Sexuallyblessed
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Summary of Self Prognosis: General health is extremely good with no known official health problems or medications taken. Complete list of all of what I consider to be my non normal body functions are listed below. All descriptions of my physiology below are how I have been my entire life, none of the issues are new or age related. Blood tests to be done soon.
Primary Health Concerns: Anxiety, Vulnerability to Stress, Erectile Dysfunction, Vulnerability to Cold, Lazy and Irresponsible (Possibly a natural mechanism my brain has found to reduce stress levels by simply trying pretend that nothing is important), Escapism through video games and the internet.
Age: 30
Height: 6' 3”
Weight: 195lb
Resting Heart Rate: 40-60
Resting Blood Pressure: 120/70
Resting Body Temperature: Ear 97 Mouth 98
Bodyfat: Varies from 10-15% depending on activity levels and diet, generally very lean and muscular with around 12% bodyfat unless sedentary with a poor diet for long periods. Have never been fat or chubby.
Bodyfat Deposit Pattern: Tends to deposit evenly on body, more noticeable on love handles. When bodyfat levels are above 15% (rare) extremely mild cellulite may be visible at certain angles (dimple pattern very hard to notice) appears on love handle and butt. Dissappears when under 15% bodyfat
Nipples: Flat unless cold or aroused or exercising (have noticed that others tend to have erect nipples at all times). Never had gyno or lactation.
Cold Hands and Feet: Common problem, entire body seems to run cool. The issue is especially bad in the winter or after taking a shower without using lotion (body oils washed off). Vulnerable to cold
Vulnerable to dry skin and tinea versicolor (fungal infection which causes pigment variations) on the lower torso area
Surgery: No surgeries ever. Never been anesthized.
Drug Use History: Little to no drug use throughout life. Have tried alcohol, marijuana, viagra, cialis. I currently do not drink at all.
Mild Varicocele near left testicle detected in early 20s through ultrasound, appears asymptomatic and mostly self-resolved.
Mild Mitral Valve Prolapse detected in mid teens through EKG. First EKG did not detect it, second EKG showed the minimum possible regurgitation for detection. The condition was self diagnosed by myself b4 testing because I had anxiety and occasional tachycardia when suddenly jolted such as in contact sports.
History of anxiety on moms side of family
Severe performance anxiety for myself especially during speeches, competitive sports, and sex related activities
-Morning erections are rare, often self induced through kegels, and dissapate rapidly upon awakening or cessation of kegels. This indicates to me a malfunction of the penis to trap blood properly and/or low testosterone
-Night erections are present and are strong if woken mid sleep, but dissapate rapidly upon awakening suggesting that the penis does not trap blood properly when awake
-Venous Leak (suspected: I suspect I have some type of venous leak because erections can be lost so easily. Erections subside far too easily when stimulation ceases, positions change, or a pre-orgasmic state is not maintained) This may be a result of damage caused to the penis from attempting enlargement techniques at age 15-17
-Retrograde Ejaculation: Occasionally notice minor amounts of semen in urine in the day following ejaculation. This appears to be highly associated with the type of masturbation. Long lasting edging type of masturbation where the pre-orgasmic state is held for up to an hour and the pleasure derived from lubricated stimulation and simultaneous kegel contractions seems to have a propensity to cause this, whereas masturbation where less lubrication or no lubrication is used and the method of stimulation is the standard up and down motions does not cause this as much
-Prostatits (had it about 3 or 4 times in correlation with masturbating for hours over multiple days while witholding ejaculation and doing kegels. Prostatitis definitely appears to be related to masturbation habits)
-Watery Ejaculation: The consistancy of my ejaculation varies from watery to somewhat watery and is never thick and white. Eating whole eggs every morning seems to help with this and after recently starting ZMA, the semen is much thicker
Varying levels of dopamine or other hormones and neurotransmitters seem to greatly effect the pleasure from sex. I first realized this when I experienced euphoria from masturbating when I was extremely sleepy and barely awake after a long period of abstinence.*
Self Discovered Cures:
Long periods of abstinence between sexual experiences (lowering prolactin levels)
Maintaining a pre-orgasmic state for the majority of the sexual experience. This preorgasmic state drastically improves erectile response and pleasure.
Waiting until very late at night before the sexual experience (maximizing brain dopamine)
Edging at the point of near orgasm for up to an hour (maximizes erection strength and pleasure, but occasionnaly causes prostatitis if orgasm is completely avoided or reverse kegels are used)
Using baby oil and specific hand motions and erotica, particularly after a week of abstinence, often results in extremely pleasureable sexual gratification and excellent performance.
Usually a pre-orgasmic state is maintained for up to an hour, and it is through this method that I have achieved the greatest pleasureable experiences.
Kegels seem to have an effect on my sexual system, although the way they effect it is not clear. Kegels seem to either help or hinder depending on how or when they are used. Kegels during masturbation are often a key component of pleasure.
Cialis or Viagra in low doses: Works extremely well for erections but does nothing for sensitivity and possibly even causes lack of sensitivity. Appears to possibly cause lack of sensation and numbess, which lasts for up to a month after using the drug. Possibly throws sexual system into haywire. Erections are often incredibly good for up to a week after using the drugs, but weeks 2-4 after using the drug erections appear to become worse then normal. Also the sexual adhedonia which appears to be related to use of these drugs is very frustrating because even through the penis is very errect and working well, the sexual pleasure is non-existant and sex is not gratifying at all.
Foreskin Restoration: Increases skin mobility and improves pleasure from sex
Moderate or severe erectile dysfunction when performance anxiety is present
Sexual numbness, lack of sensation from sex and masturbation on occasion. This seems to be somehow related to anxiety, circumcision, hormones, neurotransmitters, pde5 inhibitors, or alcohol. Have attempted to eliminate alcohol and PDE5 inhibitors but the phenomenon still occurs on occasion
Mild Erectile dysfunction in the form of erections which subside easily without stimulation even when anxiety is not present. This phenomenon is always present, although the speed and ease at which erections subside without stimulation is highly variable and dependant on multiple factors
Enhanced sexual function, sensation and performance when acutely sleep deprived or dozing off. This suggests increased dopamine greatly boosts my sexual response. Most pleasureable sexual experiences I have ever felt have usually been extremely late night masturbation after a week long abstinence where I am barely awake.
Did not lose virginity until 25 years old, while using a viagra. Brain is primarily conditioned for arousal from porn and masturbation. Currently on a porn/masturbation detox program to rewire the brain to be aroused from real life women instead of images and masturbation.
Physiological Erectile Dysfunction: Varies considerably from nearly nonexistant to mild although occassionally it is moderate or severe. Generally manifests itself in the ability to easily lose an erection or a lack of sensitivity (both symptoms are very common). Also of note is that my erectile performance and sexual response is optimal when there are only 1-4 orgasms per week, and decreases the more often I orgasm per week. Recovery time from orgasm is generally 1-4 hours, which is longer then most men. Causes of physiological erectile dysfunction are hypothesized to be the following:*
1. Possible trauma to penis from various penis enlargement techniques including stretching and pumping at age 15-17 (I am currently 30). This could possibly have caused mild damage and scarring within the penis that resulted in a mild venous leak, which explains why erections can be easy to lose.
2. Possible underactive thyroid gland (Get cold easily, cold hands and feet, low heart rate, low body temperature, often lazy) Oddly however, I am very lean and do not get fat easily.*
3. Possible excessive amounts of prolactin (emotional, long recovery time post orgasm, erectile problems, flat nipples)
4. Possible suboptimal levels of dopamine and testosterone. Dopamine dysregulation caused by a life of playing computer games, and using porn. Porn use however has generally been moderated and orgasms have been limited to 1-3 per week since when I discovered in my early 20s that doing this significantly improved my erectile performance and sensation.
5. Occasional prostatits (did not occur until about age 26 or 27 and has occured only 3 or 4 times with durations lasting a couple weeks to a couple of months, so it is not a root cause of physiological ED however when the prostatitis is present the ED is significantly worse) which often results in moderate erectile dysfunction and has unknown cause but is usually associated with witholding ejaculation without release and overdoing kegels or reverse kegels
6. Possible adverse effects of being circumcised resulting in suboptimal penile function due to a lack of mobile skin, lack of a complete frenular delta and nerves, and lack of foreskin
7. Possible connection to mild varicocele near left testicle which may or may not effect hormone levels.
Psychological Erectile Dysfunction: I am generally extremely anxiety prone, specifically performance anxiety. My mind is also conditioned to have sex alone and not with a real person. This makes sex extremely stressfull and unfamiliar. Also, the knowledge that I have difficulty maintaining erections under suboptimal conditions results in a compounded effect making live sex often extremely difficult or impossible and unpleasureable. When viagra or cialis are used to remedy the problem and enable sex, I am still rarely if ever able to enjoy it because I can barely feel anything, although the erection does remain strong unless my anxiety is extremely severe. It is unknown whether the lack of sensitivity during sex is due to the drugs or other causes such as anxiety, hormones, or neurotransmitters.
My Erectile Dysfunction : A detailed analysis
Erectile performance varies greatly depending on multiple factors including mood, time of day, random variables, state of mind, recent sexual activity, etc... Generally erections are fine, especially when alone, however they tend to be easy to lose without constant stimulation unless a pre-orgasmic state is achieved. Pre-Orgasmic state refers to where the ejaculatory fluids have moved into position for orgasm and the penis becomes more erect and pleasure becomes more intense. Many people try to stay in this heightened state of pleasure for the majority of their sexual experience and it is referred to as edging. Once the pre orgasmic state is achieved, erections tend to be strong, pleasure tends to be high, and erections subside slightly slower when there is a lack of stimulation (it may take 15-30 seconds of no stimulation to fall into a semi erect state rather then 5-15 seconds when in a non pre-orgasmic state). Generally I try to maintain a pre-orgasmic state for the duration of most sexual experiences as that state has the most pleasure and best performance.*
Erections are occasionally difficult to achieve, weak, and stimulation is sometimes barely pleasureable. These symptoms are almost always present when with a partner, but occasionally present when alone. Confirmed ways to cause the issues in myself is ejaculating more often then my bodies ability to recover, bad weeks or months where for some reason erectile response is poor, or anxiety issues. Usually, once a pre-orgasmic state is achieved, erections tend to be very strong, and pleasure is good until stimulation ceases or orgasm occurs. Maintaining this pre orgasmic state is called edging. Erections begin to subside too quickly after stimulation is ceased or orgasm occurs, creating a constant fear of easily losing an erection. Being relaxed and in a pre orgasmic state helps this issue to some extent as erections are stronger and do not subside as easily although still easier then they should.
Key Notes:
Erections are often difficult to maintain without constant stimulation or kegels until entering the pre-orgasmic state
Sexual sensitivity is often poor until a pre-orgasmic state is achieved and varies greatly from day to day, and time to time
When spontaneous erections occur maintaining an erection isnt too difficult at first, but after several minutes it becomes very hard or impossible if I am not experiencing pleasure through either touch or swinging the penis and kegeling, and it feels as if some sort of "burnout has occurred". This burnout is avoided if sexual pleasure is good and/or a pre orgasmic state is maintained or achieved.
Performance anxiety greatly compounds upon the physiological issues but is not the root cause of the suboptimal baseline erectile performance. However, if there is no anxiety then the physical symptoms are generally not enough to prevent a positive sexual experience or intercourse.
One possible physiological cause of "weak or hard to maintain" erections is from trying to enlarge the penis using various techniques including stretching and pumps between age 15-17. This may have permanently damaged the erectile tissue to a minor or moderate degree although I am not certain.
Became aware of "weak or hard to maintain" erections at about age 17. Assumed it was from the enlargement techniques and pumping I did in my mid teens and went into depression until discovering in my early 20s that refraining from ejaculating to less then 3 times per week significantly improved erectile response. This may be related to prolactin levels which shoot up far too high post orgasm, which also explains my long refractory period
Degree of erectile dysfunction varies greatly from day to day and month to month, sometimes severe and sometimes mild or nonexistant
Masturbation is typically either free of erectile dysfunction, or very mild erectile dysfunction in the form of easily losing the erection if manual stimulation ceases. The level of ED experienced when alone is highly correlated with the amount of orgasms I have per week. 1-2 orgasms per week causes no ED, 2-4 orgasms per week causes none to mild ED, 4-7 orgasms per week causes mild ED, and more then 7 orgasms per week potentially causes moderate ED in the form of weaker erections and less pleasure. The usual lack of ED when alone is due to constant stimulation, lack of anxiety, erotic images, and being able to stay in a pre-orgasmic state for an extended period of time. Moderate or severe erectile dysfunction during masturbation is rare and tends to only occur when overdoing masturbation faster then my body can recover, for example 5+ orgasms per week or during specific weeks/months where my sexual response feels impaired.
My recovery period from orgasm is significantly longer then most men, and has been this way my whole life. This suggests high levels of prolactin, specifically after orgasm. I also become very emotional and anxiety prone post orgasm. Minimum recovery time post orgasm for me is about 1 to 4 hours however my sexual response and erectile performance often remains compromised for up to 8 hours. This highly suggests to me an overabundance of prolactin being released post orgasm. When on a PDE5 inhibitor I can recover from orgasm and perform significantly better and faster.
Sexual performance has remained relatively consistant from ages 17-30 with fluctions in libido and performance from day to day, week to week, and month to month. No age based degradation of sexual performance has been observed however keep in mind that the effects of real sex were not observed until age 25 when I lost my virginity under the effects of Viagra.*
Of particular note is that I discovered the ability to maximize sexual pleasure around the time I was 20 by abstaining for an entire week, staying up as late as possible on the 7th day until I am barely awake, and then masturbating with baby oil. Under these conditions I am able to maintain a pre-orgasmic state for over an hour (as long as I want but I start getting blue balls after about 2 hours), with extreme pleasure, and an extremely strong erection for the entire time. This led me to discover that masturbating less frequently improved my sexual and erectile response and pleasure. Once I discovered this I began limiting my orgasms to only once or twice per week, and assumed I had cured my erectile dysfunction until I realized that most real life women demand sex much more often than once per week.
At around age 25, when I first lost my virginity with a real woman, and after experimenting with alcohol, viagra, cialis, and caffeine I had discovered that my sexual sensitivity was often extremely poor when with a real person, and occasionally when by myself. I have still not determined whether the cause of this is one of the substances above, or the severe anxiety I tend to have when with a real person but the sensitivity issue did not become apparent to me until age 25 (which is when i first tried alcohol and pde5 inhibitors). This lack of sensitivity also manifests itself during masturbation, and so appears to be more then just anxiety. Usually the sensitivity situation can be reversed by 7-14 days abstinence where my system "resets" although I usually feel very asexual between day 3-7. Several days of consistant once daily orgasm also seems to bring back the sensitivity, as does completely refraining from alcohol and cialis/viagra or other substances.
The quality of my orgasms, and experience of sex greatly influences my mood and how I feel for up to a week after an orgasm. If I orgasm while anxious I am left feeling horrible for several days and this only appears to be corrected once I experience a "pleasureable" orgasm. If I orgasm during extreme pleasure, the opposite is true and I remain happy for several days. I have never had a pleasureable orgasm with a real life woman. The impact of sex upon my life and how I feel is tremendous.
I want to get a blood test for the following things. Feel free to make suggestions.
testosterone (free and total)
leutenizing hormone
estrogen
prolactin
thyroid
PSA
FSH
TSH*
T4
I will post my blood test results as soon as I get them. I am tired of hypothesizing whats wrong with me and its time for some answers. I would love to hear thoughts and suggestions.
Primary Health Concerns: Anxiety, Vulnerability to Stress, Erectile Dysfunction, Vulnerability to Cold, Lazy and Irresponsible (Possibly a natural mechanism my brain has found to reduce stress levels by simply trying pretend that nothing is important), Escapism through video games and the internet.
Age: 30
Height: 6' 3”
Weight: 195lb
Resting Heart Rate: 40-60
Resting Blood Pressure: 120/70
Resting Body Temperature: Ear 97 Mouth 98
Bodyfat: Varies from 10-15% depending on activity levels and diet, generally very lean and muscular with around 12% bodyfat unless sedentary with a poor diet for long periods. Have never been fat or chubby.
Bodyfat Deposit Pattern: Tends to deposit evenly on body, more noticeable on love handles. When bodyfat levels are above 15% (rare) extremely mild cellulite may be visible at certain angles (dimple pattern very hard to notice) appears on love handle and butt. Dissappears when under 15% bodyfat
Nipples: Flat unless cold or aroused or exercising (have noticed that others tend to have erect nipples at all times). Never had gyno or lactation.
Cold Hands and Feet: Common problem, entire body seems to run cool. The issue is especially bad in the winter or after taking a shower without using lotion (body oils washed off). Vulnerable to cold
Vulnerable to dry skin and tinea versicolor (fungal infection which causes pigment variations) on the lower torso area
Surgery: No surgeries ever. Never been anesthized.
Drug Use History: Little to no drug use throughout life. Have tried alcohol, marijuana, viagra, cialis. I currently do not drink at all.
Mild Varicocele near left testicle detected in early 20s through ultrasound, appears asymptomatic and mostly self-resolved.
Mild Mitral Valve Prolapse detected in mid teens through EKG. First EKG did not detect it, second EKG showed the minimum possible regurgitation for detection. The condition was self diagnosed by myself b4 testing because I had anxiety and occasional tachycardia when suddenly jolted such as in contact sports.
History of anxiety on moms side of family
Severe performance anxiety for myself especially during speeches, competitive sports, and sex related activities
-Morning erections are rare, often self induced through kegels, and dissapate rapidly upon awakening or cessation of kegels. This indicates to me a malfunction of the penis to trap blood properly and/or low testosterone
-Night erections are present and are strong if woken mid sleep, but dissapate rapidly upon awakening suggesting that the penis does not trap blood properly when awake
-Venous Leak (suspected: I suspect I have some type of venous leak because erections can be lost so easily. Erections subside far too easily when stimulation ceases, positions change, or a pre-orgasmic state is not maintained) This may be a result of damage caused to the penis from attempting enlargement techniques at age 15-17
-Retrograde Ejaculation: Occasionally notice minor amounts of semen in urine in the day following ejaculation. This appears to be highly associated with the type of masturbation. Long lasting edging type of masturbation where the pre-orgasmic state is held for up to an hour and the pleasure derived from lubricated stimulation and simultaneous kegel contractions seems to have a propensity to cause this, whereas masturbation where less lubrication or no lubrication is used and the method of stimulation is the standard up and down motions does not cause this as much
-Prostatits (had it about 3 or 4 times in correlation with masturbating for hours over multiple days while witholding ejaculation and doing kegels. Prostatitis definitely appears to be related to masturbation habits)
-Watery Ejaculation: The consistancy of my ejaculation varies from watery to somewhat watery and is never thick and white. Eating whole eggs every morning seems to help with this and after recently starting ZMA, the semen is much thicker
Varying levels of dopamine or other hormones and neurotransmitters seem to greatly effect the pleasure from sex. I first realized this when I experienced euphoria from masturbating when I was extremely sleepy and barely awake after a long period of abstinence.*
Self Discovered Cures:
Long periods of abstinence between sexual experiences (lowering prolactin levels)
Maintaining a pre-orgasmic state for the majority of the sexual experience. This preorgasmic state drastically improves erectile response and pleasure.
Waiting until very late at night before the sexual experience (maximizing brain dopamine)
Edging at the point of near orgasm for up to an hour (maximizes erection strength and pleasure, but occasionnaly causes prostatitis if orgasm is completely avoided or reverse kegels are used)
Using baby oil and specific hand motions and erotica, particularly after a week of abstinence, often results in extremely pleasureable sexual gratification and excellent performance.
Usually a pre-orgasmic state is maintained for up to an hour, and it is through this method that I have achieved the greatest pleasureable experiences.
Kegels seem to have an effect on my sexual system, although the way they effect it is not clear. Kegels seem to either help or hinder depending on how or when they are used. Kegels during masturbation are often a key component of pleasure.
Cialis or Viagra in low doses: Works extremely well for erections but does nothing for sensitivity and possibly even causes lack of sensitivity. Appears to possibly cause lack of sensation and numbess, which lasts for up to a month after using the drug. Possibly throws sexual system into haywire. Erections are often incredibly good for up to a week after using the drugs, but weeks 2-4 after using the drug erections appear to become worse then normal. Also the sexual adhedonia which appears to be related to use of these drugs is very frustrating because even through the penis is very errect and working well, the sexual pleasure is non-existant and sex is not gratifying at all.
Foreskin Restoration: Increases skin mobility and improves pleasure from sex
Moderate or severe erectile dysfunction when performance anxiety is present
Sexual numbness, lack of sensation from sex and masturbation on occasion. This seems to be somehow related to anxiety, circumcision, hormones, neurotransmitters, pde5 inhibitors, or alcohol. Have attempted to eliminate alcohol and PDE5 inhibitors but the phenomenon still occurs on occasion
Mild Erectile dysfunction in the form of erections which subside easily without stimulation even when anxiety is not present. This phenomenon is always present, although the speed and ease at which erections subside without stimulation is highly variable and dependant on multiple factors
Enhanced sexual function, sensation and performance when acutely sleep deprived or dozing off. This suggests increased dopamine greatly boosts my sexual response. Most pleasureable sexual experiences I have ever felt have usually been extremely late night masturbation after a week long abstinence where I am barely awake.
Did not lose virginity until 25 years old, while using a viagra. Brain is primarily conditioned for arousal from porn and masturbation. Currently on a porn/masturbation detox program to rewire the brain to be aroused from real life women instead of images and masturbation.
Physiological Erectile Dysfunction: Varies considerably from nearly nonexistant to mild although occassionally it is moderate or severe. Generally manifests itself in the ability to easily lose an erection or a lack of sensitivity (both symptoms are very common). Also of note is that my erectile performance and sexual response is optimal when there are only 1-4 orgasms per week, and decreases the more often I orgasm per week. Recovery time from orgasm is generally 1-4 hours, which is longer then most men. Causes of physiological erectile dysfunction are hypothesized to be the following:*
1. Possible trauma to penis from various penis enlargement techniques including stretching and pumping at age 15-17 (I am currently 30). This could possibly have caused mild damage and scarring within the penis that resulted in a mild venous leak, which explains why erections can be easy to lose.
2. Possible underactive thyroid gland (Get cold easily, cold hands and feet, low heart rate, low body temperature, often lazy) Oddly however, I am very lean and do not get fat easily.*
3. Possible excessive amounts of prolactin (emotional, long recovery time post orgasm, erectile problems, flat nipples)
4. Possible suboptimal levels of dopamine and testosterone. Dopamine dysregulation caused by a life of playing computer games, and using porn. Porn use however has generally been moderated and orgasms have been limited to 1-3 per week since when I discovered in my early 20s that doing this significantly improved my erectile performance and sensation.
5. Occasional prostatits (did not occur until about age 26 or 27 and has occured only 3 or 4 times with durations lasting a couple weeks to a couple of months, so it is not a root cause of physiological ED however when the prostatitis is present the ED is significantly worse) which often results in moderate erectile dysfunction and has unknown cause but is usually associated with witholding ejaculation without release and overdoing kegels or reverse kegels
6. Possible adverse effects of being circumcised resulting in suboptimal penile function due to a lack of mobile skin, lack of a complete frenular delta and nerves, and lack of foreskin
7. Possible connection to mild varicocele near left testicle which may or may not effect hormone levels.
Psychological Erectile Dysfunction: I am generally extremely anxiety prone, specifically performance anxiety. My mind is also conditioned to have sex alone and not with a real person. This makes sex extremely stressfull and unfamiliar. Also, the knowledge that I have difficulty maintaining erections under suboptimal conditions results in a compounded effect making live sex often extremely difficult or impossible and unpleasureable. When viagra or cialis are used to remedy the problem and enable sex, I am still rarely if ever able to enjoy it because I can barely feel anything, although the erection does remain strong unless my anxiety is extremely severe. It is unknown whether the lack of sensitivity during sex is due to the drugs or other causes such as anxiety, hormones, or neurotransmitters.
My Erectile Dysfunction : A detailed analysis
Erectile performance varies greatly depending on multiple factors including mood, time of day, random variables, state of mind, recent sexual activity, etc... Generally erections are fine, especially when alone, however they tend to be easy to lose without constant stimulation unless a pre-orgasmic state is achieved. Pre-Orgasmic state refers to where the ejaculatory fluids have moved into position for orgasm and the penis becomes more erect and pleasure becomes more intense. Many people try to stay in this heightened state of pleasure for the majority of their sexual experience and it is referred to as edging. Once the pre orgasmic state is achieved, erections tend to be strong, pleasure tends to be high, and erections subside slightly slower when there is a lack of stimulation (it may take 15-30 seconds of no stimulation to fall into a semi erect state rather then 5-15 seconds when in a non pre-orgasmic state). Generally I try to maintain a pre-orgasmic state for the duration of most sexual experiences as that state has the most pleasure and best performance.*
Erections are occasionally difficult to achieve, weak, and stimulation is sometimes barely pleasureable. These symptoms are almost always present when with a partner, but occasionally present when alone. Confirmed ways to cause the issues in myself is ejaculating more often then my bodies ability to recover, bad weeks or months where for some reason erectile response is poor, or anxiety issues. Usually, once a pre-orgasmic state is achieved, erections tend to be very strong, and pleasure is good until stimulation ceases or orgasm occurs. Maintaining this pre orgasmic state is called edging. Erections begin to subside too quickly after stimulation is ceased or orgasm occurs, creating a constant fear of easily losing an erection. Being relaxed and in a pre orgasmic state helps this issue to some extent as erections are stronger and do not subside as easily although still easier then they should.
Key Notes:
Erections are often difficult to maintain without constant stimulation or kegels until entering the pre-orgasmic state
Sexual sensitivity is often poor until a pre-orgasmic state is achieved and varies greatly from day to day, and time to time
When spontaneous erections occur maintaining an erection isnt too difficult at first, but after several minutes it becomes very hard or impossible if I am not experiencing pleasure through either touch or swinging the penis and kegeling, and it feels as if some sort of "burnout has occurred". This burnout is avoided if sexual pleasure is good and/or a pre orgasmic state is maintained or achieved.
Performance anxiety greatly compounds upon the physiological issues but is not the root cause of the suboptimal baseline erectile performance. However, if there is no anxiety then the physical symptoms are generally not enough to prevent a positive sexual experience or intercourse.
One possible physiological cause of "weak or hard to maintain" erections is from trying to enlarge the penis using various techniques including stretching and pumps between age 15-17. This may have permanently damaged the erectile tissue to a minor or moderate degree although I am not certain.
Became aware of "weak or hard to maintain" erections at about age 17. Assumed it was from the enlargement techniques and pumping I did in my mid teens and went into depression until discovering in my early 20s that refraining from ejaculating to less then 3 times per week significantly improved erectile response. This may be related to prolactin levels which shoot up far too high post orgasm, which also explains my long refractory period
Degree of erectile dysfunction varies greatly from day to day and month to month, sometimes severe and sometimes mild or nonexistant
Masturbation is typically either free of erectile dysfunction, or very mild erectile dysfunction in the form of easily losing the erection if manual stimulation ceases. The level of ED experienced when alone is highly correlated with the amount of orgasms I have per week. 1-2 orgasms per week causes no ED, 2-4 orgasms per week causes none to mild ED, 4-7 orgasms per week causes mild ED, and more then 7 orgasms per week potentially causes moderate ED in the form of weaker erections and less pleasure. The usual lack of ED when alone is due to constant stimulation, lack of anxiety, erotic images, and being able to stay in a pre-orgasmic state for an extended period of time. Moderate or severe erectile dysfunction during masturbation is rare and tends to only occur when overdoing masturbation faster then my body can recover, for example 5+ orgasms per week or during specific weeks/months where my sexual response feels impaired.
My recovery period from orgasm is significantly longer then most men, and has been this way my whole life. This suggests high levels of prolactin, specifically after orgasm. I also become very emotional and anxiety prone post orgasm. Minimum recovery time post orgasm for me is about 1 to 4 hours however my sexual response and erectile performance often remains compromised for up to 8 hours. This highly suggests to me an overabundance of prolactin being released post orgasm. When on a PDE5 inhibitor I can recover from orgasm and perform significantly better and faster.
Sexual performance has remained relatively consistant from ages 17-30 with fluctions in libido and performance from day to day, week to week, and month to month. No age based degradation of sexual performance has been observed however keep in mind that the effects of real sex were not observed until age 25 when I lost my virginity under the effects of Viagra.*
Of particular note is that I discovered the ability to maximize sexual pleasure around the time I was 20 by abstaining for an entire week, staying up as late as possible on the 7th day until I am barely awake, and then masturbating with baby oil. Under these conditions I am able to maintain a pre-orgasmic state for over an hour (as long as I want but I start getting blue balls after about 2 hours), with extreme pleasure, and an extremely strong erection for the entire time. This led me to discover that masturbating less frequently improved my sexual and erectile response and pleasure. Once I discovered this I began limiting my orgasms to only once or twice per week, and assumed I had cured my erectile dysfunction until I realized that most real life women demand sex much more often than once per week.
At around age 25, when I first lost my virginity with a real woman, and after experimenting with alcohol, viagra, cialis, and caffeine I had discovered that my sexual sensitivity was often extremely poor when with a real person, and occasionally when by myself. I have still not determined whether the cause of this is one of the substances above, or the severe anxiety I tend to have when with a real person but the sensitivity issue did not become apparent to me until age 25 (which is when i first tried alcohol and pde5 inhibitors). This lack of sensitivity also manifests itself during masturbation, and so appears to be more then just anxiety. Usually the sensitivity situation can be reversed by 7-14 days abstinence where my system "resets" although I usually feel very asexual between day 3-7. Several days of consistant once daily orgasm also seems to bring back the sensitivity, as does completely refraining from alcohol and cialis/viagra or other substances.
The quality of my orgasms, and experience of sex greatly influences my mood and how I feel for up to a week after an orgasm. If I orgasm while anxious I am left feeling horrible for several days and this only appears to be corrected once I experience a "pleasureable" orgasm. If I orgasm during extreme pleasure, the opposite is true and I remain happy for several days. I have never had a pleasureable orgasm with a real life woman. The impact of sex upon my life and how I feel is tremendous.
I want to get a blood test for the following things. Feel free to make suggestions.
testosterone (free and total)
leutenizing hormone
estrogen
prolactin
thyroid
PSA
FSH
TSH*
T4
I will post my blood test results as soon as I get them. I am tired of hypothesizing whats wrong with me and its time for some answers. I would love to hear thoughts and suggestions.