Flkrkr
New Member
Hell-o everyone, well this is my introduction.... I have lived a pretty wild, party-filled life, see I started drinking when I was about 8 years old. My step sister was 16 and forced to babysit while our parents went out and got messed up. Well her and her friends thought it would be funny to get me drunk. I was doing keg stands, hitting the beer bong, the weed bong, at 8 years old. By the time I was 12ish I was snorting coke, selling weed at school partying all the time. At 15 I was introduced to meth, it quickly became my new best friend. The person that gave it to me said if you are going to try it you have to do it right, by that he meant shoot it. I did, and I LOVED IT! Nothing could stop me I was a mack truck. I continued on this path until about 18 started using more x and acid, powder was more acceptable so I used that around friends and social events. At 19 I thought I would join the army, get some discipline, and quit drugs. That lasted a year until they kicked my ass for using drugs. By the time I was 25 I would consider myself a master chef in the kitchen. I could cook dope with my eyes closed. It was my job and my hobby all in one. I never saw it as being a problem or considered quitting. At 26, life flashed before my eyes when I was thrown out of a vehicle that was doing 90 miles per hour when it started flipping end over end. I ended up slipping C1-C6 in my back and had a major concussion but I was still alive. At that point I ended up getting hooked on prescription pills, then to heroin for about 2 years, nevertheless, still using meth. Needless to say there are not to many drugs that I have not gotten to experience the withdraw symptoms of. In 2011 (age 31) I was arrested for manufacturing meth. With a great team of lawyers and a lot of luck I only ended up spending 1 yr behind bars for it. But that wasn't enough for me once I beat that case I thought I was invincible and continued using dope until I finally destroyed my entire life. I hit rock bottom and went off to rehab, I went to rehab January 15, 2014. I went to rehab weighing in at a massive 135 pounds. I left my 30 day treatment weighing about 150 pounds.It has taken me awhile but I finally got my head right (where I don't think about drugs constantly) and have feelings of gratification without drug use. Alot of time has passed in my life, I am 35 years old and feel I am just now starting to live life. I have a beautiful wife that has known me since I was 18 and always told me I would make something out of myself. We have been married for almost 3 years now. I have a beautiful 8 week old daughter, 5 year old daughter, and 7 year old son. Currently, I spend 5 days a week in the gym, enjoy every second of it, it has become my replacement for drugs. I am 5'9'' weigh in at 210 lbs somewhere in the 12%bf range. I am definitely happy with where my physique is going right now considering it wasn't long ago I looked like a zombie from the walking dead. My goal is to be 230lbs and 10% hopefully in the next 3 years I will achieve those goals. Sorry for the long thread, I wrote this hoping that there is someone out there that I could possibly help from going down the same road. Or may have a question on how to withdraw. I am not a steroid expert or a bodybuilder, but I Am a damn good drug addict. Im always willing to help.
