because being on gear is the greatest feeling ever.
Better than opioids, coke, amphetamines, anything else I have ever felt.
it might be a looksmaxx, but doing it just for the looks is retarded.
only IQlet L/M/HTBs believe this long term. After a year or two of experiencing this most people realize that they are being retarded and change their dating behaviours. You believing this to be a fundamental truth just says something about either the age group you are in/pursuing or the type of women you are pursuing in general.
One more thing, not to sound esoterical but you seem to have an ugly, pained soul. I hope you find yourself in a position where you are absolved from your pain, whatever it might be, and get to see the beauty life has in store for you.