little background about me. I’m 23. Graduated college last year. Work my balls off. Make fantastic money. Just bought my dream car. Really genuine and good guy. I wake up go to work and come home and saw my girlfriend and went to the gym. Went on dates. Got her nice things. She’s still in college so not a lot of money considering what I do she lives a pretty awesome life for being in college. I’m making 100k+ right now so we live a pretty fucking good life considering our age and situation. I’m going back to school for my nurse anesthetist license here in a year or so. I’m not some fuck around loser. I’m successful and strive to be better and a solid man.
She ends up fucking some 21 year old ghetto fuck college kid. I worked my ass off for the last 3 years for this girl. I really did love her and cared for her. I never thought I’d want a family and kids but she changed that in me. I really enjoyed every moment. I was just happy.
I bought a absolutely gorgeous rose gold 2.5 karat diamond ring and plane tickets to Hawaii with helicopter rides and everything for New Years as a congrats for graduating.
our relationship wasn’t perfect. But we were happy and best friends. We did everything together. But I don’t understand how the fuck you can Throw away years of your life with someone who was supporting you through EVERYTHING.
I’m genuinely so mad at the world. Everything I have been working towards this last year was just thrown in my face and I feel like a dumb fuck. I can’t focus on anything and don’t give a fuck about anything. I’ve suffered from depression my entire life and she helped me alot through it all. Even when I had no direction. I just don’t understand. I’m not sure what to do. Everything I’ve been doing I just hate now. No focus what so ever…
It looks like this thread was started a while ago, so I'm sorry for the delay, but I only see this now as it was recently posted about. I can't say I've read through all 7 pages, just the first and last one. But based on your original post this is what I'm seeing.
1. Maybe it's because you are in your early 20s, but do you base "good life" by the amount of money you make? If so, then you have lots to learn.
2. What is concerning to me is that you are prone to depression. Whatever happened to you in general is relatively devastating to most people. However, strong mind people will be able to move on. However, being depressed and in your early 20s gives you a different understanding of the situation. You mention not being able to focus twice and hateing everything you are doing.
I'm curious about what you are planning on doing with respect to your paragraph 3. Can you return the ring and tickets to Hawaii? I'm not a psychologist, but the fact that you get a decent paying job makes you buy a dream car (before you even worked that long) and tickets to Hawaii and expensive jewelry, makes me think that you are not simply depressed, but possibly bipolar.
How did you find out about her sexcapades with Felipe Esparza? Did she tell you because she felt guilty? Did you find out elsewhere? If it's the first, thank her for telling you and leave her. If it's the second then just leave her. But make sure that this infidelity did really happen.
Reading over this post, I can see how it may be perceived that I'm coming off as a dick. But my thoughts are coming from a good place. I hope you understand.
