I've had a hard time to say the least...I know many of you have responded negatively to my post because I mentioned suicidal thoughts, but it's difficult to live with what I'm dealing with daily. I'm trying to see if I can stimulate my testicles to function again after a very stupid and dangerous run of test and tren for 3 yrs...
I've been under a well know Dr. here and he suggested I do 2000 ius of hcg e3d for 7 shots and get then test TT....when I came off the 3 yr run my test levels went down to 69....I stopped cold turkey and had the blood test done about 4 months after I stopped...I then waited to see, a urologist suggested I wait, if test levels would elevate on their own...they never did as I tested a couple more times and never got over 100ng. I then tried trt for a couple of months, but it sacked and quite frankly I don't think I'll get right on it and don't want to live on it. So, I started this hpta restoration attempt...keep in mind too, I'm 42 yrs old...but I'm trying to keep hope alive. I got tested on trt and my test levels were only 590....so I stopped for 2 weeks and started the hcg shots alone, nothing else...2000 ius for 7 shots over 21 days. TT was 203ng....free test was in middle range. I notified Dr because we were hoping TT would've been higher so we could then start Clomid and Tamoxifen....but now he has suggested to do another 30 days and test again....will this kill my testicles....is this safe to do, or should I incorporate some tamoxifen while doing the next 30 days. I just don't want to desensitize my testicles further...haven't had any libido in almost a year...cardiovascular issues have made noticeable changes to my male organ...just ready for this nightmare to be over...
I've been under a well know Dr. here and he suggested I do 2000 ius of hcg e3d for 7 shots and get then test TT....when I came off the 3 yr run my test levels went down to 69....I stopped cold turkey and had the blood test done about 4 months after I stopped...I then waited to see, a urologist suggested I wait, if test levels would elevate on their own...they never did as I tested a couple more times and never got over 100ng. I then tried trt for a couple of months, but it sacked and quite frankly I don't think I'll get right on it and don't want to live on it. So, I started this hpta restoration attempt...keep in mind too, I'm 42 yrs old...but I'm trying to keep hope alive. I got tested on trt and my test levels were only 590....so I stopped for 2 weeks and started the hcg shots alone, nothing else...2000 ius for 7 shots over 21 days. TT was 203ng....free test was in middle range. I notified Dr because we were hoping TT would've been higher so we could then start Clomid and Tamoxifen....but now he has suggested to do another 30 days and test again....will this kill my testicles....is this safe to do, or should I incorporate some tamoxifen while doing the next 30 days. I just don't want to desensitize my testicles further...haven't had any libido in almost a year...cardiovascular issues have made noticeable changes to my male organ...just ready for this nightmare to be over...
