Im sad i dont have my best friend

[Ghajk]

I wonder the night, not knowing what to do.. all I want is to numb the thoughts of love away.

The night drowns me in devil water, take away my soul, as I wasn’t good enough, I tried to defy the distance, I tried.. but I wasn’t enough.

I am a failure.


I wonder the night thinking of you constantly.. not being able to shut my brain down, no matter how fucked I am..

I told myself dont, you arent this.. you are better… im not.. Im a fucking failure, to you, to myself.. I cant cope with losing the love of my life..

I dont even know why Im posting this, to vent.. in life I have to be fine. Im not allowed to not be ok.
I am fine, but Im not.
I have no one.
Im alone.
alone.
I am fine.





some nights
i whisper your name
to the stars
not because i think they'll answer,
but because
I hope you'll feel it
somewhere
in your chest.

i like to believe
that love
travels farther than sound,
that it finds its way
through clouds,
through distance,
through time.
and if your heart skips
for no reason tonight
maybe that's just me
saying i miss you.

 

[Sickxlost]

Tren…

 

[Ghajk]

Tren…

Tren doesn’t sound too bad right now.. an old friend…. but I made promises that I would never touch it again.
Last time I was running quite a bit and almost lost everything… then again… what do I have to lose now.. I lost everything…

 

[Sickxlost]

Tren doesn’t sound too bad right now.. an old friend…. but I made promises that I would never touch it again.
Last time I was running quite a bit and almost lost everything… then again… what do I have to lose now.. I lost everything…

Nah I get that man. I promised I wouldn’t ever touch it again as well. Now I just let it touch me

Where there is a will there is a way