I sure appreciate all the input. Really I do. I am confused now. I went to another board where some woman do hangout although the posts are not nearly as frequent (1 a month vs. several a day on this board) and one girl said (in her post ) that Anavar caused irreversable sides like the facial hair, hoarse voice etc. She mentioned several other drugs so I couldn't tell if she had taken the Anavar with something else or not, but she blamed the Anavar.
The Anavar comes up a lot. I see that many also do the Primobolin Depot and the Winny. One gal said Winny put like 30# on her. Is that possible? I don't want 30# of muscle to be honest. 10 or 12# would be nice

I also wouldn't mind coming in tighter. When I try to come in super lean, I feel I risk looking stringy and lose my shape. I am Nat. Level, no pro-card yet material. I aspire to a body like Monica Brandt. A wee bit muscular for Figure but still
very much a girl. I have really small bones. esp for my height (5'5") which helps my muscles show up but I do not have the 'presence' that some of the bigger girls have. Some judges like it (Small joints, somewhat leaner) and score me high, some don't and score me behind the bigger boned gals. Point being. I need more shape (ie: muscle) to make up for the small frame. I think often I am head to head with them on shear muscle but they *look* bigger because of the bigger bones. Also some of the gals that are passing me up to snag their pro card are clearly leaner with striations etc. I know that it's Figure and the guidelines say "moderate muscle, not too lean.. blah,blah" but it's BS cuz I know what those judges are looking for. Its the body of the old-school bodybuilder with a new name 'Figure'
I want to come in 10# heavier and even leaner.
I have said that like 6 times. I am babbling.
I'll check back later. Thanks so much
BH