Oh I know that idmd. I got injured bad at work and was out if the gym for a year. Then when I kept trying to go back, my ego would get in the way and I'd quit because I couldn't lift close to what I could. Plus, i had always lifted at a pretty hard core gym and was one of the bigger/stronger guys there. Believe me, it seemed like most people there were happy to see me small and weak when i returned. I would tuck tail and head home.
I since changed gyms and I've been back at it for 3 years now and my strength is all back but physique isn't quite what it used to be. Been natty the whole time until a couple weeks ago.
It took about a year just to start getting my lifts back to numbers that weren't completely embarrassing.
I can only imagine how someone like Arnold, who was the best ever IMO, would want to work out knowing what he once was.