Rektest - Death is available log

Despite you deleting the post you made, earlier, which some have responded to, I would also like to reply, since Mr Rek has appointed me as the office assistant.

I got to know you a little: you are very charming but also a bit mercurial, so things can get unsettled, suddenly.

It's cute you once described yourself as being like a "butterfly".
I kind of connected the two things.
Whether it's to do with personality, only, or also with what you take, idk.

What I do know, though, goes back to the second thing I have written on your log: sometimes, when things go south, liking a bit of attention.
Fair enough; I have found it endearing, mostly.
As long as it is not weaponised to hurt yourself and other people that may gravitate around it all, that is.

Making a mountain out of a molehill + little tantrums can help have one's way.
I have to say that, in reality, this may eventually be seen for what it is and push people away.
You have lamented, here, about feeling abandoned, about people not staying the course.
We have always being very candid in our interactions, so you know that this is my honest opinion.
And you also know that you are a sweet, cheeky rascal with whom it is hard to be annoyed (mostly, lol).

I wish for you that a little more thoughtfulness shall come your way, together with the body you want.

May whichever rules you have set yourself (see post above mine) serve you right, keep you happy and on the upward trend you are riding.
The friendship and affection some of us on Meso have extended to you shall continue, if mutual respect and appreciation are in place.

Out there, you cannot delete things and words you say as easily as you do here, without all the real consequences the turbulence around you would bring along.
 
Im not sure if I see a difference from the last pictures, but this morning I was happy, Im not finished yet but last few days at the gym I look fucking crazy..

I am praying, wishful thinking, the lower stomach is still fat and not loose skin.

I am going to be a straight fucking menace on the bulk.
I have been thinking a little 240 might be too much for my height, but who knows. I want a built V taper.

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Its a very Poppy day, a woman's embrace with death metal, its like being in her kitty while she chokes you, ~bliss~





~ j'aime tes lèvres~
Well in your way to cockbody status. Great work. Doin it right brotha
 
guess ill re-add just the picture from the deleted post, as its current.
I think insulin would be crazy, but my office assistant slammed the book down no on that one. Most certainly for the better, with my behavior characteristics.
@PaintDrinker I never got to your message but Ive never pulled bloods on cycle, only ever when I go back down to my trt and get bloods for that, which they are always perfect and my endo even told me i could “handle alot of testosterone” when we were talking about my hdl and ldl (If i got those correct)

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guess ill re-add just the picture from the deleted post, as its current.
I think insulin would be crazy, but my office assistant slammed the book down no on that one. Most certainly for the better, with my behavior characteristics.
@PaintDrinker I never got to your message but Ive never pulled bloods on cycle, only ever when I go back down to my trt and get bloods for that, which they are always perfect and my endo even told me i could “handle alot of testosterone” when we were talking about my hdl and ldl (If i got those correct)

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The amount of progress you've made this fast is incredible man. What are you currently running? Shoulders are starting to pop, confidence should be increasing bare minimum. Abs are pushing through.

Not going to lie when I first read through your log with no pictures I thought this is gay as shit. I have not only changed that opinion entirely, but I fuck with you heavy. Absolutely killing it brotha
 
The amount of progress you've made this fast is incredible man. What are you currently running? Shoulders are starting to pop, confidence should be increasing bare minimum. Abs are pushing through.

Not going to lie when I first read through your log with no pictures I thought this is gay as shit. I have not only changed that opinion entirely, but I fuck with you heavy. Absolutely killing it brotha
Confidence takes a while to build back up, I am in a better place than when I started but not there yet
I was fat for so long it gave me doubts, those doubts are still there.

I am running
500 test c
1 vial of hgh daily (back down after trying two a day)
20mg tirz
T4 (take for low thyroid, wouldnt mess with it other wise)

I really appreciate that brother.
Really do.

January/feb needs to just come quicker, so then I can start filling out.
I havent weighed myself in quite some time, but I am definitely under victim weight lol
 
I think insulin would be crazy, but my office assistant slammed the book down no on that one.

That office assistant of yours seems to be getting the blame for so many things, huh?
So today it's the no insulin policy.

I am pretty sure that the individual in question has told PaintDrinker that she wishes all the best for you, and left it at that.

That is because she knows things will change, of course they will, and you may end up going down that route (or God knows what else).
I am not sure she would be prepared to bet you wouldn't.
I think she shall soon be relieved of her duties, anyway.
Ai does everything, nowadays.
 
That office assistant of yours seems to be getting the blame for so many things, huh?
So today it's the no insulin policy.

I am pretty sure that the individual in question has told PaintDrinker that she wishes all the best for you, and left it at that.

That is because she knows things will change, of course they will, and you may end up going down that route (or God knows what else).
I am not sure she would be prepared to bet you wouldn't.
I think she shall soon be relieved of her duties, anyway.
Ai does everything, nowadays.
What else do i pay her for besides policy making? Obviously its because her brain is bigger than mine
Rule #2: always hire people smarter than you
60% of the time it works everytime


I might have to mail my assistant and remind her of the legal docs.
Give me a second.

~ par la présente, vous acceptez sans réserves ni limitations de quelque nature que ce soit, ce que dit Iris est juridiquement contraignant et définitif.~
 
Rule #1: you may not like it at the moment, but it will always serve you well. Godspeed on your journey.
 
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