And I am kinda ashamed to say it now, cause its my MO to not hold back around here. But I was scared shitless when I first got the news.
About one month ago I did some standard blood work with doc. CBC was the one that fuked my head up bad and liver counts to be precise. I am no doc and will explain as best I can and for review of docs here (or anyone knowledgeable). I have the labs now, but still cant even handle the info to look yet. I saw briefly and here is the lowdown. On basic CBC liver counts ALT and AST were like 150 and 180. Yes the ones with ref ranges 40-60.. So I was LIKE HOLY SHIT ...! I've finally taken myself out with all my substance hijinks - RIGHT..? Doc assured me in some calming manner that since the other liver readings were normal, that it was most likely temporary if I straitened up. I was like OK, so you are telling me shit is bad, I probably won't change my life, and FYI your end is nearing. I was scared cause I knew I would not/could not. So get a load of this...!
I went back in yesterday for another issue. I was not planning to do lab work yesterday cause of other issue, and we had agreed to wait a little longer before re-addressing liver. But on the way down there I had what I consider an "outer box epiphany". I decided to talk him into doing Bloodz EVEN THOUGH I WAS NOT FASTED. Cause I was thinking that well, if my liver counts were shit a month ago, and I have not changed a thing, then this should be a fucking freak show when these numbers come back right?? LOL - YOU know ME.. LOL Well, the long and short is that I did the liver panel again yesterday, and he just told me my numbers are now "NORMAL RANGE". Yea you heard me...
Now - Here's the kicker, and two reasons that may have skewed ALT & AST falsely low...:
1) I am wondering if this liver supp is somehow skewing the numbers falsely low. On that, note that while I took it religiously for like 20 days or so, I ran out a week ago. I have been taking SAM-e for the first time ever for about 3 days now - FYI and not the supp I am focusing on here.
2) And get this. I drank a beer in the parking lot prior to going into office yesterday. Lots of fucking laughing here I can see yur faces now as you read. So not only did I not really change my habits all that much, I actually iced the cake immediately prior to labs...! At least I thought..
So I am actually thinking that either these liver supps are giving false readings, or have a been in my 30 mins before drawing blood has given me a "false good indication" so to speak. So I am not over confident.
And to give a little more history. When I first met my doc, I did not know him. This was 10 years ago. But I was already "leaving the box" so to speak at that time - I just did not know it. And on that first meet, just to get a rise out of him and to "test him" to see how we gell'd, I kept a dip of copenhagen in my mouth for that fateful first encounter (European upper lip) and when he was looking in my mouth I dragged it down to let him see I had been hiding it and to fuk with his head to see how he responded. LOL When I did this back then, his response was only "so what brand is that, I prefer copenhagen" - I laughed and advised that it WAS copenhagen.... The rest is history... And now while I thought yesterday to top myself off at a new all time high that I would put that beer in an open cup and walk into to the hospital practice with it and carry into office - I realized that it would have no value to him as he would be expecting it, and that it would only get me negative attention from others who I DONT KNOW or trust. Hence the reason for drinking in parking lot. LOL
Back on the liver for a last second. From my physical standpoint in my "anecdotal world" that some of you around here appear to despise so much, my current self analysis is as follows. While I have realized that I am not in touch with my body as well as I used to be, and BECAUSE of drugs and alcohol, I now KNOW that my own thoughts can not be trusted. But the breakdown is as follows. Upon about the first two days of initiating this liver supp back a month ago, I FELT my liver swelling go down immediately subsiding from a physical TOUCH standpoint. Also whatever "General feelings" I was having that prompted me to go in a month ago, were immediately subsiding with the initiation of this supp.. Like I said - I did not change habits, but still only knew I needed to. So I was kinda thinking well shit, the reduction in liver size and feeling better could not possibly correlate with an improvement in liver function this fast. NO FUCKING WAY right?? And its very hard to be the judge of one's self THIS I KNOW NOW. I will also add that yesterday, he actually put me up on the "dreaded table" to feel my liver. I did not even realize what he had done sneaking this in on me, until I was in the car leaving... LOL But once I had left, I already had realize a calm coming over my mind that my liver was indeed again "normal", and just from the reconciliation in my mind about the "feel" he just got in the exam room... So I knew. It was only 30 minutes ago that he advised me liver counts were normal. So how do all the "technical anecdote hate'N experts" around here feel about this?? And I am not taunting either. I want to know..! Please give me some feedback now...
Cause I know enough about this world to KNOW to knock on wood alwayz. I also know that EVEN if the liver reads are correct, and my liver is now indeed fine and even being protected by this supp, that just the same I could get hit by a car tomorrow, or diagnosed with cancer next month.. LOL But I KNOW Fate is FATE. And DESTINY - It is a BITCH...!




*** And NO - I have not sold out. I am NOT a paid Sponser and never will be. Should I ever for some reason I can not foresee become one, you can be ASSURED you will here is first here @ MESO...! LOL, but that whole statement and acknowledgement is such a crazy set up I almost can't believe what I just wrote. LOL. But its all true I swear it on my grave whenever that may come...
About one month ago I did some standard blood work with doc. CBC was the one that fuked my head up bad and liver counts to be precise. I am no doc and will explain as best I can and for review of docs here (or anyone knowledgeable). I have the labs now, but still cant even handle the info to look yet. I saw briefly and here is the lowdown. On basic CBC liver counts ALT and AST were like 150 and 180. Yes the ones with ref ranges 40-60.. So I was LIKE HOLY SHIT ...! I've finally taken myself out with all my substance hijinks - RIGHT..? Doc assured me in some calming manner that since the other liver readings were normal, that it was most likely temporary if I straitened up. I was like OK, so you are telling me shit is bad, I probably won't change my life, and FYI your end is nearing. I was scared cause I knew I would not/could not. So get a load of this...!
I went back in yesterday for another issue. I was not planning to do lab work yesterday cause of other issue, and we had agreed to wait a little longer before re-addressing liver. But on the way down there I had what I consider an "outer box epiphany". I decided to talk him into doing Bloodz EVEN THOUGH I WAS NOT FASTED. Cause I was thinking that well, if my liver counts were shit a month ago, and I have not changed a thing, then this should be a fucking freak show when these numbers come back right?? LOL - YOU know ME.. LOL Well, the long and short is that I did the liver panel again yesterday, and he just told me my numbers are now "NORMAL RANGE". Yea you heard me...
Now - Here's the kicker, and two reasons that may have skewed ALT & AST falsely low...:
1) I am wondering if this liver supp is somehow skewing the numbers falsely low. On that, note that while I took it religiously for like 20 days or so, I ran out a week ago. I have been taking SAM-e for the first time ever for about 3 days now - FYI and not the supp I am focusing on here.
2) And get this. I drank a beer in the parking lot prior to going into office yesterday. Lots of fucking laughing here I can see yur faces now as you read. So not only did I not really change my habits all that much, I actually iced the cake immediately prior to labs...! At least I thought..
So I am actually thinking that either these liver supps are giving false readings, or have a been in my 30 mins before drawing blood has given me a "false good indication" so to speak. So I am not over confident.
And to give a little more history. When I first met my doc, I did not know him. This was 10 years ago. But I was already "leaving the box" so to speak at that time - I just did not know it. And on that first meet, just to get a rise out of him and to "test him" to see how we gell'd, I kept a dip of copenhagen in my mouth for that fateful first encounter (European upper lip) and when he was looking in my mouth I dragged it down to let him see I had been hiding it and to fuk with his head to see how he responded. LOL When I did this back then, his response was only "so what brand is that, I prefer copenhagen" - I laughed and advised that it WAS copenhagen.... The rest is history... And now while I thought yesterday to top myself off at a new all time high that I would put that beer in an open cup and walk into to the hospital practice with it and carry into office - I realized that it would have no value to him as he would be expecting it, and that it would only get me negative attention from others who I DONT KNOW or trust. Hence the reason for drinking in parking lot. LOL
Back on the liver for a last second. From my physical standpoint in my "anecdotal world" that some of you around here appear to despise so much, my current self analysis is as follows. While I have realized that I am not in touch with my body as well as I used to be, and BECAUSE of drugs and alcohol, I now KNOW that my own thoughts can not be trusted. But the breakdown is as follows. Upon about the first two days of initiating this liver supp back a month ago, I FELT my liver swelling go down immediately subsiding from a physical TOUCH standpoint. Also whatever "General feelings" I was having that prompted me to go in a month ago, were immediately subsiding with the initiation of this supp.. Like I said - I did not change habits, but still only knew I needed to. So I was kinda thinking well shit, the reduction in liver size and feeling better could not possibly correlate with an improvement in liver function this fast. NO FUCKING WAY right?? And its very hard to be the judge of one's self THIS I KNOW NOW. I will also add that yesterday, he actually put me up on the "dreaded table" to feel my liver. I did not even realize what he had done sneaking this in on me, until I was in the car leaving... LOL But once I had left, I already had realize a calm coming over my mind that my liver was indeed again "normal", and just from the reconciliation in my mind about the "feel" he just got in the exam room... So I knew. It was only 30 minutes ago that he advised me liver counts were normal. So how do all the "technical anecdote hate'N experts" around here feel about this?? And I am not taunting either. I want to know..! Please give me some feedback now...
*** And NO - I have not sold out. I am NOT a paid Sponser and never will be. Should I ever for some reason I can not foresee become one, you can be ASSURED you will here is first here @ MESO...! LOL, but that whole statement and acknowledgement is such a crazy set up I almost can't believe what I just wrote. LOL. But its all true I swear it on my grave whenever that may come...
