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Just that one girl(or whoever you loved no discrimination) who changed everything for you. But for whatever reason it didn't work out.
Like have that one person who if you could have one more chance with you would take it?
I know the idea of only one is dumb to alot. But I will say there are very few.
But I know for me there is someone out there I may never get to talk to ever again. And it tears me up inside. Makes it worse I can't even share my favorite parts of life with them like I used to. Even just friends would be nice.
 
No, make no mistake, "even just friends" wouldnt be nice. You couldnt handle it. Guaran fuckin T! Been there, done that.

I have many "ones". I wish a lot of shit. And im not gonna put it out there for all to see...just in case. I will say...I recently...within last year....contacted my first love. She was fresh out of relationship, fuckin into getting together.....dude believe me, its not the fuckin same! Her, we can be friends, not to sound like a hypocrite, but lot of shit came out...about me and her...and that makes it ok to be friends. We can never be together. Ill always love her, but thats as far as it goes.

That said, my number one, the one I should have married, I cant get close.....I drive by from time to time to make sure shes ok. I did something years ago that she will never forgive me for. Think the worst, and its worse than that, all ill say. If that never happened id take her from her husband right now. To this day im in her head, but that one moment changed how far she will let herself go. So....to this day I am her protector, she doesnt know it, but if anything goes wrong ill ....well all ill say is her problems are gone for good. And id never get credit for it. Wouldnt want it. All I want is for her to be happy, and she will, fuckin bank on it.

All that said, and I know im being vague, you probably wont understand. But ill leave it with this. Dont fuck with the past. Im being dangerously serious when I say that, again dont fuck with the past. Dont do what I did, or do. Just look forward and live your life.
 
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No, make no mistake, "even just friends" wouldnt be nice. You couldnt handle it. Guaran fuckin T! Been there, done that.

I have many "ones". I wish a lot of shit. And im not gonna put it out there for all to see...just in case. I will say...I recently...within last year....contacted my first love. She was fresh out of relationship, fuckin into getting together.....dude believe me, its not the fuckin same! Her, we can be friends, not to sound like a hypocrite, but lot of shit came out...about me and her...and that makes it ok to be friends. We can never be together. Ill always love her, but thats as far as it goes.

That said, my number one, the one I should have married, I cant get close.....I drive by from time to time to make sure shes ok. I did something years ago that she will never forgive me for. Think the worst, and its worse than that, all ill say. If that never happened id take her from her husband right now. To this day im in her head, but that one moment changed how far she will let herself go. So....to this day I am her protector, she doesnt know it, but if anything goes wrong ill ....well all ill say is her problems are gone for good. And id never get credit for it. Wouldnt want it. All I want is for her to be happy, and she will, fuckin bank on it.

All that said, and I know im being vague, you probably wont understand. But ill leave it with this. Dont fuck with the past. Im being dangerously serious when I say that, again dont fuck with the past. Dont do what I did, or do. Just look forward and live your life.
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Nah I'm in the same boat with your one. We both knew. But just life and shit and we can't even talk now.
 
So in 6th grade it was love at first sight for me. I always thought she and I had some sort of connection and that we were the couple that was supposed to be together. We kissed goodbye our 8th grade year and I never saw her again until 2011 on Facebook when she sent me a request. All through the years, whenever I was in our old neighborhood, I’d look down her street at her house, hoping to maybe get a glimpse of her and would always think about her, wondering where she was in life. The only time we ever chatted on FB was “happy birthday!” and that was it.

Fast forward to 2020 and we reconnect over a picture of hers on FB, along with mutual friends and talk of a reunion. We get together after 25+ years apart and it’s like we grew up together and were never apart. Soon enough, all the red flags start coming out. She’s constantly reminding me of my failures, brings up stupid things I’ve done, constantly puts me down. The day of a major surgery, it’s her birthday also. I have a million and one things running through my mind since I may not wake up from this surgery and all she thinks to do is rip into me about how I was stupid for wishing her HBD on her FB wall and only wished her HBD through Messenger because she brought it up. I pull through the surgery and she comes to visit me in the hospital and starts ripping into me about my daughter texting me and all this other crap. I kindly threw her out of my room and my life then and there. Maybe by the time we reconnected, we were both too damaged to be of any good to and for one another. Good riddance, love of my life!
 
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Villain said:
So in 6th grade it was love at first sight for me. I always thought she and I had some sort of connection and that we were the couple that was supposed to be together. We kissed goodbye our 8th grade year and I never saw her again until 2011 on Facebook when she sent me a request. All through the years, whenever I was in our old neighborhood, I’d look down her street at her house, hoping to maybe get a glimpse of her and would always think about her, wondering where she was in life. The only time we ever chatted on FB was “happy birthday!” and that was it.

Fast forward to 2020 and we reconnect over a picture of hers on FB, along with mutual friends and talk of a reunion. We get together after 25+ years apart and it’s like we grew up together and were never apart. Soon enough, all the red flags start coming out. She’s constantly reminding me of my failures, brings up stupid things I’ve done, constantly puts me down. The day of a major surgery, it’s her birthday also. I have a million and one things running through my mind since I may not wake up from this surgery and all she thinks to do is rip into me about how I was stupid for wishing her HBD on her FB wall and only wished her HBD through Messenger because she brought it up. I pull through the surgery and she comes to visit me in the hospital and starts ripping into me about my daughter texting me and all this other crap. I kindly threw her out of my room and my life then and there. Maybe by the time we reconnected, we were both too damaged to be of any good to and for one another. Good riddance, love of my life!
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Yeah unfortunately after you separate, life makes you both different, doesn’t take long either- that person who was perfect at the time doesn’t exist anymore. Makes you wonder if you both could have avoided the damage you now have if you had never lost contact.
 
Zarathos said:
Yeah unfortunately after you separate, life makes you both different, doesn’t take long either- that person who was perfect at the time doesn’t exist anymore. Makes you wonder if you both could have avoided the damage you now have if you had never lost contact.
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I often think about what would’ve happened had we actually connected back in middle school. I honestly never felt the way I felt about her toward anyone else. You would think someone who never left you mind for 25+ years was definitely some kind of connection. Maybe I was just totally delusional. Either way, there is now not even a FB friendship.
 
K1ngufk1ngs said:
Just that one girl(or whoever you loved no discrimination) who changed everything for you. But for whatever reason it didn't work out.
Like have that one person who if you could have one more chance with you would take it?
I know the idea of only one is dumb to alot. But I will say there are very few.
But I know for me there is someone out there I may never get to talk to ever again. And it tears me up inside. Makes it worse I can't even share my favorite parts of life with them like I used to. Even just friends would be nice.
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Move on and do not look back.

And no "just friends" would not be nice. Wow. Maybe you can be one of her girlfriends and she could share with you how the new guy she met last night (and fucked, "Oh, I don't usually do that") was so great in bed and bigger than anybody else and she came three times . . .

Sounds like paradise.

Dude, move on.
 
K1ngufk1ngs said:
Nah I'm in the same boat with your one. We both knew. But just life and shit and we can't even talk now.
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That’s the hard part. There are still things I want to just message my “one” about or ask how her day was like we used to and just hang out. That’s just human nature though, especially when you shared a life together. You have to move on though, otherwise you’re chasing a ghost.
 
Sometimes we get all wrapped up in how things used to be. Blinded. We forget all the bad things that happened. You have to remember, there was more there than what you still long for. Heres the most critical part. And I want to be crystal clear with this before I say it....there IS a difference between her and anyone knew you will ever meet..... there will be no "firsts" again. Ever. Thats what made it special the 1st time around. It no longer exists. The dream of reliving the happiness you once knew with HER is just that, a dream.

I know a few people that married their high school sweetheart. Got divorced and remarried that same person later in years. Not one of those people are happy as they thought they'd be. The "firsts" were experienced with others. They are merely content not having to live alone, or too scared to go out and find the "firsts" with someone new.
 
I know every time I look back i see more reasons why it couldn't work. But also know not a single other woman made me feel that happy and just ok with everything. There was just something there that until it was there you never knew you were missing it.
Like being oxygen deprived then finally having it. You didn't realize the pain that was there and how it could be lifted and when it's gone again. It's gone.
It's been over a year for me.
 
K1ngufk1ngs said:
I know every time I look back i see more reasons why it couldn't work. But also know not a single other woman made me feel that happy and just ok with everything. There was just something there that until it was there you never knew you were missing it.
Like being oxygen deprived then finally having it. You didn't realize the pain that was there and how it could be lifted and when it's gone again. It's gone.
It's been over a year for me.
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I'm nearly 10 years past that kind of long term relationship bro and, being honest, I'm still not totally over it and I never will be. Some experiences in life just can't be forgotten EVER if the experience was real and actually mattered.

I relocated 100 miles away and sacrificed all my friends and my career just to make sure I would never see that woman again.....but 10 years later I still need to have contact with her via text/phone calls for financial reasons so the pain and memories never really go away.

We're not friends but she's a really special/decent woman and we both still respect each other so the situation is "cool".
 
1tank1 said:
I'm nearly 10 years past that kind of long term relationship bro and, being honest, I'm still not totally over it and I never will be. Some experiences in life just can't be forgotten EVER if the experience was real and actually mattered.

I relocated 100 miles away and sacrificed all my friends and my career just to make sure I would never see that woman again.....but 10 years later I still need to have contact with her via text/phone calls for financial reasons so the pain and memories never really go away.

We're not friends but she's a really special/decent woman and we both still respect each other so the situation is "cool".
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Bro, it took me a good 15 years to get over my second girlfriend (different girl from my post above), who I was totally in love with. I never loved anyone like her before or after. Literally felt like I was going to die when she broke my heart. Even to this day, I still think of her here and there, but the feelings are gone. But damn it took forever to get to that place.
 
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3k mile move for me. It was her and her kids. Or back with my wife with mine and give it another go. I couldn't let my kids think I replaced them. I couldn't not give my wife a better me she deserved. Doesn't make it hurt any less like you all say. I just want to be able to send xmas cards sometimes or just even ask if her kids are doing good and tell her about mine.
 
Villain said:
Bro, it took me a good 15 years to get over my second girlfriend (different girl from my post above), who I was totally in love with. I never loved anyone like her before or after. Literally felt like I was going to die when she broke my heart. Even to this day, I still think of her here and there, but the feelings are gone. But damn it took forever to get to that place.
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I think every man had such a fatal woman who left a hole in our heart.
 
Villain said:
It sucks, but part of me thinks it’s necessary. Maybe I’m wrong, but do you ever really grow without heartbreak and failure?
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You grow/develop for sure, but with shattered illusions about life long happiness and a wake up call about women and relationships.

It's kinda like when a child realises there's no such thing as Santa and Xmas is just a fake bullshit money making scheme ;)
 
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