Dope and it’s never ending Grip on my life

[Gaynz39]

Well, title says it all. Never did I think I would have been talking of such ignorance, but needless to say, it is what it is. For over a month now the shit took control of my life and I. Finally got back to work and things are looking up. The shit made me completely forget about the Healthy lifestyle I was living, I didn’t think twice about it either. Sad fucking situation. I pray I’m back for good, and this never crosses my path again.

 

[Gaynz39]

I am so fucking broke, and nothing but a Gum Membership to push me forward until I get on my feet again. And I hope I come out on top, and patience prevails. Traded all my gear off for cash, you name it, I done it in the past month. So fucking discusted with myself and my lack of will power.

 

[tengtren]

There you are! Glad your back.

Don't fuck it up! Just get fucking huge

How long have you been in and out that lifestyle

 

[Gaynz39]

There you are! Glad your back.

Don't fuck it up! Just get fucking huge

How long have you been in and out that lifestyle

I’ve been in and out of this shit since I was 15 yrs old.

Getting Big is the Plan. I need time and money, but already hitting the Gym daily to get it going.

 

[tengtren]

I’ve been in and out of this shit since I was 15 yrs old.

Getting Big is the Plan. I need time and money, but already hitting the Gym daily to get it going.

Lose a lot of size?

 

[johntt44]

Sorry to hear about your relapse. Best of luck to you!

 

[Eman]

Shit happens. You shouldn't be too hard on yourself, you got yourself turned around after a pretty short stint and didn't manage to kill yourself or choose to continue with the drugs. Just keep walking down the right path and things will look up.

 

[Gaynz39]

Lose a lot of size?

I lost it all. I didn’t notice it much. The Wife set me down, took a pic, and it hit me then. Not good, 2 years of solid work crammed in the Shitter.

 

[Gaynz39]

Shit happens. You shouldn't be too hard on yourself, you got yourself turned around after a pretty short stint and didn't manage to kill yourself or choose to continue with the drugs. Just keep walking down the right path and things will look up.

You Bet. Thank You

 

[T-Bagger]

I was wondering where you went. Good to see you back man.

 

[tengtren]

I lost it all. I didn’t notice it much. The Wife set me down, took a pic, and it hit me then. Not good, 2 years of solid work crammed in the Shitter.

It'll come back

 

[Gaynz39]

I was wondering where you went. Good to see you back man.

Yes Sir. Thank Ya

 

[CompoundLifts31]

What else motivates you other than the gym and juice? Think of everything.
Also, write out all the reasons to not use.
Wake up and read them every day.

 

[Havah]

I am so fucking broke, and nothing but a Gum Membership to push me forward until I get on my feet again. And I hope I come out on top, and patience prevails. Traded all my gear off for cash, you name it, I done it in the past month. So fucking discusted with myself and my lack of will power.

As its been said already dont be too hard on yourself
Doesnt do any good and will power as important as it is unfortunately rarely sufficient to handle substance abuse

 

[Morefyah]

I lost it all. I didn’t notice it much. The Wife set me down, took a pic, and it hit me then. Not good, 2 years of solid work crammed in the Shitter.

You need to whack your dealer!
You know the one..

 

[Popeye32]

It's a lifetime WAR for some of us every day a battle day by day win the battle eventually you win the WAR. I choose to win for me kids and few that never gave up on me and the ones that lose your strength to overcome and achieve your story and life will save someone one day give them will power to win war . Keep your head up be proud you will be wiser and stronger CANT NOTHING KEEP A MESO BROTHER DOWN

 

[The Terminator]

By dope do you mean h or something else? Anyway it happens especially if you’ve done it for long, but you pulled yourself out which is the important part. Happened to me a few times before I was done, last time I did anything I was like “wtf this is a fuckin disappointment” and that was it.

 

[InFlames]

I'm assuming "dope" is heroin? If so......you need to look into Kratom man. Shit is a life changer. I was an alcoholic for a very long time. While still lifting and taking AAS. SO STUPID! Kratom made me stop drinking completely. Lost 37lbs, gained Abs. I went from 247lbs to 210lbs with abs. Just from continuing to workout and stay on the same diet but just cut out drinking. I take it occasionally. Usually in the AM and PM like coffee in the AM and PM to sleep.
If u are addcited to heroin or anything really you should look into it. If u want message me and I can tell u were to get it for much better quality and price than headshops. Don't waste your money on that shit. Way overpriced and terrible quality. I wish they wouldn't sell it at headshops. It automatically gives it a bad image have read testimonials about people getting off of H with kratom. My buddy was a 10 plus years Oxy addict, at least 10 a day. I bought him a bag of Kratom and made him try it. He came to me 2 weeks later and said "dude thank you, I haven't taken a pill since then". Many many people have quit hard drugs and alcohol using Kratom. And before anyone says.....yes it can be addicting. But anything can. As long as u aren't taking massive amounts many times a day you'll be just fine. I can stop for weeks without any withdrawals at all. Which I usually stop every so often to reset my tolerance. Normally take it just on weekends and if it's been a bad day during the week. It really is an amazing plant. and yes you could say it's trading 1 addiction for another. But I'd much rather be addcited to Kratom than alcohol, pain pills or H.
I get an extensive physical at work because of my job. I run into burning buildings for work. So they go all out on the physicals. When I was drinking my doc was about to put me on meds for BP, cholesterol and my liver values were elevated significantly. I was drinking a handle of vodka a day. It was out of control. The year I started Kratom, my next physical ALL my numbers returned to normal AND that was on a Test Tren and Mast cycle too. Lol.

Look into man. Don't read all the propgaprop against it by the FDA. It's all bullshit. Every single death from it. (I believe there is like 16 now) ALL had harder drugs in their system like benzos, Oxy or H. When the autopsies were released. But they automatically blamed Kratom. Cause those other drugs have nothing to do with it. Hmmm.

Hit me up man. I know alot about the subject and can point u in the right direction. Addiction to anything is hell man. I've been there. If u don't contact me.....I wish u the best. Stay in the gym. Get big and just think about your gains not the dope. Get your mindset addicted to working out and gains!

Good luck man. U got this!

 

[MisterSuperGod]

Well, title says it all. Never did I think I would have been talking of such ignorance, but needless to say, it is what it is. For over a month now the shit took control of my life and I. Finally got back to work and things are looking up. The shit made me completely forget about the Healthy lifestyle I was living, I didn’t think twice about it either. Sad fucking situation. I pray I’m back for good, and this never crosses my path again.

Glad to see you back. Was wondering where you got off to.

The simple truth is, you gotta desire sobriety and a better life for yourself more than you desire the drugs. Took me a decade to get there myself, but the will to be something more than a drug addict finally won the war.

You'll get there too, if you want it bad enough. It may take everything you've got and then some, but the grass really is greener once you reach the other side.

 

[movingiron88]

Well, title says it all. Never did I think I would have been talking of such ignorance, but needless to say, it is what it is. For over a month now the shit took control of my life and I. Finally got back to work and things are looking up. The shit made me completely forget about the Healthy lifestyle I was living, I didn’t think twice about it either. Sad fucking situation. I pray I’m back for good, and this never crosses my path again.

What's up brotha, I'm glad you were able to pull through it. I do have a question and am asking with all due respect. How is your wife with the whole situation?