oh, and Bluebell78--yes, you are probably spot on in your assessment. I definitely have been suffering from PTSD over the past year--my ex was a real maniac and we were married 25 years. He never beat me, but he was emotionally abusive and there were some other things that went on during the course of our relationship that were extremely difficult. I do meditate when I can although I am way out of practice. It's good when i manage to get some in tho!