Howdy, I'm still alive

Change of plans - you know what I said about being able to sit down in ballet class if it gets to be too much and my teacher being sympathetic toward it because she thought it was just lingering sickness from before? Yeah, that bullshit's not gonna fly anymore. If I keep this up and do awful in class - especially if it's supposedly because my body is still weak from being sick - I can wave going back to Russia good bye and throw my entire ballet career in the trash. It was an excellent excuse for a while, mostly because it was based in truth originally, but I've squeezed every last drop this stunt has got to offer me and I need to get back to reality! The real kicker and what triggered me to go into panic mode was when she brought up my long-term health and how I can't dance if I'm not healthy and started hinting that if I don't get better then I should prepare for the worst and try to find other things in life. AAAGH. Oh my god, NO. So that was the end of that, no more shenanigans for me during ballet. And to tell you the truth, I am beyond irritated at my lack of progress/being the best/making myself and my teacher proud as of late. Nothing ever gets in the way between me and ballet, except, ironically enough, losing weight (ironically because losing weight is also the thing I need to do for ballet). Anyway, enough of my rambling. I'm sure it's not interesting to you guys! I did mention it because it is obviously relevant to my DNP cycle.
I'm not stopping the DNP, just changing my approach. I'm doing very well overall with the DNP and have nothing that could be considered ill effects - only the usual stuff like sweating (holy mother of I-don't-even-know-what, my bed was soaked after my nap yesterday), lethargy, having a lower capacity for work load (most apparent in ballet). In 'normal' life it's hardly a bother, only in ballet it is and then it's really detrimental toward my performance. I took all of that into account yesterday and I didn't want to throw in the towel completely so I thought about it and came up with a plan that seems more ideal to me - and that will allow me to do the two most important things in my life (nothing else comes close to competing with these for importance to me), ballet and losing weight, simultaneously and as efficiently as possible.
First of all, I won't take 500 mg of DNP on days I have ballet. I might not even take any DNP on days I have ballet. I have ballet almost every day, so that's a bit of a snag in my plan. Except it's not, because for the duration I intend to be taking DNP on, I don't have class on Saturdays and Sundays, and on Mondays I will be subbing for another teacher's class for which I am just fine with being on DNP. So, I would like to do shorter burst cycles on the weekends (3 days, Saturday-Monday). Really, they could start from Friday evening. I have no intention or desire to do the super high dose burst cycles that were more common - in the area of 1000 mg - that's just too damn scary, not to mention there is no need as far as I can tell. I feel comfortable at 500 mg and I don't think there is any need to go higher than that, even if it's only for 3-4 days of the week.
Second, we've just dived right into the holiday season (Happy Halloween!) which means that I have holiday breaks over the next couple months, some from school and some from ballet and some where I don't have either. November 14 and 15 we have a short 'fall break' from ballet which essentially adds two days to my weekend, so that's 4 days of DNP right there. A week and a half later it's Thanksgiving break, and I don't have school or ballet for just over a week, from November 23-December 1. That is an *excellent* time to run a cycle. Coincidentally I am going on a very short family trip to Chicago, only for a few days. It's colder in Chicago than it is here, so weather at least won't be a problem. My parents might wonder why I'm sweating, if they even notice, but they can keep on wondering

I have some reasons that could be legitimate should I find myself having to explain something (between you and me they obviously are not). On Nov 21 and 26 (and one day before each) I don't want to run any DNP at all as I have two scheduled dr appts which would not be a good time to be sweaty and all-around abnormal.

And finally, there is the big holiday break, but I will cross that bridge when I get there as I may well not need or want to use DNP at that point and in general it's just too far forward to have anything more than the faint outline of a plan for then.
Sounds good? Basically just chunks of days on DNP rather than continuously day-to-day. Steady dose as far as I'm concerned atm.
By the way, the reason I'm updating in large blurbs rather than a bit here and there is because I can't find time/chances during the day to do otherwise, my schedule is insane right now. Last night I didn't sleep at all, I stayed up going chemistry work, and I think tonight will end up resembling that somewhat. It was great working all night actually, because I took my Vyvanse and really got a lot done. The only downside was that since I had gotten back home from ballet I was eating so much. It was a combination of leaving ballet frustrated and upset with myself, the very-real DNP carb hunger (um, hunger in general, more like), and possible the prospect of studying instead of sleeping that resulted in me eating like that. I don't know what to say other than that sucks that I did that but at the same time I'm looking better today than I looked yesterday so...I'll take it, and run with it, and just keep going with my proper diet
Oh yeah, today was the first day that I took 500 mg for a second day consecutively. I could do that today because I'm not dancing today, only teaching, so I can get away with it alright. I had a chemistry lab today and it's not allowed to wear sleeve-less shirts but I was begging the lab tech to not make me put on my sweater because I was so hot and sweaty, I ever told her, "Look, even my skin is practically radiating heat." But it was a no-go. One thing is for sure, I will be going into lab wearing t-shirts from now on. Luckily my friend offered to change clothes so that she wore my tank top and my sweater on top, and I wore her loose t-shirt two sizes huge on me which was quite nice and breezy. Despite that, when we changed back into our own clothes, I couldn't stop apologizing for handing her back a shirt that was damp from sweat! I warned her during the lab that I was sweating, though, and she said, "Don't sweat it" Haha. Good friend.
Anyway, I'm off for a nap now. I took my second capsule about an hour ago and I am starting to feel some heat and the fan is calling my name.