I’m very glad to hear all this brother! I don’t want to push or ask any personal questions; but what treatments or SSRI’s have you tried and how were they for you? Love to read some positive experiences here
I had a neck injury that I was trying to avoid surgery for. Bascially lived with a compromised spinal cord for years, under medical supervision trying all sorts of treatments with no real success. Nerve root compression was real, even though I was handling the pain well, my body was not. CNS started going haywire and fried. Body began reacting physically with changing heart rythms leading to PVC's and some other bad acronyms I cant remember. Pulse was all over, BP was spiking to ER levels and then so low that I would start to pass out trying to get up. Muscle pain was unfathomable and felt like all over from body overcompensating to protect my neck. Couldnt sleep, sit for too long, stand for too long, or lay for too long and wasnt allowed to do anything. This all took a toll of my mental health leading to clinical depression, anxiety, panic attacks and the whole lot of weird shit I've never experienced before in my life.
Couldnt get an appointment with an actual psych that wasnt 6+ months out at the time (Covid times had everyone mentally ill) so had to end up going to clinics and using whomever had an opening while trying to find a permenant Psych. Through that journey I tried every class of anti-depressant, I cant remember them all off the top of my head, but:
Escitalopram, Venlafaxine, Sertaline, Martiz, Bupropion, Fluoxetine, Quetiapine, Alprazolam, Clonazepam, Trazodone, Eszopiclone, Zolpidem, Gabapentin, and Buspirone.
Sertraline, Fluoxetine, Traz, Eszopiclone were the most effective for me. I used Sertraline at first and then changed to Fluoxetine a ~1.5yrs ago.