I never had an ounce of depression in my life until I ran a deca only cycle maybe 10 years ago at 400 mg. Just hit me one day, and if you look it up on other boards it’s usually very similar (depression plus fixating on a spouse like an old BF or obsessed they are cheating). It got extremely bad for me. Stopped the deca, took 6 months to not think about bad things all day long. Did higher test ave got better over a year stopping deca, maybe total of 2 years to be perfect again. I love test and can do a lot with it and being 45 I’m sticking with trt and 6-8 week test prop blast once or twice a year.