Thank you guys.It really means a lot.I had been drinking most days at home alone.I would go to the bathroom and I would look in the mirror and say to my self, I can’t believe I’m drunk again.Standing in my living room talking to myself, how the hell did it get to this point.How the hell am I going to get out of this.I honestly saw no hope and pretty much thought this was it.This is me for the rest of my life.The week before I went to the meeting I told my girlfriend that I stopped drinking.She came to my place on a Tuesday and I couldn’t wait for her to leave so I could drink.she left at 10:30 and I told her I was going to walk my dog.So I get my dog and proceed to the liquor store and grab a bottle.This woman has had my back through thick and thin and honestly should have left me three times and there I’am thinking I can’t wait till you leave so I can get drunk.Fucking insane.I would fill up a shaker cup with vodka and cranberry and go to my 12 year old sons baseball practice and be drinking it there.Never thinking about how wrong this is.Feeling like shit every fucking day.Couldnt wait to get home so I could sit inside those four walls and start drinking.What a crazy life I was living but some how I thought this is what I’am,This is what I do.Ive been going to meetings for this last week and enjoying them so much.Feeling positive about myself and my future.Waking up everyday with a clear head.I know it’s only been a week but I will fight this with all I have cause I love the place I’m at now.I can’t remember the last time I felt like this.
