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But damn it feels good to be up a girls ass
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You ever made love to a man?
When you get to the point you don't care, that is what you want to develop so you can stay in that zone most of the time.
Depression is really about taking things too seriously, being wrapped up in what others think of you, how they see you and how you think they see you.
You want to be desired by the opposite sex, you want them to love you. However you can't control what others think of you no matter how hard you try and so it's not a smart idea to build your emotional foundation on what a female thinks of you, as they are flooded with emotions due to hormones.
If you can get to the point that you no longer care what others think of you, but not be a selfish dickhead of course then you are on your way to having the courage to living a more authentic life that suits your needs. Be kind and courteous to others, but don't get wrapped up in how they treat or perceive you, just know that it doesn't matter as you did your part.
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Hell no and never will. And never fucked one either lol.
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You want to?
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Hell. No.
You just read me like a book. How you know me better than me in one post on an anonymous forum.
This guy is intelligent.
And I’m not being sarcastic if it came across that way
By the time you're in your early 30's you see the same patterns over and over and you go about figuring out why your monkey mind is constantly sending you down a road that isn't working. In your 40's you are conquering your emotions and controlling your impulses.
Anxiety is the root of the problem I see with most people. In our hyper visual world we are exposed to too many things that are unnecessary causing people to desire what others have. This has lead to people in mass having depression because they are attached to what they think will bring them happiness. Attachment and clinging combined with fear are responsible for the bulk of human misery.
It's pretty simple. Most people would think medical doctors are some of the most content people on the planet, they have great careers, well educated, make good money, are respected. And yet that profession has a high suicide rate. I know when I worked in healthcare I worked with 6 doctors that took their own lives in a span of 25 years. This tells me that no matter rich or poor there is misery and the only way to deal with it is to sit down and look for what truly brings peace to your mind.
You're not gonna find it from a relationship or a conquest, achievement, or goal setting. Eventually you're gonna have to step off the hamster wheel and ask "is this really it" and yes this is it. You are no longer spinning your wheels, you now have to deal with the hard stuff, learning to control your emotions, desires, learning to be comfortable with silence, no longer looking for that thing that doesn't exist. Our early ancestors thousands of years ago could be happy just sitting on a log eating a freshly cooked fish in the moment and that is what out biology is built for, not this modern rapid lifestyle that is all about titillating your senses.
If you're interested and have time there is a guy that has a youtube channel "meta sage" that has basically worked through all the bullshit of life and come out the other side. I've worked through this myself with lots of philosophy and thousands of hours of meditation. I no longer give a shit about what happens in life and that's a good thing, not a bad thing contrary to what most people will tell you. Once the attachments are gone, you sleep like a baby.
Meta Sage going to work.
These posts are a wealth of info. Thank you. I agree 100 percent.make me wonder what u been through
Im not super worried about her. This is why I treated her like shit. So I wold feel better in the end about all of this. The matter of the fact is I was never gonna do shit for her kid.
And it lasted all the way up until she signed an apartment lease that costs $850 instead of $500 and she does not make enough money to afford that so she’s kinda absolutely fucked
I ain’t down over her I just need to meet some more people. I forget about her in seconds anytime I talk to someone else. I already am doing that.
I only liked her for how obsessed she was with me to be honest. She wasn’t my type we had no connection, she had a child, she had no hobbies or goals, I never ever ever felt infatuated with her. She was jealous and insecure as fuck
She dressed like a fuckin weirdo obsessed with stupid shit like she wasn’t some hot ass bad bitch hoe. She was just a lost previously abused weirdo with no friends who no one liked.
She talk shit about my music choices lmao it was ironic cuz I know good music. And her shit was odd. Apparently I said some shit about a pair of shoes she had and sh never wore em again cuz I said something negative. She asked me how to dress like legit listened to what I said. She’d pick up my habits and interests. She’d literally change herself based on my approval or disapproval. I mean shit when we first met gym (planet fitness at time cuz it was cheap) I’d walk past her at the front desk cuz I was kinda slightly embarrassed of her and not say a word.
This chick originally had her friend match with me on a dating app when we were first talking to see if I was loyal before we were even dating. She told me the password to all of her shit within days of meeting. Like she was literally screwed in the head.
I’ve seen someone in a mental health facility I went to in high school freshman year for skipping school and depression anger issues and a guy there would go from happy to sad in seconds like mid conversation his facial expression would just CHANGE. Severe bipolar he ended up taking his own life as soon as he was released it was literally shocking cause most people there were just skipping school and smoking weed he legit needed to be there.
This girl reminds me of that level of mental instability but in a different form like that’s literally who she reminds me of
Anyone who stays with her is putting their hand in a blender until there’s nothing left.
As I said before she claimed some picture she got from a psychic was me and it meant she was supposed to Marry me
And it lasted all the way up until she signed an apartment lease that costs $850 instead of $500 and she does not make enough money to afford that so she’s kinda absolutely fucked
I ain’t down over her I just need to meet some more people. I forget about her in seconds anytime I talk to someone else. I already am doing that.
I only liked her for how obsessed she was with me to be honest. She wasn’t my type we had no connection, she had a child, she had no hobbies or goals, I never ever ever felt infatuated with her. She was jealous and insecure as fuck
She dressed like a fuckin weirdo obsessed with stupid shit like she wasn’t some hot ass bad bitch hoe. She was just a lost previously abused weirdo with no friends who no one liked.
She talk shit about my music choices lmao it was ironic cuz I know good music. And her shit was odd. Apparently I said some shit about a pair of shoes she had and sh never wore em again cuz I said something negative. She asked me how to dress like legit listened to what I said. She’d pick up my habits and interests. She’d literally change herself based on my approval or disapproval. I mean shit when we first met gym (planet fitness at time cuz it was cheap) I’d walk past her at the front desk cuz I was kinda slightly embarrassed of her and not say a word.
This chick originally had her friend match with me on a dating app when we were first talking to see if I was loyal before we were even dating. She told me the password to all of her shit within days of meeting. Like she was literally screwed in the head.
I’ve seen someone in a mental health facility I went to in high school freshman year for skipping school and depression anger issues and a guy there would go from happy to sad in seconds like mid conversation his facial expression would just CHANGE. Severe bipolar he ended up taking his own life as soon as he was released it was literally shocking cause most people there were just skipping school and smoking weed he legit needed to be there.
This girl reminds me of that level of mental instability but in a different form like that’s literally who she reminds me of
Anyone who stays with her is putting their hand in a blender until there’s nothing left.
As I said before she claimed some picture she got from a psychic was me and it meant she was supposed to Marry me
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I despised conformity from a young age, probably starting around 12.
I questioned everything and everyone. I didn't just believe some bullshit because someone told me.
That gets me into a lot of trouble because very few people you'll run into are free thinkers, they are filled to the brim with dogma and you must respect their horseshit or they'll lose their minds.
I enjoyed poking and prodding, asking questions to peel back peoples beliefs until they sat crushed knowing it was all a lie.
Aside from that I watched endless fighting at home and had 5 step dads by the time I was 18. That said I was free to do as I pleased, responsible for myself, got to do pretty much what I wanted as long as I did it myself and had a lot of fun with my friends that you would have called punks back in the 80's. For me the weirder the person the more I enjoyed them growing up.
Well I appreciate what you have to say it’s extremely thorough and deserves recognition
But even this, is poor thinking, because it doesnt matter what he has been through, but the fact he was able to find peace, is what matters.
Lol sworder!
I agree the posts of what you wrote is really what life is all about. And i am on my own journey to just be aware of that you talk about. Letting ego go, but then again me saying this right now is my ego talking.
I’m dreaming again. That’s how much more rested I am.
I’m like being cleared of all the shit I felt that whole tome
Whenever I get stress I have tension inside and usually a very vivid dream will make that tension go away
I think dreams are the way of the body to filter out mental stressed and recover
I’m like being cleared of all the shit I felt that whole tome
Whenever I get stress I have tension inside and usually a very vivid dream will make that tension go away
I think dreams are the way of the body to filter out mental stressed and recover
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Took her back?
Nah got my paycheck
Shit broke me but made me confident as fuck ain’t never felt like this about myself
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Glad to hear you’re doing better.
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