Bigbillybear
New Member
Hello Brothers and Sisters,
For those that remember me from the old classified days I want to say I missed you guys so much but so much has happened in my life since and here is a taste...
For those that don't know me or remember me I was known as meso's watchdog in their classifieds and looked out for the ape man at the time and all the other scammers... Have a long history with BBing and BBing forums starting with those that can remember Arnian's board which was one of the first boards out (was mod and admin but NOT in business with) then Freakz, etc etc... Then tested gear for one company that was even in muscular development mag (much later after I was the guinea pig, but hey it was free and a lot.... and good.... you get the point)..
Well became a corpsman, or corman as they like to call it, in the Navy but was always with the Marines on the ground... My background was science and of course gear and prohormones were my focus being a meat head... Those days were educational and I learned even more and informed my brothers especially the special forces bros who wanted an edge (hey they took the chances not me)...
Well after PTSD set in and I was back home, was in a fight with a meth head that took 6 deputies to get him cuffed and that lead to me almost breaking my back... So now depressed and had 2 back surgeries ending in a spinal fusion and my wife of 16 years just up and left when I needed her the most taking all my (our) money saved, and my time share which she now shows a new man at the beach at my time share on her facebook page... totaled my 4 door Colorado truck after paying 6 years with zero interest and only 32k miles (no not drunk or on drugs because trust me they tried everything to say I was on something)... For some reason they mentioned that I had empty 5 hour energy drinks laying around and that was suspicious??? Please someone school me on that... 20 staples in my head later and Im out...
Well still depressed and trying to cope when in January I was found unresponsive in my house and after waking up 3 days later in the hospital I was told that I would have died within hours after being found if they hadn't called 911... I had just awakened from a drug induced coma and I was battling double pneumonia and two doctors were standing by my bed when I demanded to be let go as I hadn't signed any papers saying they could treat me... I was informed that's fine however I would be either dead or back in the hospital if I left then... I was talked into staying after hearing that and that began a very long stay in the hospital and then a few weeks inpatient in physical rehab learning to walk again... Got home not long ago and finally got out of the wheel chair and now I am able to walk my dogs a very short distance... I was given fully favorable decision of being disabled however have not received a dime due to it being pulled for quality assurance that I heard was 1 in 100 of a chance and my bad luck continued and I was selected... This I am told may take months longer and they can even change my judge ordered decision so who knows...
Guess what STILL DEPRESSED and am told still PTSD and yes thought about ending it all many times... Having to take many meds including pain, bp, cholesterol, diabetic, nerve, etc... Just being able to walk around the street a little is a huge move for me... And that's where I am today
Now after a near death experience (more then once but this one actually got me closer then anything in my past) my eyes have been opened and I want to get back in touch with my many old friends and use this board and our lifestyle for support and to help me heal... I want to help those based on my experiences and get back what was taken from me (I lost 100 bs in the hospital in just a few months and we all know that in shock your body takes calories to survive from muscle)... I want my health back and my muscle!!!
So many Ive missed but you can see I've been busy so forgive my absence and please except me back onto these awesome forums... After reading a lot I think you guys are going to be schooling me lol....
BBB
For those that remember me from the old classified days I want to say I missed you guys so much but so much has happened in my life since and here is a taste...
For those that don't know me or remember me I was known as meso's watchdog in their classifieds and looked out for the ape man at the time and all the other scammers... Have a long history with BBing and BBing forums starting with those that can remember Arnian's board which was one of the first boards out (was mod and admin but NOT in business with) then Freakz, etc etc... Then tested gear for one company that was even in muscular development mag (much later after I was the guinea pig, but hey it was free and a lot.... and good.... you get the point)..
Well became a corpsman, or corman as they like to call it, in the Navy but was always with the Marines on the ground... My background was science and of course gear and prohormones were my focus being a meat head... Those days were educational and I learned even more and informed my brothers especially the special forces bros who wanted an edge (hey they took the chances not me)...
Well after PTSD set in and I was back home, was in a fight with a meth head that took 6 deputies to get him cuffed and that lead to me almost breaking my back... So now depressed and had 2 back surgeries ending in a spinal fusion and my wife of 16 years just up and left when I needed her the most taking all my (our) money saved, and my time share which she now shows a new man at the beach at my time share on her facebook page... totaled my 4 door Colorado truck after paying 6 years with zero interest and only 32k miles (no not drunk or on drugs because trust me they tried everything to say I was on something)... For some reason they mentioned that I had empty 5 hour energy drinks laying around and that was suspicious??? Please someone school me on that... 20 staples in my head later and Im out...
Well still depressed and trying to cope when in January I was found unresponsive in my house and after waking up 3 days later in the hospital I was told that I would have died within hours after being found if they hadn't called 911... I had just awakened from a drug induced coma and I was battling double pneumonia and two doctors were standing by my bed when I demanded to be let go as I hadn't signed any papers saying they could treat me... I was informed that's fine however I would be either dead or back in the hospital if I left then... I was talked into staying after hearing that and that began a very long stay in the hospital and then a few weeks inpatient in physical rehab learning to walk again... Got home not long ago and finally got out of the wheel chair and now I am able to walk my dogs a very short distance... I was given fully favorable decision of being disabled however have not received a dime due to it being pulled for quality assurance that I heard was 1 in 100 of a chance and my bad luck continued and I was selected... This I am told may take months longer and they can even change my judge ordered decision so who knows...
Guess what STILL DEPRESSED and am told still PTSD and yes thought about ending it all many times... Having to take many meds including pain, bp, cholesterol, diabetic, nerve, etc... Just being able to walk around the street a little is a huge move for me... And that's where I am today
Now after a near death experience (more then once but this one actually got me closer then anything in my past) my eyes have been opened and I want to get back in touch with my many old friends and use this board and our lifestyle for support and to help me heal... I want to help those based on my experiences and get back what was taken from me (I lost 100 bs in the hospital in just a few months and we all know that in shock your body takes calories to survive from muscle)... I want my health back and my muscle!!!
So many Ive missed but you can see I've been busy so forgive my absence and please except me back onto these awesome forums... After reading a lot I think you guys are going to be schooling me lol....
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