CFIG, I could say this to you via chat or message, but I prefer to post it as I believe other members in a situation similar to yours might benefit from it - whether that be currently or in the future.
As CFIG has alluded to in his post, yes, he and I talked through some of the issues we previously had. I'll give you credit for reaching out to me and manning up and apologizing for some things, and even for thanking me for my honesty on the board in the past, albeit hostile towards you at times. As anybody who knows me here knows, I am a very forgiving dude. I believe in 2nd chances. I don't hold grudges. I don't take myself too seriously. CFIG and I went at it pretty good, he offered what I believed was a sincere apology, and we move on.
But that's just me! And not every member is that way, nor should every member be that way. Some folks have different ways of dealing with things like this. Some members approach is more along the lines of "you're gonna have to show me over time", which is understandable and still fair.
My point to you CFIG, and to any other member getting off to a bad start here, is simply that it is admirable to admit you were wrong, ask for forgiveness, and start being the kind of member you want to be, instead of what you were. But the forgiveness - and the pace at which other members are going to accept that you really have changed - is in their hands.
The best thing you can do if you're sincere about having a different relationship with the board is accept that some members don't forgive so easy, some want to see it happen first, and not be hostile or combative with the non-believers.
YOU put yourself in this position through YOUR past behavior here. Now YOU must be a different YOU than YOU have been if YOU want to have a better relationship with the fellas here.
But it's up to YOU! When someone tests you and gives you a hard time, you gotta be above it.
@DedLift has been a solid member here and a good dude. Going back at him might have felt good for a few minutes, but it just causes some members to say "same old CFIG", which is not what you want.
Good luck, my friend, hit me up if you need to.