MDMA

You’ve watched to many after school specials.

HAHAHHA damn you are 1000% right lmao
I have no clue about recreational drugs.
I did speed once because "alcohol is bad for lifting" and didnt experience much except for incredible heart racing and a half an inch dick
 
If only legit MDMA was still available. I have only done it a couple times, in the early 90's and had a blast. Would do it again in a heartbeat if I could find some
 
I just got into meditation last week. Also was listening to a podcast on “iowaska” I’m sure it’s spelled wrong. Aka dmt. They talked about it helping rid yourself of being so macho/self centered.
After every type of mainstream rehab and one Faith based(Buddhism) jobber in Thailand my ex-wife and I were at our wits end. Our daughter was living on borrowed time and i was resigned on having to bury my beautiful girl in short order. Then a friend asked if I had considered ibogaine. I remembered hearing about it and the success people were having in treating opiate addiction. Heroin was going to kill my kid. I had to do something.
The same friend was a vendor on the Deep Web markets. He said there was a source out of Brazil that had ibogaine on his list. I sent him $1100 for 5 grams and he took care of the bitcoin transfer etc. A couple of weeks went by and we were losing our grip on our girl once again. We were all hopeful when we first ordered the stuff. My ex had a nurse ready to go and watch vital signs etc.
We got to talking about how we were going to administer the ibogain? What amounts? Was re-dosing involved? I wasn't sure we were up to the task.
We started looking into Clinics. Ibogain and other drugs I started hearing about are Schedule 1 here in the States so clinics were going to either be North or to our South. After a month and tracking not giving me a clue we decided to check her into a Ibogaine Clinic in Rosarita, Mexico a friend had told me about. We got in touch with someone from the Clinic who was extremely helpful and understanding.
The plan was in 2 days from the day of our conversation, my ex was going to drive with our daughter down to the border and meet an agent from the Clinic who would show them where they could safely park and leave their car on the US side for most of the day. MY ex and daughter would then be driven to the clinic in Rosarita. My ex would check things out and pay for the 32 days..give or take, that she would be staying. The cost was a very reasonable $12, 500(give or take) which was all inclusive.
We just had to get through the next 2 days. I had purchased Suboxone strips from a guy I knew and had been giving her pieces of the (10ct)8mg strips I had for her. I was told to stop giving her the Subs immediately. I was told it was either the Bupenephrine or the Nalaxone(the likely culprit) took a very long time to clear her system and treatment couldn't begin until it had.
They suggested that we keep her well by giving her high doses of Oxycodone. They told me they would be giving her 30mg Oxycodone upon her arrival to their clinic at would keep her on Oxy up until treatment commenced. She would be having her vitals checked every 45 minutes or so during this time to ensure she was Ok.
I had become my daughters dealer those last few days leading up to treatment time. I didn't like it and didn't want to do it. I picked up (15ct)30mg IR Oxy and handed started feeding them to her every 4 to 6 hrs.
When the time came for the 2 to head to the border, I was completely spent. Numb. I always feel a little guilty about the relief I feel when I know she is in a facility and relatively safe and away from the world. I rest much easier knowing the phone isn't going to ring with news I felt helpless to do anything about. I was sure one of the next phone calls was going to be news of her passing the entire year leading up to treatment.
I spoke with Caitlin many times during her month long stay in Mexico. She was allowed to have her cell phone on her most of the time. The treatments consisted of Ibogaine, DMT, and Ayahuasca. The Ibogaine didn't agree with her and made her too ill(puking) to get much out of it. The DMT and Ayahuasca, however, were life altering.
After returning from her month in Mexico she has had one fall back or relapse. She has been back going on 8 months now. She has a full time job and is healthy. She's coming over to see me tonight. She lives with her Mon about 5 minutes from me here in the Desert of Southern California. Before Mexico she was so far from being able to hold a job of any kind. She looked so different than she does today. She has that light back in her eyes. She laughs the infectious laugh that filled our home for so many years when she was growing up. The year before Mexico i cannot think of a time that laughter was appropriate and the girl she had become didn't laugh.
My ex has a house here in Palm Springs and recently bought a ranch in Joshua Tree. Once a month my daughter participates in Ceremonies that happen up in Joshua Tree and is given Ayauasca by a Shaman and recharges her soul. The $300 is worth every penny. She even paid for half of the cost the last 2 months. She's 22 and with any luck, she won't have any issue seeing 23, 24, and beyond. I'm grateful to those folks in Mexico and am grateful that my baby is smiling today. Take care.

*****I made the above post 3 months ago on another board. I can report that my daughter is still alive and off the needle. She is going to school and working....living her life. She just celebrated her 23rd birthday last month.
She's headed up to Joshua Tree this weekend to "recharge" with a guide and some other like minded folks who will all partake in DMT and Ayahuasca. $300 is a bargain for what these substances have helped us achieve. She has her life back and I have my daughter back. Life is good.
 
After every type of mainstream rehab and one Faith based(Buddhism) jobber in Thailand my ex-wife and I were at our wits end. Our daughter was living on borrowed time and i was resigned on having to bury my beautiful girl in short order. Then a friend asked if I had considered ibogaine. I remembered hearing about it and the success people were having in treating opiate addiction. Heroin was going to kill my kid. I had to do something.
The same friend was a vendor on the Deep Web markets. He said there was a source out of Brazil that had ibogaine on his list. I sent him $1100 for 5 grams and he took care of the bitcoin transfer etc. A couple of weeks went by and we were losing our grip on our girl once again. We were all hopeful when we first ordered the stuff. My ex had a nurse ready to go and watch vital signs etc.
We got to talking about how we were going to administer the ibogain? What amounts? Was re-dosing involved? I wasn't sure we were up to the task.
We started looking into Clinics. Ibogain and other drugs I started hearing about are Schedule 1 here in the States so clinics were going to either be North or to our South. After a month and tracking not giving me a clue we decided to check her into a Ibogaine Clinic in Rosarita, Mexico a friend had told me about. We got in touch with someone from the Clinic who was extremely helpful and understanding.
The plan was in 2 days from the day of our conversation, my ex was going to drive with our daughter down to the border and meet an agent from the Clinic who would show them where they could safely park and leave their car on the US side for most of the day. MY ex and daughter would then be driven to the clinic in Rosarita. My ex would check things out and pay for the 32 days..give or take, that she would be staying. The cost was a very reasonable $12, 500(give or take) which was all inclusive.
We just had to get through the next 2 days. I had purchased Suboxone strips from a guy I knew and had been giving her pieces of the (10ct)8mg strips I had for her. I was told to stop giving her the Subs immediately. I was told it was either the Bupenephrine or the Nalaxone(the likely culprit) took a very long time to clear her system and treatment couldn't begin until it had.
They suggested that we keep her well by giving her high doses of Oxycodone. They told me they would be giving her 30mg Oxycodone upon her arrival to their clinic at would keep her on Oxy up until treatment commenced. She would be having her vitals checked every 45 minutes or so during this time to ensure she was Ok.
I had become my daughters dealer those last few days leading up to treatment time. I didn't like it and didn't want to do it. I picked up (15ct)30mg IR Oxy and handed started feeding them to her every 4 to 6 hrs.
When the time came for the 2 to head to the border, I was completely spent. Numb. I always feel a little guilty about the relief I feel when I know she is in a facility and relatively safe and away from the world. I rest much easier knowing the phone isn't going to ring with news I felt helpless to do anything about. I was sure one of the next phone calls was going to be news of her passing the entire year leading up to treatment.
I spoke with Caitlin many times during her month long stay in Mexico. She was allowed to have her cell phone on her most of the time. The treatments consisted of Ibogaine, DMT, and Ayahuasca. The Ibogaine didn't agree with her and made her too ill(puking) to get much out of it. The DMT and Ayahuasca, however, were life altering.
After returning from her month in Mexico she has had one fall back or relapse. She has been back going on 8 months now. She has a full time job and is healthy. She's coming over to see me tonight. She lives with her Mon about 5 minutes from me here in the Desert of Southern California. Before Mexico she was so far from being able to hold a job of any kind. She looked so different than she does today. She has that light back in her eyes. She laughs the infectious laugh that filled our home for so many years when she was growing up. The year before Mexico i cannot think of a time that laughter was appropriate and the girl she had become didn't laugh.
My ex has a house here in Palm Springs and recently bought a ranch in Joshua Tree. Once a month my daughter participates in Ceremonies that happen up in Joshua Tree and is given Ayauasca by a Shaman and recharges her soul. The $300 is worth every penny. She even paid for half of the cost the last 2 months. She's 22 and with any luck, she won't have any issue seeing 23, 24, and beyond. I'm grateful to those folks in Mexico and am grateful that my baby is smiling today. Take care.

*****I made the above post 3 months ago on another board. I can report that my daughter is still alive and off the needle. She is going to school and working....living her life. She just celebrated her 23rd birthday last month.
She's headed up to Joshua Tree this weekend to "recharge" with a guide and some other like minded folks who will all partake in DMT and Ayahuasca. $300 is a bargain for what these substances have helped us achieve. She has her life back and I have my daughter back. Life is good.
Glad you have your daughter back healthy bud.
 
After every type of mainstream rehab and one Faith based(Buddhism) jobber in Thailand my ex-wife and I were at our wits end. Our daughter was living on borrowed time and i was resigned on having to bury my beautiful girl in short order. Then a friend asked if I had considered ibogaine. I remembered hearing about it and the success people were having in treating opiate addiction. Heroin was going to kill my kid. I had to do something.
The same friend was a vendor on the Deep Web markets. He said there was a source out of Brazil that had ibogaine on his list. I sent him $1100 for 5 grams and he took care of the bitcoin transfer etc. A couple of weeks went by and we were losing our grip on our girl once again. We were all hopeful when we first ordered the stuff. My ex had a nurse ready to go and watch vital signs etc.
We got to talking about how we were going to administer the ibogain? What amounts? Was re-dosing involved? I wasn't sure we were up to the task.
We started looking into Clinics. Ibogain and other drugs I started hearing about are Schedule 1 here in the States so clinics were going to either be North or to our South. After a month and tracking not giving me a clue we decided to check her into a Ibogaine Clinic in Rosarita, Mexico a friend had told me about. We got in touch with someone from the Clinic who was extremely helpful and understanding.
The plan was in 2 days from the day of our conversation, my ex was going to drive with our daughter down to the border and meet an agent from the Clinic who would show them where they could safely park and leave their car on the US side for most of the day. MY ex and daughter would then be driven to the clinic in Rosarita. My ex would check things out and pay for the 32 days..give or take, that she would be staying. The cost was a very reasonable $12, 500(give or take) which was all inclusive.
We just had to get through the next 2 days. I had purchased Suboxone strips from a guy I knew and had been giving her pieces of the (10ct)8mg strips I had for her. I was told to stop giving her the Subs immediately. I was told it was either the Bupenephrine or the Nalaxone(the likely culprit) took a very long time to clear her system and treatment couldn't begin until it had.
They suggested that we keep her well by giving her high doses of Oxycodone. They told me they would be giving her 30mg Oxycodone upon her arrival to their clinic at would keep her on Oxy up until treatment commenced. She would be having her vitals checked every 45 minutes or so during this time to ensure she was Ok.
I had become my daughters dealer those last few days leading up to treatment time. I didn't like it and didn't want to do it. I picked up (15ct)30mg IR Oxy and handed started feeding them to her every 4 to 6 hrs.
When the time came for the 2 to head to the border, I was completely spent. Numb. I always feel a little guilty about the relief I feel when I know she is in a facility and relatively safe and away from the world. I rest much easier knowing the phone isn't going to ring with news I felt helpless to do anything about. I was sure one of the next phone calls was going to be news of her passing the entire year leading up to treatment.
I spoke with Caitlin many times during her month long stay in Mexico. She was allowed to have her cell phone on her most of the time. The treatments consisted of Ibogaine, DMT, and Ayahuasca. The Ibogaine didn't agree with her and made her too ill(puking) to get much out of it. The DMT and Ayahuasca, however, were life altering.
After returning from her month in Mexico she has had one fall back or relapse. She has been back going on 8 months now. She has a full time job and is healthy. She's coming over to see me tonight. She lives with her Mon about 5 minutes from me here in the Desert of Southern California. Before Mexico she was so far from being able to hold a job of any kind. She looked so different than she does today. She has that light back in her eyes. She laughs the infectious laugh that filled our home for so many years when she was growing up. The year before Mexico i cannot think of a time that laughter was appropriate and the girl she had become didn't laugh.
My ex has a house here in Palm Springs and recently bought a ranch in Joshua Tree. Once a month my daughter participates in Ceremonies that happen up in Joshua Tree and is given Ayauasca by a Shaman and recharges her soul. The $300 is worth every penny. She even paid for half of the cost the last 2 months. She's 22 and with any luck, she won't have any issue seeing 23, 24, and beyond. I'm grateful to those folks in Mexico and am grateful that my baby is smiling today. Take care.

*****I made the above post 3 months ago on another board. I can report that my daughter is still alive and off the needle. She is going to school and working....living her life. She just celebrated her 23rd birthday last month.
She's headed up to Joshua Tree this weekend to "recharge" with a guide and some other like minded folks who will all partake in DMT and Ayahuasca. $300 is a bargain for what these substances have helped us achieve. She has her life back and I have my daughter back. Life is good.


Great read. Thanks.
 
After every type of mainstream rehab and one Faith based(Buddhism) jobber in Thailand my ex-wife and I were at our wits end. Our daughter was living on borrowed time and i was resigned on having to bury my beautiful girl in short order. Then a friend asked if I had considered ibogaine. I remembered hearing about it and the success people were having in treating opiate addiction. Heroin was going to kill my kid. I had to do something.
The same friend was a vendor on the Deep Web markets. He said there was a source out of Brazil that had ibogaine on his list. I sent him $1100 for 5 grams and he took care of the bitcoin transfer etc. A couple of weeks went by and we were losing our grip on our girl once again. We were all hopeful when we first ordered the stuff. My ex had a nurse ready to go and watch vital signs etc.
We got to talking about how we were going to administer the ibogain? What amounts? Was re-dosing involved? I wasn't sure we were up to the task.
We started looking into Clinics. Ibogain and other drugs I started hearing about are Schedule 1 here in the States so clinics were going to either be North or to our South. After a month and tracking not giving me a clue we decided to check her into a Ibogaine Clinic in Rosarita, Mexico a friend had told me about. We got in touch with someone from the Clinic who was extremely helpful and understanding.
The plan was in 2 days from the day of our conversation, my ex was going to drive with our daughter down to the border and meet an agent from the Clinic who would show them where they could safely park and leave their car on the US side for most of the day. MY ex and daughter would then be driven to the clinic in Rosarita. My ex would check things out and pay for the 32 days..give or take, that she would be staying. The cost was a very reasonable $12, 500(give or take) which was all inclusive.
We just had to get through the next 2 days. I had purchased Suboxone strips from a guy I knew and had been giving her pieces of the (10ct)8mg strips I had for her. I was told to stop giving her the Subs immediately. I was told it was either the Bupenephrine or the Nalaxone(the likely culprit) took a very long time to clear her system and treatment couldn't begin until it had.
They suggested that we keep her well by giving her high doses of Oxycodone. They told me they would be giving her 30mg Oxycodone upon her arrival to their clinic at would keep her on Oxy up until treatment commenced. She would be having her vitals checked every 45 minutes or so during this time to ensure she was Ok.
I had become my daughters dealer those last few days leading up to treatment time. I didn't like it and didn't want to do it. I picked up (15ct)30mg IR Oxy and handed started feeding them to her every 4 to 6 hrs.
When the time came for the 2 to head to the border, I was completely spent. Numb. I always feel a little guilty about the relief I feel when I know she is in a facility and relatively safe and away from the world. I rest much easier knowing the phone isn't going to ring with news I felt helpless to do anything about. I was sure one of the next phone calls was going to be news of her passing the entire year leading up to treatment.
I spoke with Caitlin many times during her month long stay in Mexico. She was allowed to have her cell phone on her most of the time. The treatments consisted of Ibogaine, DMT, and Ayahuasca. The Ibogaine didn't agree with her and made her too ill(puking) to get much out of it. The DMT and Ayahuasca, however, were life altering.
After returning from her month in Mexico she has had one fall back or relapse. She has been back going on 8 months now. She has a full time job and is healthy. She's coming over to see me tonight. She lives with her Mon about 5 minutes from me here in the Desert of Southern California. Before Mexico she was so far from being able to hold a job of any kind. She looked so different than she does today. She has that light back in her eyes. She laughs the infectious laugh that filled our home for so many years when she was growing up. The year before Mexico i cannot think of a time that laughter was appropriate and the girl she had become didn't laugh.
My ex has a house here in Palm Springs and recently bought a ranch in Joshua Tree. Once a month my daughter participates in Ceremonies that happen up in Joshua Tree and is given Ayauasca by a Shaman and recharges her soul. The $300 is worth every penny. She even paid for half of the cost the last 2 months. She's 22 and with any luck, she won't have any issue seeing 23, 24, and beyond. I'm grateful to those folks in Mexico and am grateful that my baby is smiling today. Take care.

*****I made the above post 3 months ago on another board. I can report that my daughter is still alive and off the needle. She is going to school and working....living her life. She just celebrated her 23rd birthday last month.
She's headed up to Joshua Tree this weekend to "recharge" with a guide and some other like minded folks who will all partake in DMT and Ayahuasca. $300 is a bargain for what these substances have helped us achieve. She has her life back and I have my daughter back. Life is good.

Dude you should really consider writing a book! Everytime I read something of yours I get sucked in like its a fucking classic novel or something lol. That's fantastic about your girl man not everyone can do it. My mother said the same thing about me 3 years ago when I got clean "she could see the life back in my eyes"
 
Shrooms always gave me bad trips. Lsd didn't though, i enjoyed them because i was energetic and positive. But mdma is a whole other story... I had a problem though. I was all about the stuff and would take it every weekend. Needless to say, i overdosed and it fried my brain. It happened 10 years ago. For 3 months following that day, i had paranoia, like i thought my best friends were try to kill me. I had about 6 panic attacks a day. It was weird, things would just start turning dark around me like Satan was about to show up. Luckily, I had one friend who stood by my side. She would sleep over with me and keep me company. It basically ruined all drugs for me. Every time i smoked weed after that, i would freak out. Like after just one hit. Here it is ten years later, i don't have that paranoia anymore about my friends, but I've had panic attacks ever since that time. Luckily i only have them like once a month or so. But hey, my friends partied too and this didn't happen to them. Guess it depends on the you're of person you are. If you can control letting it get out of hand, then you'd probably be alright. Like i said, i had a problem. I got to the point where i took 12+ pills a night... It saddens me to think about it. The worst part is that i live with the thought of wondering how much smarter and better I'd be if I would have stayed away from all those mind-altering drugs. I'll never know my full potential that God gave me.
 
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