Worried about post cycle bloods - HELP

[Peppan571]

I've got to ask this and I hope somebody can tell me because I cannot really find it on google. I have very bad motivation these days, I am depressed and demotivated (maybe because of low test?) but I am wondering if occasional amphetamine use would stop or slow down my recovery? I know it raises cortisol but I cannot find an answer to if occasional use is fine? I am on a cutting diet right now because I am afraid that if I bulk I will only gain abdominal fat and not much muscle since I am low on test, I am already way chunky! Thanks in advance guys.