I'm 43, 210lbs. I've being on Testosterone 300mg/w and HGH for the last 8 years.
Mostly Sustanon, but I mix Deca, Enanthate, Cyp, Primo sometimes.
I was feeling great until 3 months ago.
Then.... Libido is GONE. Zero!
Appetite gone, energy dropped, insomnia, anxiety (first time ever), brain fog, not thirsty, zero pimples, nipples are fine, dry skin, work outs very good still.
Lost most of my pump, lost about 15lbs, no veins.
Going through a nasty divorce for the last 5 months. Depression hit me first time in my life. (Please be kind in the comments )
I work out a lot, Jiu-Jitsu, yoga and cardio. Body fat around 14% for the last 8 years. Cold water at least once/w. Meditation 3x/w. Not to brag too much... but I was, still am, in really great shape and health.
I did a few cycles of BPC-157, TB-500 and Epithalon within the last 2 years. Still feel great from that (a lot to talk about it)
In my not so clear thinking, in the last 3 months I kept increasing T to resolve the libido... up to 700mg/w.
I take HCG and HMG when it seems like needed. Last 3 months I have been taking it more frequently. Balls are as big as they ever been and low. Weird the results show low LH and FSH.
I eat healthy, no much meat, about 3.5k calories a day.
My fist thought was low E2 because the symptoms matched perfectly. I was considering exogenous E2 until the results came back.
My second thought was anhedonia from the BPC157.
AND, the tolerance to any substance (coffee, shrooms, alcohol, anything) from the peptides. So I thought there was tolerance for the testosterone too.
For the curious... I had an episode of rhabdomyolysis 9years ago. Really close call. My testosterone never came back. It went literally to zero. Lots of cold water therapy and other drastic measures to recover all my hormones back. Doctor prescribed me Clomid and told me to come back in 3 months. Still zero T... Fuck it, I decided to do it on my own.
Please advise.
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Thank you so much