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I fell off and landed hard!

Gonna get in the weight room tomorrow to see just how far down the ladder of sadness my strength has went. Nothing serious but enough time to get a feel for where my strength is at so I can really get at it come Monday without having to start and stop to readjust the weight amount on the bar. I know I've lost a lot of strength as I can tell by how much I struggle now when moving vices around in the machine shop and other moments where I call upon the old back to help me out.

Ive never been a heavy hitter as far as the weight I can move around due to poor genetics. I got a good portions of my father's family build and that's a pretty sad genetic pool for athletics. Luckily for me though I got just enough of my moms family genetics to save me from being a complete sack of crap, now with my brother it's a completely different story as hes a pigeon toed pathetic skinny fat weakling of the highest order. And some of you may say "Chump!?! I thought your dad was this big bad ex outlaw biker dude?!?" From things I've shared on here in the past and I will tell you most big bad biker dude get by in a fight with the safety in numbers strategy along with copious amounts of amphetamines to overcome a lack of strength in violent situations and you dont always have to be built like Brock Lesnar to accomplish the task of whooping up on someone lol.

I think I got sidetracked here... yep I did oops. Ok anywho I'll get those numbers up by the end of the weekend and I'll be 100% straight up and honest about them, cause maybe just maybe someone out there is struggling getting their strength up and could use my sorry ass for inspiration hahaha!
 
Who cares how far down your strength has gone? Just get in the gym, select a MUCH lighter weight, and hit those reps. Less sets than usual. Slowly increase weight and number of sets as you can handle it. Since you are just starting out again, hit the stuff that matters, like squats.

Also, about the pics, hey, GREAT before pics. Keep them for a comparison as warmer weather gets here.

The number one recommendation I could make is this - A.M. fasted cardio if possible. It not only starts burning through the fat, but it starts your day off right and will very much help with the mental fog and depressed feeling. It resets your mood. I hate setting the alarm and heading off in the dark to hit fasted cardio, and, let's face it, I hate cardio. BUT. By the time I am finished and arrive back at my house I FEEL GOOD. Mentally, I am charged up and ready to take on the day. Physically I feel good, too. I do not know how to explain it, but I definitely feel better after a.m. cardio, and you can't argue with the fat burning.

Start tracking calories and macros on MyFitnessPal. Just the act of having to enter your food and drink into that tracking app will make you avoid certain things "Do I really want to put 5 tablespoons of Jiffy Creamy Peanutbutter and 3 cups of Breyer's Mint Chocolate Chip ice cream into MyFitnessPal and see in front of my eyes what I am doing to my daily macros???"

The answer will frequently be "No," in which case your eating will clean up itself. You will also be sure you are getting enough meat and eggs by making sure that protein number hits its target every day. If it doesn't, then you will need to make adjustments.

Fats? LOL! Tracking is just about the only way to hit your macro goals on fats, since they are so ever present in the American diet.

Track! It will get you on course right away.

Good luck!
 
I also fell off in this last year so I’m going to keep watching this thread to help you and my own motivation! Good luck man I’ll chime in when I can
 
In the past I've hit some pretty LOW points like going from a fit 230lbs to a sick looking 195lbs, but that all changed when I decided to stay sober! I hated everything about myself so I changed everything overnight, quit smoking and drinking cold turkey and shortly after my outlook on life changed dramatically!

The one major thing I learned from my ups and downs is that excuses will be the death of you. I HATE excuses and honestly only weak ass people hide behind them! People can be Spartans or they can be slaves, simple as that!
 
JetsFan said:
In the past I've hit some pretty LOW points like going from a fit 230lbs to a sick looking 195lbs, but that all changed when I decided to stay sober! I hated everything about myself so I changed everything overnight, quit smoking and drinking cold turkey and shortly after my outlook on life changed dramatically!

The one major thing I learned from my ups and downs is that excuses will be the death of you. I HATE excuses and honestly only weak ass people hide behind them! People can be Spartans or they can be slaves, simple as that!
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Thats great man.. you re inspiring me to start smoking and drinking just to hate myself and quit cold turkey in honor of you... :)
 
JetsFan said:
Ummmmm thank you? lol :)
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i was joking about the inspiring part... but i was serious on the rest... dont know other people that quit smoking and drinkin cold turkey... so kudos to you..i think lot of people feel they have nothing to lose and couldnt be able to achieve what they desire... i feel them sometimes, since now i m motivated as fuck and ultra disciplined into my bb journey, but mainly because i m getting super results since i found the right setup for me.. in the past i made lot of errors, and as a natty i hated bb... so, i can understand lot of people that wanna live like trash.. life is cruel and sick... i put lof of effort and money into my trials over the years, but i have to say that Meso gave me a great help.. with lot of stuff... so... i dont wanna take credit for what i achieved... maybe i can say that i did my best to get lucky
 
I also lost a lot in the last year and covid helped but wasn't the only cause. I however didn't get fat, I'm around 12%, but lost a shit tone of size. I am at my lowest, am not used to this and it impacted my self esteem. So I can understand you.

One thing I can say though is this: routine, being totally anal about food, calories, body image, isn't healthy. I know, wrong forum, but, hear me out; nobody will ever be happy, if he has to stick him self with aas in order to have good self esteem.

Don't get me wrong, everybody needs to feel healthy, sexy, etc. Your bf % is definitely to high, and I would cut down to 6 pack territory, but that's really it. You don't need to be 210, 8% bf and have everything in total check in order to live your life with a positive feeling of self control and self image. Concentrating to much on muscle mass, bf%, food quality, calories, aas (drugs), makes you in to a hollow man. Life is chaos, death is a certainty, no amount of order can change that, and being anal about all of the aforementioned factors, are only walls we put up, that hide us from the chaos. But all we're doing is hiding and not really facing the reality.

So ... what I'm getting at; downfalls from "baseline" are great, in a sense, as they face us with chaos. And from that, we have chance to figure out stuff a new, look at our lives and believes from a different angle. So be positive, not all is bad. It's a chance to learn. Let go and embrace the school of anxiety heh.


A good read imo.
 
Hey Bro
Just saw this, been away for a bit.

Good to see you're getting your shit together again my friend!

Life fucks you up on occasion, it is what it is.
Been down this road, went from comp ready to a fucking piece of shit, it happens fast brother.

Trust me when I say this,
IT COMES BACK FAST
If you're eating clean and hitting the weights with total fucking savagery, you'll be back on top of your game, FAST

Everyone will be calling you out for the gear use.
Take it in and enjoy the ride amigo.
 
Good to see you taking accountability.This has also been the worst year for me.In february i was hospitalized for an infection that spread from my arm to my hand.Sepsis they ended up amputating 2 fingers and my other three are curled inward with no mobility due to the scar tissue and immobility.Huge scar from my upper pec down to my hand.They did a skin graff.Needles to say i was in a coma for 3 months and hospitalized a total of 6+.

I went from 250 down to 180!My test levels were at 33!Now im back on trt and going to order some hooks and get back to the gym once they open up.Wirh the hooks i should be able to pull since my right hand is compromised.Get to it brotha!
 
kastro said:
Good to see you taking accountability.This has also been the worst year for me.In february i was hospitalized for an infection that spread from my arm to my hand.Sepsis they ended up amputating 2 fingers and my other three are curled inward with no mobility due to the scar tissue and immobility.Huge scar from my upper pec down to my hand.They did a skin graff.Needles to say i was in a coma for 3 months and hospitalized a total of 6+.

I went from 250 down to 180!My test levels were at 33!Now im back on trt and going to order some hooks and get back to the gym once they open up.Wirh the hooks i should be able to pull since my right hand is compromised.Get to it brotha!
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I feel you my friend. I had sepsis back in 2017 and it almost cost me my life!
 
kastro said:
Its no joke.Did they cut you?
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No but I had bacteremia and I think I went into septic shock as my body was shivering so bad that I was paralyzed from shivering and cramping followed with a crazy high fever of 103.8 at home point. I couldnt straighten my limbs and fingers and had to be carried in the sitting position from my car to the stretcher and so forth into the hospital. I really thought this was the end and so did the paramedic who treated me in the ambulance
 
bigpoppachump2 said:
No but I had bacteremia and I think I went into septic shock as my body was shivering so bad that I was paralyzed from shivering and cramping followed with a crazy high fever of 103.8 at home point. I couldnt straighten my limbs and fingers and had to be carried in the sitting position from my car to the stretcher and so forth into the hospital. I really thought this was the end and so did the paramedic who treated me in the ambulance
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Wow thank god you pulled through.My organs shut down heck i had to get dialisis twice.Worst thing was when covid hit in march i could not see my wife and kids until i got out in late july.Whole new world when i woke up.Going to sub to your log bro!
 
kastro said:
Wow thank god you pulled through.My organs shut down heck i had to get dialisis twice.Worst thing was when covid hit in march i could not see my wife and kids until i got out in late july.Whole new world when i woke up.Going to sub to your log bro!
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Damn man, that sure sucks what happened. Have you tried getting therapy in an attempt to regain at least some use of your hand?

Septic infections are no friggin joke alright.
 
MindlessWork said:
Damn man, that sure sucks what happened. Have you tried getting therapy in an attempt to regain at least some use of your hand?

Septic infections are no friggin joke alright.
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Yeah brother been going to pt for a month.They have been trying to work on the fingers but they say realistically they will stay like that.Its been hell but im slowly coming to terms.Once gyms open over here in southern cal at least i can get a sense of normalcy.
 
kastro said:
Yeah brother been going to pt for a month.They have been trying to work on the fingers but they say realistically they will stay like that.Its been hell but im slowly coming to terms.Once gyms open over here in southern cal at least i can get a sense of normalcy.
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Maybe try working on grip using a tennis ball as that helped me after I crushed 2 fingers when I was young. Hopefully you can regain enough of your grip to be able to lift heavy again so keep at it.
 
MindlessWork said:
Maybe try working on grip using a tennis ball as that helped me after I crushed 2 fingers when I was young. Hopefully you can regain enough of your grip to be able to lift heavy again so keep at it.
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I am bro also using some clay.I looked into some hooks i saw a lifter using that was born with one finger.They look promising he was deadlifting 600#s.Hopefully they work for me.
 
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