I hear ya bro. I know where I am at is because of aas but at the same time I feel like i should have been further along. I think though that it’s because I’m not a patient person. This world is all about the long game even with aas. I’m more of an instant gratification kinda person. Love brewin too.I'm in the same boat. After this cut i will try again to bulk, this time very clean and by eating smaller quantities every 2 or 3 hours. If that doesn't work i will still run gear but at much lower doses and most likely long esters only. I've been on something or another since August last year. I need a break anyway i suppose. But honestly i love pinning gear. Love brewing it. And i love Meso. Best lifestyle change I've made since i quit cigarettes imo.