How has covid effected your mind/mental health?

[jJjburton]

This shit is really starting to get annoying. I did relapse like an asshole. For 2-4 days. Thank goodness I got out of that mindset quick, and stopped taking stuff. It could of been even worse. It really was getting hard and still is. I am really lucky, i had people around to help me stop me, or i would have gone down a horrible path. Cause now i really dont even want to touch any substance.

how has covid effected your mental health?

 

[puckhog]

@jJjburton sorry to hear about your relapse. Sounds like you are back on track. Good job man.

Fortunately I was able to work straight through so I didnt have any extra time off. Time off = restless mind = trouble for me.

My frustration comes from the idiotic mandates that are being placed on us.

 

[flenser]

No substance abuse issues here other than food, but damn, I have definitely been off the wagon. Can't blame a virus on that, but if I could do it, I would make sure my governor was surrounded by junk food 24/7 for the rest of his miserable life.

 

[Warhorse]

@jJjburton sorry to hear about your relapse. Sounds like you are back on track. Good job man.

Fortunately I was able to work straight through so I didnt have any extra time off. Time off = restless mind = trouble for me.

My frustration comes from the idiotic mandates that are being placed on us.

This^^ thankfully have worked the entire time. An idle mind is s devils workshop. I sympathize with people who are at home and worrying about Bill's or their future. I would go out of my mind.

More power to you @jJjburton

The only mistake are the ones you dont learn from. Stay strong brotha

 

[Uglyrichie]

I actually dropped my anti depressants I was on buproprion sertralin and lamotragene and started hormone treatment. Can say I wish I would have at least stayed on low dose buproprion as there is too much bull shit every where and it's hard not letting it affect you. But once I received my warn notice at work it put me in prep mode for getting everything together for school. If we're talking booze or drugs don't you will regret it latter if mental find a neutral person it will be hard but there are some and let it don't dwell on it

 

[jJjburton]

@jJjburton sorry to hear about your relapse. Sounds like you are back on track. Good job man.

Fortunately I was able to work straight through so I didnt have any extra time off. Time off = restless mind = trouble for me.

My frustration comes from the idiotic mandates that are being placed on us.

That is very true.
Thats amazing about work during this. It does help tremendously to stay busy.

 

[puckhog]

@Uglyrichie that lamotrigine made me sick AF. Had to use zofran alongside it.

 

[Uglyrichie]

I just had to try something new so I want to see if it's hormones my initial bloods were crap. I just chose a bad time to mess with it. Once I got through the withdrawal it wasn't so bad I could of done a longer taper. When they added the lamotragine it was kinda my wake up call of they just medicate not fix. Please don't get me wrong there is a need for meds in mental health but after 20 years I'm tired of being numb

 

[4Figgy]

I’m lucky that we’re pretty much open now. I will say though that at the 7/8 week of the original shutdown I got depressed as fuck. Actually had thoughts of suicide. Never really contemplated it before, but now I understand much better what kind of hole you can fall into. The gym is my antidepressant, and without it I just felt lost. Never would have carried anything out, but just the contemplation was worrisome.

 

[Uglyrichie]

Idle hands man. Dude everyone is being taxed. Too much going on at once

 

[BigBaldBeardGuy]

Good thread @jJjburton. I knew others are facing the same shit.

Covid is draining. I’ve had mental health issues before and manage them. I am also an alcoholic with 10 years of sobriety. This has been a tough time for me. Ups and downs.

During the downs, I’ve definitely entertained thoughts of suicide and just picking up and leaving. I’ve struggled with sobriety too. There’s an ever present urge to say “fuck it, what does it matter...”

I’ve been fortunate to work the entire time but I get frustrated because there’s a lot of bad decisions being made and I feel powerless to change that.

This has not been “living life”. Our freedoms are being tinkered with and the media is manipulating us. I don’t want this to be the “new normal”. I want future generations to have what we’ve had. But people are rolling over and accepting their fate without a fight.

It’s depressing because this is not America. Wimpy people are trying to normalize their soft behavior. I always try to live my life and teach my children to live life better than that.

I don’t know what I’m going to do if this drags on longer. My children are missing out on life experiences. That’s tough for me to sit back and watch.

 

[DrinkFlintWater]

Yea. My business is losing momentum in terms of picking up newer projects. Nobody wants to work because let's face it, they've been making more on unemployment. My girlfriend has a few drinks every night, and I have been following suit here and there so yes, I did disrupt my recovery. But it's not a needle in my arm so I should be alright.
Also, I am just genuinely concerned about the economy going forward. Its depressing as fuck to see stores close their doors after being in business for many years. Its depressing to talk to customers of mine who lost a loved one to covid, suddenly and without warning. I dont think the overall impacts have even been felt yet. All because of why? A fucking bat some people ate? Think about it....our lives have been turned upside down because of a bat​

 

[Warhorse]

Yea. My business is losing momentum in terms of picking up newer projects. Nobody wants to work because let's face it, they've been making more on unemployment. My girlfriend has a few drinks every night, and I have been following suit here and there so yes, I did disrupt my recovery. But it's not a needle in my arm so I should be alright.
Also, I am just genuinely concerned about the economy going forward. Its depressing as fuck to see stores close their doors after being in business for many years. Its depressing to talk to customers of mine who lost a loved one to covid, suddenly and without warning. I dont think the overall impacts have even been felt yet. All because of why? A fucking bat some people ate? Think about it....our lives have been turned upside down because of a bat​

If that is the story you believe, because at this point it's one of a dozen stories.

 

[DrinkFlintWater]

If that is the story you believe, because at this point it's one of a dozen stories.

I'm sure there are plenty...whatever the case is, this entire thing is fucked

 

[Warhorse]

I'm sure there are plenty...whatever the case is, this entire thing is fucked

Agreed!

 

[jJjburton]

Yea. My business is losing momentum in terms of picking up newer projects. Nobody wants to work because let's face it, they've been making more on unemployment. My girlfriend has a few drinks every night, and I have been following suit here and there so yes, I did disrupt my recovery. But it's not a needle in my arm so I should be alright.
Also, I am just genuinely concerned about the economy going forward. Its depressing as fuck to see stores close their doors after being in business for many years. Its depressing to talk to customers of mine who lost a loved one to covid, suddenly and without warning. I dont think the overall impacts have even been felt yet. All because of why? A fucking bat some people ate? Think about it....our lives have been turned upside down because of a bat​

Stay positive man, just be careful one thing can lead to another. In regards to the drinking comment.

 

[jJjburton]

I put alot of recovery and feeling good, into exercise and the gym, since that was taken away, i did try to work with bands and bodyweight. But its not the same. I have always biked and that is going to fill the void of the gym for now, and swimming is something new i am trying.

riding a bike I have always done and turned to, all alone for miles and miles down a beach street, or a street with a bunch of trees or some landscape to me is theraputic.

 

[cochino]

It really didn't effect me all that much. I don't have any vices and being a farmer/rancher my life didn't change that much other than the gyms closing.
What really bothers me are things like the death rates, recovering addicts etc. My girlfriend is a filipina and in her country men were prevented from going to work and couldn't feed their families. Most there are poor to begin with and receive no government assistance. I'm sure the death rates from non Covid deaths are much higher in those countries than the disease itself. I wonder how many addicts relapsed because they couldn't attend meetings and on and on. This is worldwide shitty deal.