Had a re-lapse

[master.on]

I always thought i would escape addiction one day, but everytime i think its gone there it is knocking. Things are actually going well and at this time i cant explain these urges to use. I actually gave into the urges this week. I injected heroin for the first time. It was only smoking before. Damn steroid needles. Been talking with some bros via pm and its been helpful talking it out. Trying to be strong for my family nd hopefully this wont get worse before it gets better. Anyone ever have these issues of just wanting to use without a real reason?

In a harm reduction scenario, be clear
Why not switch from heroin addiction to using prostitutes addiction?
I'm totally serious about it.

 

[desertwarrior]

Im seriously humbled that so many guys have reached out to lend an ear. Theres some real big overgrown hearts behind those chiseled physiques lol. Thank you guys honestly.

 

[XKawN]

Well, atleast we know you used a sterile needle, lol. Good luck, DW.

 

[desertwarrior]

Sometimes you just have to live in the moment and appreciate what you have. I could not do that. Now I have made some terrible life altering mistakes and am looking at some bullshit. My life just got put under a microscope so this will be my last post here for awhile. Which I think is best for everyone's safety. I will be thinking about meso and all I learned here. Love you bros.

 

[Oldschool]

Sometimes you just have to live in the moment and appreciate what you have. I could not do that. Now I have made some terrible life altering mistakes and am looking at some bullshit. My life just got put under a microscope so this will be my last post here for awhile. Which I think is best for everyone's safety. I will be thinking about meso and all I learned here. Love you bros.

Best of luck to you.

 

[fightandorflight]

Sometimes you just have to live in the moment and appreciate what you have. I could not do that. Now I have made some terrible life altering mistakes and am looking at some bullshit. My life just got put under a microscope so this will be my last post here for awhile. Which I think is best for everyone's safety. I will be thinking about meso and all I learned here. Love you bros.

Sounds like you've got good insight and are thinking through your decisions more carefully. Open a new chapter in your life, and be kind to yourself. Come back around at some point and let us know how you are.

 

[TRT]

Sometimes you just have to live in the moment and appreciate what you have. I could not do that. Now I have made some terrible life altering mistakes and am looking at some bullshit. My life just got put under a microscope so this will be my last post here for awhile. Which I think is best for everyone's safety. I will be thinking about meso and all I learned here. Love you bros.

That sucks. [emoji37] Take care of yourself. Chime in every so often if you can. We'll be here for ya buddy.

 

[Mebricky]

I've battled with addiction to dope (meth) and booze most of my adult life. Had a good stretch of sobriety from 2001- 2014 before an old sponsor caught me at a week moment and asked me if I wanted to smoke some. That aside the only thing that has worked for me was the fellowship of AA. Something powerful in knowing that I am not unique and hearing other men who have gone before me and are willing to share their experiences and offer advice.
I have a sister who at 45 has decided to start using heroine. Her two daughters, 16 and 17 have moved in with friends and my sister is now living in her shitty motor home wherever she can park it for a minute. No tabs no insurance not sure if she even still has a drivers lisence.
I would say good luck to you but I don't believe luck has anything to do with it. At some point the pain just isn't worth it anymore and you just do what you need to to get clean.

 

[Murho]

I'm sorry you are going through that.

I know a lot of guys who have relapsed, but then gotten clean again and are stronger than before.

I relapsed once myself, but now it has been over 25 years that I have been clean. I'm honestly afraid that if I ever went back to using, I might never stop again. Try to remind myself every day to be grateful.

 

[anonymous_475692]

@desertwarrior damn bro thank you for sharing first of all & I hope whatever you're going through gets better 100%

 

[Demondosage]

Heroin is the worst drug there is right now. Overdoses are at an all time high because of the shit people are putting in it to slow down respiratory rate. Don't do it!!!

 

[Marcus]

I always thought i would escape addiction one day, but everytime i think its gone there it is knocking. Things are actually going well and at this time i cant explain these urges to use. I actually gave into the urges this week. I injected heroin for the first time. It was only smoking before. Damn steroid needles. Been talking with some bros via pm and its been helpful talking it out. Trying to be strong for my family nd hopefully this wont get worse before it gets better. Anyone ever have these issues of just wanting to use without a real reason?

Shit!! I'm so sorry I missed this thread even after @MisterSuperGod tagged me... always the most important ones to be there for our brothers. Thoughts and prayers with you @desertwarrior

It's never as bad as it seems, nor as hopeless as it seems and there is always a way to help. Sending positive thoughts my man

 

[Billy Batts]

Sometimes you just have to live in the moment and appreciate what you have. I could not do that. Now I have made some terrible life altering mistakes and am looking at some bullshit. My life just got put under a microscope so this will be my last post here for awhile. Which I think is best for everyone's safety. I will be thinking about meso and all I learned here. Love you bros.

You got alot fight in you brother. Just another chapter that will lead to a more positive one. Stay strong! Keep moving foward!