Who else is on antidepressants

Roco Bama

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I haven’t dealt with any depression before except in my high school years. However since 2017 I started having flashbacks of bad things that happened to me 10 years ago.

I started taking 20 mg Prozac last year for 6 months and it did help me a little. Then I had a relapse a month ago.
I’m currently on 300mg Wellbutrin and 20mg Prozac. It’s weird how old memories that never used to bother me before is crushing me right now to the point I feel sick to my stomach.
 
Regardless of the diagnosis which is rather unclear there is zero rational to add wellbutrin before pushing the first ssri to its maximum tolerated dosage - 60 if not 80mg

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I haven’t dealt with any depression before except in my high school years. However since 2017 I started having flashbacks of bad things that happened to me 10 years ago.

I started taking 20 mg Prozac last year for 6 months and it did help me a little. Then I had a relapse a month ago.
I’m currently on 300mg Wellbutrin and 20mg Prozac. It’s weird how old memories that never used to bother me before is crushing me right now to the point I feel sick to my stomach.
thts a side effect of tren 100%
 
I don't have any real useful information to add to this but I'll simply say hang in there brother. Depression is really common especially in my family, you've just got to fight through it and remember you live in America which means you're already in the top 1% of humans on the Earth as far as finances, lifestyle, health and education go. Life is good brother!
 
I went through a few years of feeling depressed. I spent roughly 1 year trying different antis but they all made me feel lethargic and I couldn’t bust a nut. Zoloft made me yawn uncontrollably all day even tho I wasn’t tired.

Finally I realized a pill isn’t going to change the things in my life that were causing me to be sad. I knew if I wanted to be happy I had to deal with the dozens of things that had went wrong in my life. It’s okay to feel sad or down sometimes. I know for me personally, I had to let the feelings run their course.
 
I mean, I smoke a lot of pot.

But that doesn't do much for the depression. BPD so it just kinda comes and goes in waves.

Im on a fairly even keel running Test though. Wanna run Tren, but terrified of fucking murder someone or just go batshit crazy.
 
I mean, I smoke a lot of pot.

But that doesn't do much for the depression. BPD so it just kinda comes and goes in waves.

Im on a fairly even keel running Test though. Wanna run Tren, but terrified of fucking murder someone or just go batshit crazy.

Long term pot abuse can very well induce or worsen a MDD
 
Long term pot abuse can very well induce or worsen a MDD

Not MDD - BPD. It's more a disassociative disorder, with large sides of impulsiveness and feeling emotions in the extreme.

Sometimes they swing, sometimes you can't shake them for a week. It's a bit of a rollercoaster.

BPD in a nutshell, hence my being weary of Tren / EQ (Anxiety).

Took a 10 year break from smoking though, started again more to avoid using so much aspirin and the like.

My a lot now is definitely not the same as my a lot back then. Ill usually hit the same bowl for two to three days.

But it's a lot compared to nothing. :)
 
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Not MDD - BPD. It's more a disassociative disorder, with large sides of impulsiveness and feeling emotions in the extreme.

Sometimes they swing, sometimes you can't shake them for a week. It's a bit of a rollercoaster.

BPD in a nutshell, hence my being weary of Tren / EQ (Anxiety).

Took a 10 year break from smoking though, started again more to avoid using so much aspirin and the like.

My a lot now is definitely not the same as my a lot back then. Ill usually hit the same bowl for two to three days.

But it's a lot compared to nothing. :)

Youre refering BPD to borderline personality disorder?

The depressant effects of long term pot applies to any psychiatric disorder
 
Youre refering BPD to borderline personality disorder?

The depressant effects of long term pot applies to any psychiatric disorder

I am, and wasnt disputing that.

Just expanding a bit. Though I would argue that my consumption level is far from abuse territory.
 
I am, and wasnt disputing that.

Just expanding a bit. Though I would argue that my consumption level is far from abuse territory.

Its enough to have thymic side effects


Is that a self made diagnosis ? As usually personality disorders are ego synthonic
 
Its enough to have thymic side effects


Is that a self made diagnosis ? As usually personality disorders are ego synthonic

Not a self diagnosis.

They've been trying to dope me up on all kinds of shit since I was a kid.

Diagnosis came, as far as I know, after putting a screwdriver threw my mother's piece of shit boyfriend. Took him and the two cops bringing him to the car down a flight of stairs doing it.

I was seven at the time.

That's the first time it was actually mentioned to me anyway.

Edit: I wasn't an overly aggressive or violent Kid. That was a breaking point kinda thing.

But I've never tolerated abuse / bullying of myself or others. So not a one off either I guess. Definitely the only flat out attempted murder though.

Which I realize sounds bad and I'm just gonna stop there. :/
 
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Not a self diagnosis.

They've been trying to dope me up on all kinds of shit since I was a kid.

Diagnosis came, as far as I know, after putting a screwdriver threw my mother's piece of shit boyfriend. Took him and the two cops bringing him to the car down a flight of stairs doing it.

I was seven at the time.

That's the first time it was actually mentioned to me anyway.

I doubt anyone in their right mind would mention a BPD to a 7 years old but hey you never know life is crazy sometimes

Im off now take care was cool talking to you : P
 
I doubt anyone in their right mind would mention a BPD to a 7 years old but hey you never know life is crazy sometimes

Im off now take care was cool talking to you : P

In all fairness, they could have been talking about nuclear fission and I'd have been just as clueless at the time.

Courts were involved, and things were said. Not all directly to me obviously, but it's my first recollection of the disorder being named.

It's been reaffirmed several times since.
 
I had one of those days on tuesday again

Literally sitting on my desk at work and i was teary eyed.

I texted my best friend and told him about it, i literally couldnt figure out a reason for it.

Next day i woke up with such positive energy and smiling all day.
I hate it and dont know whats the cause of it but it happens regularly


Edit: no tren or shit involved tho
 
50mg a day of Zoloft for the past year and a half for anxiety disorder (PTSD) with Xanax when shit gets rough. I have night terrors that shake me for a few days at a time. I had 11 years as a first responder and some shit never completely leaves, it seems to disapear and suddenly resurfaces.

To the OP. You need to go see your Doc fucking ASAP!!
 
I was on Prozac and hated some of the sides. I did not cycle on it b/c it is a strong inhibitor of Nolva's pathway. Cymbalta had worked for me better and my dose isn't crazy. Plus it also helps with any joint pain. Cymbalta is a moderate inhibitor to Nolva, not as strong as Prozac. I learned this with talking to a friend that's an MD. My cycles are not cray cray as the kids say....Test E 250/4days, 50dbol/day max.
Edit: I was skeptical about the benefits of talking and doing mental exercises when going through the depression and anxiety rough, but therapy really helps. CBT, cognitive behavioral therapy, benefited me.
Hope it gets better brah.
 
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