I’m so interested in mdma, lsd ect. I just want to sit in a room and let go of it all.
just some general comments using yours and others posts...
I have experience with both. but more with lsd and shrooms.
when you say "let go of it all", I imagine your looking for some kind of "profound" experience. I'm thinking "classical hallucinogens"... lsd, psilocybin, dmt, mescaline...
if your really for looking for other peoples experience, go to a drugs-forum.com or an erowid. youll get a better representation.
as far as "its not all its cracked up to be", its cracked up to be as much as you want it. it might be like some peoples first cycle, underwhelming. because some people, at certain times are not ready for more. but eventually... you hit that spot. especially if you keep searching.
drugs wont necessarily give you a "higher state of consciousness", but you might just see the world in a way you never have before. and it might allow you to put "yourself" in an outside observer position. I think that's a good thing. as for "cooking brain cells in a chemical bonfire"... no, I never bought into it.
shrooms= enhanced pot, no. dose dependent, maybe..
drugs are in fact drugs, and do take them for what they are. no, you will not become a genius. no, you will not now know the "secrets" of the universe. but given such a profound change in "consciousness" you will learn something worthwhile. or at least, I hope you would. otherwise.... just look at the pretty colors.
ps if you don't have a contact for these things I would NOT suggest you go looking for one. psilocybin spores are legal, shrooms are easy to grow. certain plants containing dmt are readily available. so are certain cacti for mescaline.