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Djdj97

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Hello,

Im quite new here and have posted only a bit, however today i was wondering if there are people here who have been fighting with drug/alcohol addiction and history of crime or prison? I grew up without a father and got to know wrong types of people as a teenager, started with drinking and smoking weed, then proceeded to selling and by 20 i was pretty much a pathetic dope fiend with problems on aggression and violence. I went to prison for a few years and got help for my addiction, now i have been free for 4 years, have a 6 month old daughter and a loving wife. Before i got in to drugs and crime i loved bodybuilding and sports, so as soon as i got sober in prison i got back in to bodybuilding and it has been a huge factor in my recovery process.
I have to be careful with steroids, and realizing when the addict in me starts acting and i notice i start upping doses or adding un needed compounds, but i am very happy with my life now. I also am keen on living past 50.
Thanks


Edit: I want to add incase anyone was concerned about me talking about having problems with aggression and violence and using PEDs. I actually never was violent when sober. I am quite an warm hearted guy and could not do violence without drugs. My world was just very fucked up to the point where violence was seen as something to be proud of. Never have i had violent thoughts on PEDs.
 
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Djdj97 said:
Hello,

Im quite new here and have posted only a bit, however today i was wondering if there are people here who have been fighting with drug/alcohol addiction and history of crime or prison? I grew up without a father and got to know wrong types of people as a teenager, started with drinking and smoking weed, then proceeded to selling and by 20 i was pretty much a pathetic dope fiend with problems on aggression and violence. I went to prison for a few years and got help for my addiction, now i have been free for 4 years, have a 6 month old daughter and a loving wife. Before i got in to drugs and crime i loved bodybuilding and sports, so as soon as i got sober in prison i got back in to bodybuilding and it has been a huge factor in my recovery process.
I have to be careful with steroids, and realizing when the addict in me starts acting and i notice i start upping doses or adding un needed compounds, but i am very happy with my life now. I also am keen on living past 50.
Thanks
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I was bad into drugs, been clean 11 years now. There's an old thread somewhere on here about recovered and recovering addicts, had a lot of posts. I wasn't in prison before, though I did get stuck with a crime on record I was innocent of.

Been using AAS 5 plus years now, I don't see it in any way an addiction comparable to recreational drugs for me personally. However I now see I have other things that helped take the place of them, like exercising which I have taken to the extreme before.
 
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Went to prison for a few years for importing and trafficking cocaine. Got into bodybuilding-type training in there and built up my discipline in there.

When I got transferred to minimum security, we didn't have cells anymore. There were houses that had a full living room, bedrooms, kitchen, etc, and in each house there were a few of us.

We had to cook own meals in there with food that we would "buy" (money that was given to us by the instutution - we could use our own money that we worked for/had sent in to buy canteen items, but we couldn't spend that money at their "grocery store"). So I would call up my friends, my dad, my brother, etc, and asked them to google how many calories were in, say a cup of cooked chicken breast. I had to measure my food by volume because we didn't have a food scale in there, but we had measuring cups. I had a big list of a bunch of foods with their calorie counts and their macros. I made a big transformation body-wise while inside.

Anyway, I've been out for over 4 years now and have been 100% in my training and diet since then.
 
Country Club Hero said:
Steron forums are notoriously loaded with former outlaws and addicts. Many in the forums would say sterons and training saved their lives because they traded drug addiction with an addiction to fitness. It’s not ideal but it’s far better than the alternative.
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it may be a hard pill to swallow, but we're all still addicts. we're literally on a steroid forum because we love talking about gear lol. we just swapped out opiates/alcohol/benzos whatever for drugs that, if done correctly, will improve the quality of our lives. i used to drink a bottle of vodka a day, sometimes more, and i hated what i saw in the mirror. i hated myself so much that i had to obliterate myself to forget that i hated what i've become, which happened every day for a year.

the worst feeling ever is hating what/who you see in the mirror and these days i'll do anything to avoid that. taking steroids to look better, feel better, fuck better, train better is infinitely better than getting drunk alone in your misery, reliving trauma. fuck that life. i'm proud of who i am now.
 
Pantera said:
Went to prison for a few years for importing and trafficking cocaine. Got into bodybuilding-type training in there and built up my discipline in there.

When I got transferred to minimum security, we didn't have cells anymore. There were houses that had a full living room, bedrooms, kitchen, etc, and in each house there were a few of us.

We had to cook own meals in there with food that we would "buy" (money that was given to us by the instutution - we could use our own money that we worked for/had sent in to buy canteen items, but we couldn't spend that money at their "grocery store"). So I would call up my friends, my dad, my brother, etc, and asked them to google how many calories were in, say a cup of cooked chicken breast. I had to measure my food by volume because we didn't have a food scale in there, but we had measuring cups. I had a big list of a bunch of foods with their calorie counts and their macros. I made a big transformation body-wise while inside.

Anyway, I've been out for over 4 years now and have been 100% in my training and diet since then.
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What kind of prison do you have in US? That's better condition than some people living. Why homeless people don't get in prison only for this purpose don't know.
Here you have a 25 year old mattress and 20-30 guys in 20-25 mp² and there are still homeless people that got in there just for a warm place and 3 meals.
In some country I hear that you have a Playstation in your room and 2 people are there
 
Nilatac said:
What kind of prison do you have in US? That's better condition than some people living. Why homeless people don't get in prison only for this purpose don't know.
Here you have a 25 year old mattress and 20-30 guys in 20-25 mp² and there are still homeless people that got in there just for a warm place and 3 meals.
In some country I hear that you have a Playstation in your room and 2 people are there
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I'm in Canada, but from what I've heard, U.S. minimum security prisons are similar.
 
Pantera said:
I'm in Canada, but from what I've heard, U.S. minimum security prisons are similar.
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I am from Finland myself, and we have something like that too. First you go to maximum security prison, and once everything goes well there you can apply to something thats called an 'open prison'. Its like these wooden barracks where you either have your own room or you have one room mate, you have your own kitchen etc. We also had canteen but the best part was that we were allowed to go to a regular grocery shop once a week (its an small island with a small population). You also would get 12-24 hour leaves per month where you could go visit your family or whatever wearing a ankle monitor.
 
Djdj97 said:
Hello,

Im quite new here and have posted only a bit, however today i was wondering if there are people here who have been fighting with drug/alcohol addiction and history of crime or prison? I grew up without a father and got to know wrong types of people as a teenager, started with drinking and smoking weed, then proceeded to selling and by 20 i was pretty much a pathetic dope fiend with problems on aggression and violence. I went to prison for a few years and got help for my addiction, now i have been free for 4 years, have a 6 month old daughter and a loving wife. Before i got in to drugs and crime i loved bodybuilding and sports, so as soon as i got sober in prison i got back in to bodybuilding and it has been a huge factor in my recovery process.
I have to be careful with steroids, and realizing when the addict in me starts acting and i notice i start upping doses or adding un needed compounds, but i am very happy with my life now. I also am keen on living past 50.
Thanks


Edit: I want to add incase anyone was concerned about me talking about having problems with aggression and violence and using PEDs. I actually never was violent when sober. I am quite an warm hearted guy and could not do violence without drugs. My world was just very fucked up to the point where violence was seen as something to be proud of. Never have i had violent thoughts on PEDs.
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Stay strong brother!

Good for you for changing your life around, it is no easy task.

Everyone has a past... it’s what you do now that matters!
 
So I was in the military for 8 years, planned on staying in till I retired. My service got cut short though, ended up breaking my back overseas on deployment. After that the military said they had no use for me and medically retired me. After I got out I spiraled out of control.

The military had no use for me and I felt useless in general. Got really depressed and then started on pain pills, then heroin, coke, and finally meth. Ended up going to jail 3-4 times then caught prison time for manufacturing meth. Been sober now since 2017, and I've been using gear for almost a year. I've noticed loads of ex addicts across the various steroid forums it's really interesting.
 
Djdj97 said:
I am from Finland myself, and we have something like that too. First you go to maximum security prison, and once everything goes well there you can apply to something thats called an 'open prison'. Its like these wooden barracks where you either have your own room or you have one room mate, you have your own kitchen etc. We also had canteen but the best part was that we were allowed to go to a regular grocery shop once a week (its an small island with a small population). You also would get 12-24 hour leaves per month where you could go visit your family or whatever wearing a ankle monitor.
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My worst case scenario is going to jail in one of the Scandinavian countries as I have heard that condition there are top. I rather go there than on the streets. If things goes bad I would do some sort of law break just to get inside.
In Belgium I heard that condition are good also and you can work and make +1k€ and you don't pay rent or other living expenses.
Sounds like a worst plan but better than being on streets for example...
 
Nilatac said:
My worst case scenario is going to jail in one of the Scandinavian countries as I have heard that condition there are top. I rather go there than on the streets. If things goes bad I would do some sort of law break just to get inside.
In Belgium I heard that condition are good also and you can work and make +1k€ and you don't pay rent or other living expenses.
Sounds like a worst plan but better than being on streets for example...
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I used to know some homeless dudes that would always get themselves locked up on purpose during the winter. They said the warm jail cells beat freezing on the streets any day.
 
Nilatac said:
My worst case scenario is going to jail in one of the Scandinavian countries as I have heard that condition there are top. I rather go there than on the streets. If things goes bad I would do some sort of law break just to get inside.
In Belgium I heard that condition are good also and you can work and make +1k€ and you don't pay rent or other living expenses.
Sounds like a worst plan but better than being on streets for example...
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But scandinavian prisons are also top of the world on rehabilitation, and the percentages of people returning are much smaller than in some other countries!
 
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