done this before several times so I will just stick with what I know.

I got a bit autistic with it and organised everything I will consume over the next 14 weeks. Prices are in AUD. Every single thing is from India...

It's basically 100mg nandralone and 125mg of testosterone per week.

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I think I am going to start doing this for every single cycle. I'll put everything I'm gonna need in a box and have everything organised up front.

When is the warehouse tour

 

[BabaJagga]

I'll put everything I'm gonna need in a box and have everything organised up front.

good idea, maybe that will stop me from wanting to use all the stuff i have

good log mate.

 

[bananafeet]

Why AD buddy ?

Sorry mate I don't understand . What is AD?

 

[Cyp180]

Sorry mate I don't understand . What is AD?

Mirtazapine

 

[bananafeet]

Mirtazapine

Oh ok. Yeah Sertraline makes my dick numb and I can't orgasm. Mirtazapine blocks these side effects somewhat and makes my sex life tolerable.

I've recently lowered the Sertraline to 50mg and kept the Mirtazapine at 30mg. It seems to be working ok.

Mirtazapine works against semaglutide so I have to take a bit more semaglutide. It sort of reduces the bad effects of semaglutide like stomach aches in the morning because the stomach never fully slows down.

I'd rather not take any head meds, but the anxiety gets out of hand otherwise. So yeah the mirtazapine is a bit of polypharmacy.... It's there to make sertraline more tolerable.

 

[bananafeet]

good idea, maybe that will stop me from wanting to use all the stuff i have

good log mate.

It also makes you realise how many drugs you consume. It was a bit of a wtf moment for me lol

Like do I really need all this shit? Is this really healthy?

 

[BabaJagga]

It also makes you realise how many drugs you consume. It was a bit of a wtf moment for me lol

Like do I really need all this shit? Is this really healthy?

no, its def not healthy i think when you take more drugs to counter sides of drugs you are takin, then it gets weird.

but you dont wanna end up with hearth attack and kidney failure like one local gear head here recently sooo...

 

[bananafeet]

This shit is so weird man. I went off cycle and basically refused to eat any protien and just sleep and goofed off for about 2 weeks.

I basically can't be bothered training because I'm not on gear and not eating. Anyway I just did 102.5kgx1 overhead press and 80kgx7. A record for volume and intensity.

I know I've still got gear in my system. Anyway I'm about to drop the Sertraline and up the Mirtazapine. I'm sick of it messing with my sex life. If that doesn't work I'm gonna try:
1. Vortioxetine
2. Agomelatine

If that doesn't work I'm kinda at a loss. The comfortable emotionally numb feels you get on SSRI is the exact same receptor that numbs you and causes delayed or anorgasmia.

My sleep has absolutely gone to shit. I've got eszopiclome and zopiclone but I'd rather not add another psychoactive drug.

I've also got proviron. That will help with the sexual stuff. But again it's just throwing more drugs at the problem.

 

[bananafeet]

Front and side shots look terrible (I'm fat).

Managed a few weeks of a cruise before blasting again.

Still around 120kg. Lifts are still going up. My blood pressure is fine. Around 122-130/67-75 pulse around 70 awake. 60bpm asleep.

I did a blood test the other day so I will see where I am at in terms of liver/kidney function etc.

I need something else to do if I go off blast for a few months to occupy my mind. I find it hard not just like obsess over a subject when I get started. Maybe I'll try another language?

Latest PR was deadlift 165kg for 4. Did bench 5x5 at 90kg then somehow did a set of 10 at the end? Making me wonder if I'm just being a pussy and not pushing hard enough or somehow I got stronger mid bench. I was stronger at the end of the workout than at the beginning. Maybe I'm not doing enough warm up sets.

I also got 130kg pendlay rows for reps and a single 140kg pendlay row with body english (double dip). But I got the bar up!

Other lift that was ok was 10 reps standing behind the neck press of 60kg (amrap).

Probably not training hard enough. I'm waiting for the semaglutide to kick in at 2.8mg per week. I'm certain the Mirtazapine is stopping it from being as effective as it normally is. Last time I was this high with the semaglutide I couldn't eat much at all.

Sleep has been good and bad. Last night I got a good 8 hours then a mid-morning and mid-day nap totalling nearly 11 hours.

Personal life stresses don't seem to end.... I think this is subconsciously why I don't want to come off because I'm not looking forward to feeling everything 100%.

Anyway it was a shit show from the beginning, but I've managed to atleast put some weight on the bar.

 

[BabaJagga]

Front and side shots look terrible (I'm fat).

Managed a few weeks of a cruise before blasting again.

Still around 120kg. Lifts are still going up. My blood pressure is fine. Around 122-130/67-75 pulse around 70 awake. 60bpm asleep.

I did a blood test the other day so I will see where I am at in terms of liver/kidney function etc.

I need something else to do if I go off blast for a few months to occupy my mind. I find it hard not just like obsess over a subject when I get started. Maybe I'll try another language?

Latest PR was deadlift 165kg for 4. Did bench 5x5 at 90kg then somehow did a set of 10 at the end? Making me wonder if I'm just being a pussy and not pushing hard enough or somehow I got stronger mid bench. I was stronger at the end of the workout than at the beginning. Maybe I'm not doing enough warm up sets.

I also got 130kg pendlay rows for reps and a single 140kg pendlay row with body english (double dip). But I got the bar up!

Other lift that was ok was 10 reps standing behind the neck press of 60kg (amrap).

Probably not training hard enough. I'm waiting for the semaglutide to kick in at 2.8mg per week. I'm certain the Mirtazapine is stopping it from being as effective as it normally is. Last time I was this high with the semaglutide I couldn't eat much at all.

Sleep has been good and bad. Last night I got a good 8 hours then a mid-morning and mid-day nap totalling nearly 11 hours.

Personal life stresses don't seem to end.... I think this is subconsciously why I don't want to come off because I'm not looking forward to feeling everything 100%.

Anyway it was a shit show from the beginning, but I've managed to atleast put some weight on the bar.

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you can alwqys train harder. i think its addaption overtime...
i have friend that likes to do huge volume with minimal rest between sets, he is strong and over the years he got used to it.
for example, last week he pulled 270kg DL, all time PR, at 82kg and then proceeded to do heavy barbell rows amd 7 other excercises, 4 sets of each, for back + bicep:

i dont understand how its possible. next day he did squats with 240-250kg's, heavy singles. then another 2 hours of ussuall
legday

 

[IndividualMan]

This shit is so weird man. I went off cycle and basically refused to eat any protien and just sleep and goofed off for about 2 weeks.

I basically can't be bothered training because I'm not on gear and not eating. Anyway I just did 102.5kgx1 overhead press and 80kgx7. A record for volume and intensity.

I know I've still got gear in my system. Anyway I'm about to drop the Sertraline and up the Mirtazapine. I'm sick of it messing with my sex life. If that doesn't work I'm gonna try:
1. Vortioxetine
2. Agomelatine

If that doesn't work I'm kinda at a loss. The comfortable emotionally numb feels you get on SSRI is the exact same receptor that numbs you and causes delayed or anorgasmia.

My sleep has absolutely gone to shit. I've got eszopiclome and zopiclone but I'd rather not add another psychoactive drug.

I've also got proviron. That will help with the sexual stuff. But again it's just throwing more drugs at the problem.

for your SSRI debacle: Fluvoxamine might be the play. More pricey than other Antidepressants, but not as harsh on your libido. great for stabilizing mood when you are having a rough patch with motivation, anxiety or aggression
if combined with sertraline, you could even lower the dose to 25mg (+ however high you get the fluvox maleate) or replace it with another SSRI that fucks you up less.

as for the sleep, trazodone, eszopi/zopiclone should be fine. proper sleep hygeine is big as well. and lower SSRI/NSRI/stimulant doses.
resetting your tolerance to sleep drugs can also drastically improve the speed at which you fall asleep and sleep quality.

 

[bananafeet]

for your SSRI debacle: Fluvoxamine might be the play. More pricey than other Antidepressants, but not as harsh on your libido. great for stabilizing mood when you are having a rough patch with motivation, anxiety or aggression
if combined with sertraline, you could even lower the dose to 25mg (+ however high you get the fluvox maleate) or replace it with another SSRI that fucks you up less.

as for the sleep, trazodone, eszopi/zopiclone should be fine. proper sleep hygeine is big as well. and lower SSRI/NSRI/stimulant doses.
resetting your tolerance to sleep drugs can also drastically improve the speed at which you fall asleep and sleep quality.

Cheers mate. I've pretty much got no side effects on 25mg sertraline and 30mg mirtazapine and 200mg Modafinil. Everything is working fine at this dose.

As for the sleep it's weird. Eszopiclome does help me get a bit more sleep but it feels like a sugar pill to be honest. I even went up to 3mg.

I've got Vortioxetine coming if it doesn't get seized lol

I didn't go for fluvoxamine because I read it's got quite a lot of drug interactions compared to the other options. I am taking other meds so I didn't want too many interactions (nebivolol or metoprolol).

Sertraline is pretty much goated from my experience and it's a great anti anxiety med. If you don't get the sexual sides it's pretty much perfect. I will run vortioxetine and see how that goes. If I can drop the mirtazapine and just run that solo that's my long term plan.

I know that the late Leo Longevity loved fluvoxamine due to it's special profile. I think the alpha 2 receptor?

I'm circling round to thinking years of shift work and sleep apnea has kinda messed up my sleep architecture. I think anxiety is probably one of the root causes.

Thanks for your input I appreciate it.

 

[BabaJagga]

Cheers mate. I've pretty much got no side effects on 25mg sertraline and 30mg mirtazapine and 200mg Modafinil. Everything is working fine at this dose.

As for the sleep it's weird. Eszopiclome does help me get a bit more sleep but it feels like a sugar pill to be honest. I even went up to 3mg.

I've got Vortioxetine coming if it doesn't get seized lol

I didn't go for fluvoxamine because I read it's got quite a lot of drug interactions compared to the other options. I am taking other meds so I didn't want too many interactions (nebivolol or metoprolol).

Sertraline is pretty much goated from my experience and it's a great anti anxiety med. If you don't get the sexual sides it's pretty much perfect. I will run vortioxetine and see how that goes. If I can drop the mirtazapine and just run that solo that's my long term plan.

I know that the late Leo Longevity loved fluvoxamine due to it's special profile. I think the alpha 2 receptor?

I'm circling round to thinking years of shift work and sleep apnea has kinda messed up my sleep architecture. I think anxiety is probably one of the root causes.

Thanks for your input I appreciate it.

ive probably missed it but what is point of these meds?

 

[bananafeet]

you can alwqys train harder. i think its addaption overtime...
i have friend that likes to do huge volume with minimal rest between sets, he is strong and over the years he got used to it.
for example, last week he pulled 270kg DL, all time PR, at 82kg and then proceeded to do heavy barbell rows amd 7 other excercises, 4 sets of each, for back + bicep:

i dont understand how its possible. next day he did squats with 240-250kg's, heavy singles. then another 2 hours of ussuall
legday

Yes I think some people are naturally strong. I know a guy who is overhead pressing more than me after 6 months of gym. He already deadlifts 200kg+

It's crazy.

Seems like my entire body is androgen resistant. I suppose it's good because I keep my hairline lol

 

[bananafeet]

ive probably missed it but what is point of these meds?

Mental health meds.

I had some personal issues last year that did my head in. Had a nervous breakdown basically as my entire life was just thrown up into the air.

Count your blessings that you don't know what they are.

 

[BabaJagga]

Yes I think some people are naturally strong. I know a guy who is overhead pressing more than me after 6 months of gym. He already deadlifts 200kg+

It's crazy.

Seems like my entire body is androgen resistant. I suppose it's good because I keep my hairline lol

yes its genetics. but some guys are built different. this guy in particular is different different. chronicly underslept, after this workout he did 45min on airbike and 300 rep set bodyweight crunches, military style. training like this every single day.

ex powerlifter when he was in early 20's, almost died due to stroke from reckless gear use, currently he wont do more than 500 test and maybe var for few weeks.
swat team in prison. real tough guys there.

 

[BabaJagga]

Mental health meds.

I had some personal issues last year that did my head in. Had a nervous breakdown basically as my entire life was just thrown up into the air.

Count your blessings that you don't know what they are.

ive had reckless experiment with xanax when i was younger and dumb(er).
ive tried all sort of drugs and that was THE worst.

 

[IndividualMan]

ive had reckless experiment with xanax when i was younger and dumb(er).
ive tried all sort of drugs and that was THE worst.

the good old days of chinese opioids/pharma opioids with easy access. Good times, man. Fucked up half my generation irreversibly, but man was the memory issues and broken personal relationships worth it (not)